#youngyong

[tsukairi]

This is one of the most beautiful fmv I have ever seen. I literally cried.

[my-moon-taeil]

no one:

not a single soul:

absolutely no one ever:

taeyong: KIIIM DOOOOYOOOOONG!!

[miyuki-sawamura-tydy]

I am Okay

"Stop following me around. I've told you, I am okay, Suh Youngho. Could you please stop worrying so much?"

Johnny only reply him with a 'hurm'. He has been following him around the dorm, to the convenience store, to the practice room and he will wait for Taeyong until he finished his jobs in the studio late at night. The producers smiles at him everytime they saw Johnny trailing behind Taeyong into the studio everyday. They know why Johnny being like that lately and they welcomed him happily in the studio.

"You can continue doing whatever you're doing. You can ignore me."

"How can I ignore the fact that someone following me around like a creep?! I can take care of myself. For God's sake Johnny, I said I'm okay. I'm just busy with the debut. No need to worry too much. You make me feels like I am fragile human being!"

It's rare for Taeyong to call him Johnny unless he was pissed off. And Johnny was sure he's beyond pissed at the moment. All their members were quite in the living room but he was sure they were listening to their conversation in the kitchen. Everyone were worried for Taeyong. Lately he has been pushing himself to the limit after the scandal broke out. He's using Super M's debut to make him busy everyday.

"Don't used Super M's debut to push yourself to your limit, Yong. The last time you were so busy like this was during your NCT's U debut."

"You were saying that I never put my best for the rest of my schedule? Do you think that I didn't put my best for NCT 127's schedules all these times?!"

"Don't get me wrong here Lee Taeyong. I didn't means it that way. You are going back to your old self. You're always like this, same like when your scandal broke out during NCT U's debut. You always pushed everything away. I wish you will reach for us or me everytime you in this situation. What am I to you, Taeyong?"

"You are saying that you didn't believe all the rumors about me? What if I'm that jerk who harassing my own classmates? What if all the rumors are true? I've been working my ass off for 3 damn years, proving myself that I can be a better person but for what?! For them, I'm still that jerk who bullied some kids in middle school."

"You know that's not true."

"No one know the truth, Johnny! Even I tell them the real story, no one will believe me. I'm tired of this shit already. With all the rumors about me, I feel like I don't deserve whatever I have right now. Am I suitable being a leader for a team that trusted me to lead them when I'm that jerk who have dark past. You know what make me feels worst? I feel bad for Dream kids especially Chenle and Jisung. I thought I was showing them a good example but with all things happened, I don't think I can even look them in the eyes anymore."

"Hey, you are thinking too much. You are our leader. You are chosen 3 years ago after your scandal broke out. What make you think that it will change today? Chenle and Jisung will always look up on you no matter what happened today or in future. I might think that Chenle is your hardcore fan at this moment. Can you imagine how many messages I received from both of them especially Chenle since the news about your scandal come out? They were worried about you. Not only them but all of us are worried about you. Can't you see that, Yong?"

Their members make some noise in the living room with some 'Yeah', 'Exactly', 'True' and 'You are dumb if you didn't know that'. They both know the last comment is from Yuta. Their members are focusing on them not the movie they currently 'watching'. Johnny snorted at their reaction but it brings a smile on Taeyong's face. He doesn't realized he was crying until he touched his face.

"Hey, you should come to us everytime you're in this situation. We are a team and your friends, you know." Johnny reached to wipe his tears and pull him into his arms. Taeyong is visibly relax in his arms. Johnny rubs a circle on Taeyong's back while rocking him left and right. He tighten his arms when he feels Taeyong's arms hug his waist.

"I feel like I should kiss you at this moment. Should I go for it?" Johnny whisper to his ear.

"Oh God, Youngho. You spoiled the moment." Taeyong pushed his body away from him.

"Hey what's wrong with that?! Yah Lee Taeyong come back here! I'm not finish yet! Hey, listen to your hyung!"

Taeyong is completely ignoring him and walked out the kitchen. He took a seat beside Doyoung and Doyoung gives him a side hug, while Johnny took the seat next to Yuta. "Ohh, someone got rejected." Yuta whispered to Johnny's ear, loud enough for everyone to hear. Mark and Haechan gives him judging look while the rest of them laughing at blushing Johnny. Taeyong gives him a smile while resting his head on Doyoung's shoulder. He doesn't realized when he fell asleep.

He's been pushing himself to the limit so he can forget about the news about himself. He pushed everything aside and focus on himself. But his friends, especially Johnny always there to pull him out from his darkness. Taeyong is thankful that he got bunch of friends that he can trust. 3 years ago, Lee Taeyong that he knew have a trust issue and will pushed everyone away from himself. Taeyong feels bad for middle school Taeyong because he doesn't have friends that he can depends on but he keeps on reminding himself that he's not alone anymore. He will try his best to depends on his friends more in future.

Later that night, Taeyong kissed Johnny for the first time in their shared room and Johnny happily to return the kisses. Taeyong laughed when Johnny pulled him towards the bed and plopped him in his lap. "Hey, if you have problem in future, please let me know okay. I will kiss your problem away." Johnny looks into his eyes.

"You just want a reason to kiss me, huh?" Taeyong said while removing some hair on his forehead. His finger slide from his forehead to his nose slowly.

"Well, that's a bonus. Kissing you will always a bonus for me." Taeyong kissed his nose sweetly.

"You will kiss me only when I have problems then. Alright then."

"That definitely not what I means! Hey, stop twisting my words!"

"I know silly. Hey Youngho, thank you for being there for me everytime I need it. I'm thankful that I have you and our members beside me. Thank you for trusting me although I don't deserve it." Taeyong's finger still busy tracing Johnny's face slowly and it stop at his lips.

"I feel like I'm listening to an award speech."

"Shut up and just listen."

"You know that you can always depends on us. We will always be there for you. You are not alone anymore. You got 21 members and counting with you. You're damn busy handling your team to think about that false rumors created by some jealous people. Who? SM's ex-trainee? He was an ex-trainee and you are an SM's idol for a reasons. You know that's a fact."

"Do you think SM will add more members in NCT?"

"Knowing SM, they will. See, you can think about the new potential members rather than thinking about some baseless rumors. So stop thinking about that. And please don't push us away anymore. I'm sad."

"You are a big baby."

"I am your baby, what can I say."

"Chessy."

Johnny pulled him for another kiss. Taeyong is the happiest human being at the moment.

-The End-

A/N:

Drained of the ideas to continue. Need to finish it before this become a forgotten draft again..lol..sucks at ending as usual.