#yoosungobsessed

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me: im going to NOT ruin my sleeping schedule this summer!

mystic messenger: hello

me: lol nvm

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me: *talking to my sister about yoosung*

me: i can't believe we're married!!

dad: *overhears*

dad: WHAAAT?

me: what.

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i don’t get those who don’t find yoosung cute & likeable???? u guys don’t make sense to me tbh

- pls don’t try to explain why, im stubborn & would rather live in my yoosung loving world, thanks! -

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- that damn reset button -

BEFORE YOU READ PLEASE DON’T JUDGE.

i got inspired by a picture i saw on pinterest and wanted to write about it. if it’s not your cup of tea, please feel free to just ignore it and continue scrolling. this is my first time posting something like this and i would appreciate it if there are no offensive comments. thank you!

aaaand— it may or may not be about my yoosung... so if you're not that into him, please continue scrolling. :)

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i sit. i sit there for what feels like hours trying to decide whether or not to do it. i never thought i’d fall so deeply in love with someone. i never thought someone would make me as happy as he does. the baby with blonde hair and a ph.d. the boy who once played LOLOL for days without exiting his room, and the man… the man who proved himself even when i didn’t ask him to, and was a big reason as to why i was alive now. in this present day.

i continue to sit longer. i don’t want to do it. i want to stay here longer. live this life longer. but there’s nothing more left for me here. i have to go to someone else and fall in love or choose to end our story a different way. i don’t know which one is worse.

“no matter what…” i whisper, “you are the one. you were and will always be… the one.”

he was my first love, my first kiss, my first boy. he risked his life for me. he will stay with me.

“no matter where i end, no matter what happens, it’s you. it is always, always you.” i say, biting my lip to stop myself from crying.

i know the stupid powers of the magical reset button. the button that doesn’t literally exist but is there.

it’s there when you choose to restart. it’s there when you choose to go to a different route. it’s there alright. waiting for you every time you end the party you worked hard for. whether it took long or short due to your hourglass situation, it’s there waiting for you.

once you choose to leave, you don’t get to stay anymore. it’s gone and the worst part is, you know and you have to pretend not to. you live the same days over and over and over until the whole system itself runs out of secrets.

i look at the picture album and flip through his pictures.

“it’s okay, you’ll forget me. when you know me again, i’ll be someone else’s.” the thought hurts. i can’t help it. a tear escapes my eyes as it runs down my cheek.

“i love you yoosung, and thank you.”

i press the reset button.

that damn reset button.

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i keep going back to yoosung's after ending & i will not be ashamed. it's the best i can do after resetting okok

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*breathes heavily as i look at the new update for the first time*