#ze's thoughts

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Imagine a fanfic where Future Leo has been living with present turtles for a good while, but some mystic shenanigans happen, and he's reverted back to the same age as present Leo. So, now you got two Leo's but also not really.

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Why are action scenes so hard to draw ;-;

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Imagine a separated AU but it's just Mikey separated living his best life on the surface world

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Must resist... urge to... make sonic AU comic...

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Got distracted with a commission oof sdjskdhjks

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Guess who sprained his arm ;v;

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I've been contemplating this whole week whether or not to make this post but I feel like I need to say something.

A trigger warning for sensitive topics regarding mental health.

As many of you have probably noticed, I've been having a lot of art blocks lately and struggling to post as frequently as I used to.

The truth is, since November, I've been in and out of hospital due to mental health, and I only recently got out of the psych ward. It's been really hard trying to keep up with posting even semi daily comic parts, answering asks, and now the competitions alongside my health. It feels like there's a lot of unrealistic expectations on me that I just can't meet.

I'm still gonna keep posting, as my art is what gives me purpose in life and genuinely makes me happy, but I just wanted people to understand why I'm falling so far behind. I'm not gonna go into the specifics, and I can't promise I'm okay, but I'm trying. That's the best I can offer.

This isn't a goodbye post— it's just an explanation for my own peace of mind, so I don't feel like there's as much expectation on me. I'll probably keep posting how I have been after this.

Thank you all for supporting me. So many of your comments and reblogs are what got me through some of my darkest times :)

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Me: Man I sure do love TMNT and all the content I'm making for it! Which is why I need to focus on that because I don't have time/energy to make anything else :D

Also, me: ....

Also, me: ... Make your own pokemon world. Do it, no balls.