#ylah

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Thinking;;; brainstrummin;;; doodlin;;

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I cannot stop thinking about them

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Been thinking a lot about Ylah recently. So uh. Timeline where Ylah didn’t go against Fate’s design to save Macrides, lets him die instead, instantly regrets it, then dedicates their life to filling the hole he left and getting the happy ending they dreamed of.

Rambles Below

True Verse Ylah and Titus

“True” as in (in-world) this was the path that was Supposed to happen.

In the main verse story, Ylah goes against fate to save Macrides from a death at the claws of his father Korgrove, instead dying in his place. I had wrote and drawn some things about how Ylah post-death becomes a sort of lesser-god lower-management for the god of Fate, and sees all past versions of themself from that place. Each sees that future version of themself, and swears that they won’t end up like that. But they All Do, something Ylah chalks up to Nature, and a lack of True Free Will.

So True Verse is like. What if one of them didn’t make the same choice? And had to live with the knowledge that they’re some unhappy anomaly that didn’t save the person they loved? They feel guilty about that, so they try to keep him alive in any way they can; at first by filling the roles he was supposed to hold in the Mortal Realm, and then by deciding to find some way to Bring Him Back.

Titus is there too, taken in by Ylah as his new parental figure. Instead of being raised in the woods however, Ylah (a person much less accustomed to Roughing It than Macrides) lives and raises him in Society (note: still figuring out whether that’s in Pironbury or if Ylah would have migrated further)

I’m still figuring it all out but as you can probably tell I’m getting lots of inspiration for this; highlighted thoughts include:

Themes of missing someone you feel responsible for losing, parental figures who’s absence defines your childhood but still must be regarded well, found family, responsibility and duty, What Should vs What Is vs What Can

Twelve year old Titus beating up extraplanar beings with a baseball bat

Sundance is there. I haven’t talked about him much but I love hating him. When I introduced him to my dnd party the reaction was equal parts annoyance and bitter attraction.

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If fate and destiny had never prevented Ylah and Macrides from being in the mortal realm at the same time, they’d dress as Shrek and Fiona for Halloween

Macrides as Fiona and Ylah as shrek (they both wanted to be Fiona but Ylah gives in after like 30 minutes of arguing)

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Ylah outfit doodles;;

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I think one of the things that really calls me to Ylah and Titus’ dynamic is. Ylah sees the future, but always focuses on the wrong things. They think they know the path things are going down, think they have some control, but Titus is living proof that they Don’t.

They see this person they think he’s going to grow up into, but when they Look at him they can see that things Aren’t playing out the way they think it will. He’s surprising, he catches them off guard frequently, just like someone else Ylah loved. And they barely realize that it’s because of Them that he’s someone so different from how he could have been, but when they Do they only see that as a Negative kind of thing, like they kept him from his destiny.

Titus does not see it that way. He does not want to be the person he was in those other realities that he hears so much about. He likes his life, he loves Ylah, loves his friends, has a Home and a Community he feels truly safe and nurtured in. Why would he want that other reality, where he’s alone and cold and abandoned and furious? Why does That have to be the “right” path?

Free will, fate, destiny, all things they have Very different views on.