#zhauric

[phoebe-of-ivalice]

14. Is your character secretive?

Extremely! A very large part of her job revolves around secrets, so she tends to keep people at arms length to avoid any issues. She has her code name and wears a mask when on the job, and typically keeps all of her hideout location information to herself. She never meets a contract hire in person and instead uses a specific delivery system to take jobs.

As far when Phoebe isn’t on the job, she’s typically still full of secrets. No one really knows what she does, unless they fall under her blade. She uses her role as a pirate ship quartermaster to cover her when she’s in Limsa Lominsa, and will blend in anywhere else that she isn’t from. She typically won’t let anyone personally close enough to her, due to risk of betrayal or becoming a target to her enemies. This unfortunately leaves her with few close friends and few romantic interests. She has her reasons though, and hopefully one day it pays off.

Thank you @zhauric for sending in the ask!

[protection-and-pleasure]

what is your muse’s love language?

I don't know if this counts but she definitely tries to make an impression with food and cooking for people. She's not very skilled at much else besides fighting and well... sex.

[the-wanted-man]

aloe : how does your muse handle grief ?

Botanical Headcanon Asks ♣ Here ♣

“I take a bite out’ve it. Chew on it. Savor th’taste a while n’spit it back out.” he grunts, reaching for his bottle with a roll of his eyes. 

ooc: This isn’t inaccurate, in a manner of speaking. He very much examines his sadness and his emotions. Not in any clinical way, but when he feels something, he feels it and seeks to understand why. Good things don’t taste quite as sweet if there weren’t bitter memories to keep them so. He wants to understand why he hurt, and then hopefully heal and grow from the experience. 

It’s just the understanding part he gets hung up on, and maybe the sitting down and actually trying. The wash of emotions can sometimes be a bit too much and he’s found numbing the edges down a bit to dull points makes the contemplating a little easier when he finally takes the time to do. Grief and sadness overall, he finds kind of difficult to share and often times while he might express certain things about his lesser moods, he never really touches on their depth. 

Thank you! Always coming through with the askbox love <3 

@zhauric

[protection-and-pleasure]

☠️ - Do they have any bad sexual experiences?

In her line of work, Nila absolutely does get the occasional bad client who isn't fun to serve or gets a bit too rough. Usually they're a one and done deal though so she doesn't have them as regulars.

[enchantingwrath]

begonia : how cautious is your muse ? are they prone to noticing red flags , or paranoid to the point of untrusting most everyone ? why or why not ?

𝐁𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒 // accepting.

What is the spider cautious of, if not the acknowledgement that others that wish to destroy its web?

Unfortunately, having been burned too many times by ‘ family ’ & friends alike has caused Jade to be incredibly cautious of others — to the point that mistrust of another is her default. Mistrust, to her, comes before trust and the spider’s faith in you is something that one needs to deserve. Gaining her trust is a long hard earned process, and this makes it far too easy for her to dispatch and depart, severing what very little ties that exist to bond her to another until that person has earned her trust and woven themselves into the cavity of her chest — something very few have achieved since she left Ul’dah.

However, despite her lengths of her paranoia, it does not affect her judgement of others when it comes to acknowledging toxic traits in others and she is most accurately and precisely able to notice red flags without exaggerating or imagining them. 

[protection-and-pleasure]

What do they like that nobody else does?

OC Asks

Nila is odd in that she prefers her meat either overcooked or somewhat burnt. It was such a normal thing for her when she started learning to cook that it became a favorite of hers. Now whenever she has the option, she'll always eat meat that's been blackened or at least charred.

[dawning-star]

❖: What is the attitude and appearance that your muse presents in public? How does this differ from the attitude they have in private, when they are alone?

Appearance-wise, little to nothing changes except that she might be comfortable with wearing a bit less than she'd have to in public. Attitude is more where the differences are, even if they have largely aligned these days.

Not often is it that she's putting up a front of boundless confidence anymore. That fun-loving nature that seems to lack a care in the world. That mask is reserved for if there's no one she knows or trusts around, essentially like a security blanket for her. Which means that she does have those moments where that lack of confidence slips through or uncertainty towards things. Her teasing nature is something that has not been forsaken even if there are those moments that she lets her vulnerabilities show.

In private though it is more noticeable, where she is far more open in her emotions. Letting that box open just a little bit before it weighs her down too far.

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Also asked by @amurr-reha ♥ thank you both!

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[astral-flame]

✿: Which one act in your muse’s past are they most ashamed of? Which one act in their past are they most proud of?

Uhh...probably getting involved with a Garlean anything? Kinda set the stage for all of the bad shit in her life. The proud bit would probably having the balls and the brains to own up and admit that she was screwed and screwing over everyone around her and leaving. Albeit, too late.