PARENT UPDATES for daniella and ariel and anyone else who's worried about me bc the freakin pay phone is only for local calls like plz swerve (or sweve ha ariel) i have friends in other states u inconsiderate douches (i fuckin love you guys so much it kills me sometimes i jus wanna hug u forever)
My parents got married yesterday and that was okay and actually kinda fun and I liked my dress and I got to see my family and I love them so like *~whatever forever~*
um ya my dad totally freakin dislikes me but the feelin is mutual so *~sweg~*
except he keeps saying "when I come back from PA" um hello u told me i was not coming back (and tbh I don't really plan on it. I refuse to be in an environment where I don't feel loved and I constantly feel bad about myself and my mistakes because I now realize that as a child my dad should not make me feel not way and it's not healthy.)
um what else
OH YEAH I talked to my grandma and wow I'm going to make a whole separate post about that because I had a very long spiritual talk with her on the beach but it wasn't just about God lol we also talked about some of the things my dad has put me through and she agrees that he should not make me feel this way and so does my aunt and it was just a relief like *~hallelujah hashtag i am not crazy~* Like I explained to them how I understood how I can be an (for lacking better terms) an asshole but just because I get moody ((((((not to mention I have anger issues))))) ((((not that that is any justification but I actually experienced interest in therapy (finally) and my dad has done NOTHING)))) doesn't mean I should feel like I'm less of a person. Especially from my FATHER. Not to mention he's put me in some shitty situations. Keep in mind this grandma is my dad's mom lmao so if that's not the truth idek what is. Basically they both just reassured me and it felt really great bc they're so cute and they love me yippeeeeeeeeeeee
and I leave to Pennsylvania in 4 days
and I don't have a phone anymore but I'll ((most likely/hopefully/if my life works out for once) be getting one in August bc saving babysitting money and then I'll be getting a stable job through sophomore year to pay the bill monthly myself so yup bye