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Can’t believe I was officially designated an UNUS by the unus annus website 😔😔😔

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you all are FOOLS. This blog is PRO-ROGER

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Let me update you on something. Im sad my break got so messed up but i try to stay positive. I couldnt see you and got the zika virus :( yay you me. The virus is not bad, I guess youd wonder. It just makes me very tired and I dont want to get up from bed, but Im almost recovered :) . Im going back home on Sunday.. anyway talk later love you much

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omg I opened tumblr to write a bit because I hadnt written in so long and my dad called and told me he got a job that pays him twice what hes making now and im so happy sorry! Anyway, lets get to what I came here to do, How are you? I have missed you because Ive been kind of busy, not just on school stuff but I keep constantly going places and stuff so I always wanted to update you on my doings but couldnt. I am doing good in school and Im so excited about finishing the semester!! I cant wait to see you (if you believe it you make it real). Ive been fine considering. Like, I get sad but the normal, I am glad Im taking the change in a bereable way. You gave me a little bracelet when you moved and Ive been wearing it everyday. I cant believe how much you afected my life. I truly love and appreciate you so much like I try to make friends and they dont compare seriously. Okay enough with the silly love letter

Talking about friends I have a classmate I grew a little close to and shes 17, broke up with her boyfriend and today we found out shes pregnant. Ive been kind of stressed and I dont get why but I think its because Im too much of an empathetic bitch so I keep wondering what if it was me. Its also hard because she doesnt live here, shes here to study (she lives in another city frm DR) and me and another friend have to kind of be there for her and its too much.

Overall though, Ive been fine. Very glad the semesters seem like they are gonna go fast :) Love you. miss you too much and I hope to talk to you like with words sometime soon (get whatsapp pls)

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And about that post for your Philosophy class, I identify with you. Everyone has questioned whether God exists or not in their life. I think it’s healthy actually. I have done it too, and I have come to terms with myself and see religion as a man made thing, and God as a being who goes beyond all science and can touch our souls. I’ve felt different things I can’t explain as well, but I refuse to blindly follow any ideals that have been tampered with and molded for thousands of years. Every time I go to church the first thing I do, even with all my doubts and my questions, is ask God to please open my mind and my heart so I can heard his message. I listen to my pastors, but I also analyze my surroundings and see what could be wrong and right in what they say. I don’t think about religion much either because it’s hard to understand, but I do try to live my life being aware of what is kind and correct and what’s not. One of the ladies at the church I grew up in once told me, “it doesn’t matter the religion you follow, if you believe in God he’ll always be in your heart” so that’s what I do. I have had my questions and my differing opinions with all religions, but I’ll never stop believing in God.

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I dreamed about you but i forgot the details and now Im sad. However, I do know it was about me going to Orlando on April and hanging out with you... I think there were also some tears involved. Oh well, I’ll make my dreams come true :D minus the tears hopefully

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hii i miss you

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I am so frustrated and i cant find anyone to talk to. I dont want to cause anyone in my family grief by speaking my mind and its 3:30 AM. My grandpa died a few moments ago. I cant sleep. My aunt is crying rentlessly and im with her in bed.

My grandpa had bad lungs. Its been like that for like 15 years i dont know if more. He would have this episodes where he couldnt breathe and he’d have to be nebulized or put on an oxygen mask. He ran out of oxygen not too long ago and i feel sooo bad. Maybe if we had bought him some more on time he’d be alive. He would tell God to take him when he couldnt breathe it was so painful to see. 2 days ago I felt he was about to die. But it had always been like that, and everyone just got used to him pulling through. He moved not too long to where I used to live, and my neighbors got so attached to him. The two kids one 13 the other 6 years old would play around with him. He used to be so cold when he was younger, all of the sudden he was playing around. They loved him so much. He said many times he felt they were his grandaughters and their mom his daughter. He was so loving and sweet lately.

I was supposed to sleep there today, but my aunt got sick last night and we came to sleep with her so she didnt have to sleep alone. I dont know if i am sad or glad I was not there. He’s still in his bed.

Im missing school tomorrow, but I have a lab on Tuesday and I dont think I can miss it. I feel so selfish thinking about it, but he’s gone, and he is not coming back and Im still here.

This time it hurts more than with my other grandpa, because this time I was here. I saw him yesterday playing dominos outside. And my other grandpa went through a series of misfortunes before dying.

I wont be able to sleep tonight, and theres many thoughts running through my mind, but this made me feel better. Im glad we have this blog, and Im glad I have you. Because, the only person I think of when Im like this is you. I love you. I hope you have a nice day at school.