Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman 🐚
Navigating My Pre-Frontal Lobe Development
At 21 years old, I often find myself scrolling through social media watching women: 2 years, 10 years, 20 years my senior seamlessly weaving, seemingly flawless lives. Sometimes I'm even met with girls younger than me appearing impeccable and immaculate. My core identity shaken by my dissociation from reality monitoring others' accomplishments and diminishing my own. I, like most women, am denying my own potential by expecting myself to be anywhere else other than where I'm supposed to be. To love something is to accept, appreciate, and nurture what is before you. When you look in the mirror, the story of your life is staring back at you. When you look into your eyes your essence is concentrated on a finite point in your existence.
The journey of womanhood is tumultuous, teeming with life and foreign adversaries. Most end up there without even realizing, stunted, stuck in girlhood. Each path is unique. Life seems like a crossroads each step more fearful than the last. What if I told you to stop; to stand still for a moment. To allow yourself to breathe and feel the world around you. "Easier said than done" right?
The part of the journey that you
fail to see is that life is a war.
Wars are won through the battles. The
seemingly insignificant choices and
decisions that are accumulating in
your stomach, on your skin, in your
hair, and in your mood. With every
breath you take and every moment you
live, you decide who you are whether
consciously or ignorantly. The best
advice I've garnered came from an
older woman I admire. "Experience Life."
Get off your phone, get out of
your head, and live. Stand still
within and allow life to flow through
you. Take a deep breath and do the
thing, whatever it is you're thinking
of. These powerful, successful women
didn't become that way by avoiding
reality. Everyone starts somewhere.
Tap into your inner divinity and heed
the call to action. Fuel the burning
desire within you to see more, feel
more, BE MORE. Allow your essence to
overtake you and everything you do
until it makes even you sick. Relish
in every moment life has to offer.
Wake up to yourself, she's begging
you. Most of all, take your time, it
isn’t over until it’s over. (If you like my literature you can find me on my blog page @thequeenskeep )