I think I might just rant a bit today. The past few days I’ve been very hyper,feeling... absolutely insane, and I think I’m having a spiritual awakening that I am not sure what it is about yet, except for the past life things I’ve been working on and...
I just worry it’s all in my head. That it’s because I’m an american with no culture.
Great grandmother was native, but my great grandfather divorced her before I was born, so I don’t know anything about that. And thus it would be appropriation if I tried to dive into it. (I also don’t know which tribe she is from so I can’t even research it properly just to be informed.)
My other side is mixed European and scandanavian. But, It’s all so diluted that I don’t feel connected to that either.
I think I started doing witchcraft because I wanted to feel connected to something bigger, and I worry all the things I figure out about myself are just me wanting to be “special”? When I’m not, and I just don’t belong anywhere.?
I don’t know, maybe all this is to make me aware that I feel lost and need to look inward as to what I really want.