#youwillhurt

[mineko-means-mountain]

I ask for more patience tomorrow than I had today.

[01/31/2013]

[mineko-means-mountain]

I’ve been observing a palliative care specialist for the past two days. Watching people die and/or consoling their families might be the most exhausting past-time. Yet, there’s this unbroken, somber wavelength - how a dilapidated state of mind can reveal the most healing tenderness of human nature. And people come to realize they were never meant to live in separation.

[07/07/2017]

[mineko-means-mountain]

Pain has connected me with some of the best people alive. I just wish I could stop hurting long enough to let them love me

[mineko-means-mountain]

aegis.

I realize you only broke me apart to pick me back up,

over and over.

I thought it was therapy.

I thought I was healing, each time you glued me back into

a vessel big enough to

house your insecurities, yet

small enough to

keep me trapped.

___

After all that soldering, craftsmanship, and care,

it wasn’t enough to keep the voices out

or the wind in your hair.

You dropped me & i shattered ( & set my spirit free)

You left & took secrets & pieces with you (& they’re no longer me)

But between fractals of ego & disillusion (dis-illumined)

I found myself beyond the point of fixing (fixation)

____

And I’m grateful you broke me (the cycle of breaking)

Because darling, I swear you’ll find

fragments of you 

without place

outside the inferno region

of this expanding cosmic space.

[02/10/2019]