First Sun of the Sixth Astral Moon
Book, things!
I will start with Faysal, he came back home from shopping for uncut gems in Ul’da. I finally got the silk robes I commissioned picked up. For some reason they were discounted buy a touch over half, something about House of Silk? We talked about a few things, one being my mother. I am glad he will be there at my side. I almost can not wait for the sun he tells me she is dead. I have so much dread in my gut, I know this woman she taught me everything. How to maim, kill, cause pain, and suffering, that would break a person’s soul. What can I say to her? I have questions, but how can I even speak?
Oh better things, he says he would be alright if I took a second mate. Book, I know this does not sound like me. My need for closeness is greater then they can give alone. Faysal will live as long as he wishes. If I can repair my soul, I may also be out of the Dread Wolf’s reach. I will walk with him in to the next era. I am his light in the darkness, I keep him sane. I know who I wish to date, someone who is bright as the sun in the sky. His passion for life, and want to be more than he is. The music, and creativity in his soul, I wish to know more about him. A balance, for my soul, and my heart.
We did go out today, I was sent to use my skills as a shadow and sneak in a facility. Now Book, Zayaat was leading this, well I thought she was. I can confirm the ascian in white that I saw when we saved Bataar, and appeared again on the airship, was there. In my time on the Steppes I do not recall a fondness for Majitech, they are a proud independent race. That ascian is toying with bio and tech, implants, though I cannot fathom on why. Unless he plans to set his enhanced Dotharl Zaela out to attack desperate beast tribes.
Zayaat made a lot of missteps. She was not a leader, she did not lead, and I had to fall back into the shadows because I knew no one had my back. Second thing that upset me is that she had the distraction group fighting right outside the door we came in. It was a very unsafe mission. It is very strange how she is so dismissive of the white ascian.. Saying things like he has not directly attacked us. He -IS- making these enhanced Zaela, you do not make war machines unless you plan on going to war. So Book, what is her big secret, why go soft against an agent of chaos? Seeing we are talking about Chaos.. Zayaat keeps speaking up on how she is unhappy with my Papa’s choices, how Nocturne and he are now one. I worry for my Papa, but so far the choice he made has not harmed anyone.. This time.. I suppose Zayaat never knowing love, real love, does not understand how it can change the soul. If Zayaat strikes out at my Papa, I will stand with him. I know that there is a past, a reason why Zayaat feels this way. Adapt of die, Nocturne and my Papa have found a new way.
She did come and talk to me, I feel she wants to do better. So I am not growling at her anymore, but I am… having some second thoughts about the coming parley with my mother.
PS: I suppose when I was having blackouts again it stole away that White wearing ascian name.