#yorua

[fasytrashblog]

I love to d this kind of things! Here for you a "Yoruelfi" like I call it.

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[liedtoyou]

Well. I was away from Tumblr for a few days. The state of U.S. politics made me a little crazier than I wanted to be.

Okay, that’s not true. I mean, it is, but let me try again.

I was away from Tumblr because real world events, by some fucking margin of probability, punched me right in the very specific, complex delusional reality I pretend I can ignore.

Which is to say, I live with the unrelenting certainty that the world is ending due to climate change/human impact and the planet is in its final violent death throes, and humanity is denying it and it’s far past too late. The only possible chance the planet has at ALL was absolute human extinction. Immediately. More than immediately. There was no immediately that would be too soon (and it might be too late? Every second that passes, etc. etc.)

I’m aware, now, that the reason I was the only person who could see it is that I’m crazy and not because of vast conspiracy on a global and individual level. But it’s still what “feels” real to me. The difference is that for now... usually... I can ignore it.

There are times it comes back, but I do generally know it’s not “real.” It’s like I live in two realities. The one that’s true (but isn’t) and the one that I’m actually in (but which I can’t entirely reconcile, so there’s always the two realities, always.)

Except that what amounted to a cartoonish, sledgehammer version of this became real a few days ago and my dash was a solid wall of posts about science denial and gag orders and funding freezes and I spent a couple days in a less than super place.

I am aware, objectively, that this situation is still a thing. But it’s not the entirety of my dash, and I am (shamefully) doing my best to ignore that whole affair because I literally can’t handle thinking about it. I start to feel the panic the instant I think about the fact that it’s actually (still) true.

[zyraxus]

Color sketch of railerat's Yorua, who got some updating