Since the beginning of time (or at least that's what it feels like) I've wanted a tattoo. But no matter what I try, something always keeps me from getting one. I'm too young, shop is too shady, my friend's gets infected and it scares me, someone tells me its a bad idea, I'm intoxicated, Las Vegas was too expensive. Whatever the reason, I just haven't gotten around to getting one, and it's so frustrating. I don't know if like, that's God trying to tell me I shouldn't get one, or if I just have bad luck when it comes to (almost) everything. But here's my little list of tats I thought were/are just SO GREAT, but why I've never gotten around to making it happen. Some of them, thankGod I didn't get.
Birds on my left shoulder blade at 13. I didn't get them because my mom told me I wouldn't want them peeping out from behind my wedding dress when I'm older. And I guess another reason could've been because I was too young. Sigh.
"Strength" in Chinese on my wrist at 13. UM. I'm not even Chinese. Chinese? I guess Chinese was a thing? Maybe I just wanted attention. Why would I ever think Chinese tattoos were okay? I don't know. Gah.
"Cowboy Take Me Away" on my lower back at 13. I'm like. crying right now. You have to know this was my favorite Dixie Chick song and I lived in the country.. so I assumed it was fitting.. Don't judge me. I didn't get it because I gave up on looking for a tattoo artist that would tat me without telling my parents. Yes I looked them up.
An anchor on my foot at 14. This I still think would be kind of cute. A little one on my heel or something. I almost got this one. My friend's brother owned a tattoo gun. He put his gloves on and everything, turned on the gun and then I started crying. Lame. I know.
Flowers on my hip at 15. I wanted pretty daisies.
Just because they're my favorite flower. Nothing creative.
An owl on the back of my neck/top of my spine at 16. During my 'so obsessed with how cute owls are' stage like everyone else was at the time.
"Have Faith" in Italian on my rib cage at 17. But then ohhhhh awkward my ex boyfriend's girlfriend (at the time) had a similar tattoo, ew. Had to throw that to the wind. Like all I needed was for people to say I was copying/trying to be her.
"Love thy enemies" in Hebrew on the inside of my right foot at 18. It's just something I try to live by. Something I always try to remind myself. I want to have love for everyone even when it's hard.
"To love something ordinary is beautiful" on my ribcage at 18. It comes from a quote talking about how easy it is to love a rose because a rose is beautiful but how it takes character to love a leaf. "It's easy to love the beautiful but it's beautiful to love the ordinary". I just kind of fell in love with it, and just reworded it. There's so much to the saying. But that's the one I couldn't get because I was intoxicated. Oops.
I probably won't ever get a tattoo. I'm constantly changing my mind of what I want. Or who knows, maybe I'll get all of them. At one point each of them was something I wanted. Besides the Cowboy Take Me Away one. I can't believe that at some point in my life I actually thought that would've been remotely okay. Like, no.
