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[zehir-is-drinking-blog]

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[spnsupport]

I've given up on my family. My dad drinks all the time, shouts at my brother and occasionally me and a few months back, told me that I was worth nothing and that I would never be known in history, people would only know me through my brother who he promised would be far more successful than me. Though he was drunk when saying this, it doesn't excuse it. My mother can't be accounted for. One moment she's nice and lovely. Another she's spiteful. I've tried to hold on, but should I let go of them?

Family relationships can be toxic. I know it’s a cliche, but you really can’t choose family. I’m sorry you’re stuck with such a shitty one. I would say give yourself much needed space from them. People can change, but I would definitely say wait it out with them. If in a year or more’s time they haven’t changed at all then I for one would not blame you at all for walking out on them. They sound like they’ve given you every reason to. If you’re old enough, look into getting a place with a friend or an extended family member. You don’t need to be in such a sick home. Things will turn around sweetie, you can get through this. <3

-Gabriel 

[spnsupport]

Hey I'm going through a lot My friends are leaving due to my intense mood swings from laughing to rage to deep sadness. My grades are plummeting due to the pressure from parents. I've been clean from self harm for a while but I have a knife under my pillow at this moment. Im getting tired of dealing with my mind with these mood swings. it is not fun because I can't control them. I can't go to the person I trust most either because I am deeply in love with her but I know the feeling isn't mutual

If your “friends” are leaving you because of your personal struggles, then they’re NOT your friends! You don’t need people in your life who are unsupportive towards you and uncaring, especially during this time in your life. About the grades, I know exactly how crazy stressful pressure from parents, peers, and teachers can be and how easily it can get to you. My advice to you about that is to want to get good grades for YOURSELF. Do it for your personal benefit. Tell yourself positive things like “I can learn this”, “I want to learn this”, “I deserve a good education”. Try to find motivation in things that inspire you. Grades don’t mean everything in life, but think about how brighter your future will be if you apply yourself in your schoolwork. :) If things really get tough, seek help from a nice teacher or a tutor. I’m sure they’d be more than happy to explain some things to you.

I’m sorry to hear about your mood swings, have you talked to your doctor about it? I think it would help you a lot if you asked someone about it and got down to the root of the cause of them. :) 

Agh, I know how difficult it can be to open up to people you’re in love with. If you’re sure you can’t push your feelings aside while opening up to her about your problems then I suggest talking to someone else trustworthy? Family, school counselor? Whoever you think you can confide in even to a minor degree, would help you significantly. Bottling everything up will make you feel even worse. You can’t keep everything in sweetheart. I hope you find the courage to accomplish this. <3 

-Gabriel