#zoisa

[yeehawbuckarooni]

Feeling sick over Carol FINALLY asking if Zosia had a partner.

Dancing around assigning gender to the person, never asking, and then the glee and jubilation over knowing that that person was likely dead before the joining (or… somehow is one of the other 11 immune. But that’s highly unlikely). It rubbed me the wrong way.

When Carol is asking this… Zosia seems …. Uncomfortable? Like how they get when they omit information that will hurt/upset Carol. My knee jerk assumption was that Carol was finally going to ask if Zosia had been into women. And it felt like maybe that was the Joined’s guess, as well. Wouldn’t Zoisa have said more, if her loved one had been a woman?

As a lesbian in her mid 30’s…. this was a gut punch. I can see why Carol didn’t ask Zosia, from a lot of different angles. However, as someone who grew up and spent a good amount of adulthood being accused of being predatory simply by existing… this made my stomach drop. Somersault. One of my biggest anxieties has been people assuming I’m a creep, or predatory. Since those first days in Junior High when I was first starting to feel myself, and being incredibly self conscious in the locker room. Not wanting to corrupt any of the other girls. Not wanting them to discover my bad thing inside of me. Hell… I even felt it when I started my new job here in the small town I just moved back to.

For the record, I’m not saying Carol handled it incorrectly. And I’m not accusing her of anything. She’s not perfect. But… oh my god. That would have been one of the first things I asked, I think.but maybe I wouldn’t? Maybe I’d be so selfish, too and want to hold on so tightly to any crumb of affection that I’d play pretend it was all okay and I wasn’t possibly hurting someone. I get her maybe not wanting to shatter the illusion right away, too. Grieving as she was, and touch starved. Any kind of contact starved.

And yeah… what I assumed was giddiness at real Zosia’s loved one being dead … oh man. Zosia the individual may still be “in there”. Show some tact, Carol! lol

Anyway… anyone else connect with this?

[resplendentgoldenwings]

Has anyone considered that Carol, Diabate, Zoisa, Manusous, Lakshmi, Kasimayu, the entire human race, everyone on Keppler 22b and every other planet that has been destroyed by this virus are all victims?

They're all victims.

[tardistravelin]

Carol trying to get to know Zosia the singular. Carol sharing something with the hive Zoisa that she had never told anyone before. Carol finally writing again, and something she's actually proud of and sharing it with Zosia to great praise and love. Telling Zosia that she'll save the world even if it means she has to be alone again, even if Zosia leaves again so of course she kisses Carol because if leaving wont stop her staying will. I feel SICK

[lomopolar]

My thoughts on the whole Stursia thing

I think Carol and Zoisa will initially enter into some kind of relationship, perhaps even an intimate one. But in the long run, it will be about giving people back their individuality, and I don't think the original Zoisa is into women. So Carol will have to make a decision. Lose Zoisa or hold on to her.

[lomopolar]

Stursia is soooo fucked up. I love it