DEAR SELF,
If I can meet my past self now, I will hug her and thank her for not giving herself up. I know she will be proud of what she has become. I may not have anything to prove, but I am proud of what she has become. "I need to prove myself for myself." Proving something to others only leads to self-distraction.
It may sound dramatic to others, or it doesn't resonate a thing to them. They don't even understand it, and it's okay. Maybe, they don't understand it because they choose not to understand it, and it's okay. I understand.
Maybe, getting through a depressive phase is not a big thing for them, that's why I am not valid. My feelings are not valid. It's okay. I understand.
I have learned to validate my feelings. I have learned to understand myself more than anyone. I have learned to acknowledge the things that I am lacking. I learned to be kinder to myself. I have learned to take things slowly and enjoy the process. I have learned to celebrate my small win. I have learned that the opinion of others doesn't make me and will not make me.
I still have many obstacles along the way. I haven't reached my dreams and goal in life yet, but discovering a million reasons to live is a blessing. Knowing that I have me is another reason to keep going.
When you feel you are lost, that's the opportunity to rediscover yourself. Sometimes, we needed to get lost because we needed to get found. Do not give up on yourself. Instead, Find yourself.
