i was tagged by @magical-ashley and @kokinu09, thanks besties
Top 3 Ships: this is such a cop-out i've been thinking about this for hours and i just don't know. i can't read suddenly. i don't know.
First ever ship: i asked keeps what the answer was and she said 'i feel like it's a you problem if you can't remember what your first ship was, i remember mine'
Last song I listened to: Connected by Stray Kids (Bang Chan)
Last movie I watched: i'm watchin matilda the musical as we speak
Currently Reading: red rising by pierce brown, ledge by stacey mcewin, S by doug durst
Currently Watching: upright (please watch this piano show and get back to me it's gotta be a new australian classic also they ALMOST WENT TO MY HOME TOWN but didn't)
Currently Consuming: bizkits.
Currently Craving: time. a release from my prison. a nap.
please @keepswingin, @rainfallingfromthesky, @gogoseabrook, @vicapuleti, mystery friends of the future i haven't tagged (that's you, person reading this)
9. If you had to assign a theme song to “Pretty”, which would you assign?
this ask got me fucked up it's been driving me nuts. i definitely had a particular song on repeat when i was writing pretty but do you think i can remember which song now? nope. absolutely not. that would be convenient.
anyway, here's a playlist:
i don't do drugs - doja cat
starving - hailee steinfeld
don't go yet - camila cabello
leave before you love me - jonas brothers
cruel summer - taylor swift
hihiiii i recently stumbled across your works on ffn & i fell in love with your writing !! i'm not sure if you're still taking prompts or if you write polyamory, but if you do, could i request zeddiza? (zed/addison/eliza)
as for the prompt: eliza and zed were a thing of the past. they were thirteen and confused, she'd say, their impulsive romance as spontaneous and explosive as the hormones that fueled their adolescent stages. now they're fifteen, and eliza's long accepted the fact that her relationship with zed was never meant to cross the boundary beyond best-friendship, that the natural laxness without pressure of something more was vastly preferable — so she ignores the way her chest burns hot when zed throws it all away for a girl he barely knows, when they sing and dance and laugh with an airy flutter that she never got to see. (and she ignores the butterflies that bloom in her stomach when that very same girl melts her distant walls with a single compliment, her smile light and pretty.)
oh my god thankyou so much 😭😭 you've actually made my week.
i don't write poly ships, but i will put this b e a u t i f u l l y written prompt out there for anyone else to grab if they want it (seriously, you've put so much thought into this ask, and i'm so terrible to waste it).
if you want more of my writing in general however, please go and find me on ao3 as I don't actually post on ff.net anymore so there's actually about 70k worth of work that you're missing! i'm under the same name there as on ff.net, apocalyvse :)
📥 What is your fave fic to receive comments/messages on?
HMMMMM my instant reaction was the pokemon fic but the more i think about it the more i think the answer is actually the bucky fic
🖊 Post a snippet from a current WIP.
damn well i've been meaning to send you a valleys sneak peek anyway so birds, stone.
A song finds its way into his head as rain begins to mist down again.
It comes to him from long ago, some winter he's forgotten, and it consists only of a clear, high voice, sharp as the bitter cold. Lover, come to find me in the dark, it croons in the back of his mind.
Nothing comes to him in the night, nothing but the whistle of the wind between buildings and cold water stinging his cheeks as it blows in under the eaves. He huddles down into his collar and bunches his sleeves around his fingers, drawing his cloak tighter. His breath heaves precious warmth into the air like steam rising from a kettle, but his body doesn't feel like it is boiling.
🏅 What is something you recently felt proud of in regard to your writing (finished a fic, actually planned for once, etc).
i've had to step back for a couple weeks while i finish my job and transition back into my horse stuff and all that, so just this week i've been really proud of the quality of writing that i'm producing. the hawkeye fic is a real solid fluff piece, and the one scene of valleys i've written has come out way better than i actually thought it would.
i'm also proud of myself for stepping away from valleys and coming back again. generally when i step away from my multichaps i end up accidentally leaving them for like two years.
😈 Is there anything you enjoy doing that you think your readers hate?
sad endings? hopelessness? mostly i guess because i personally hate that in books and fics....and yet i keep goddamn doing it lmfao. anyway there was a 'people roo made cry' club once so uh...sorry babes.
📚 Do you read your own fic?
haha. yeah i do. guilty. my bucky fic is a work of goddamn art and if you guys aren't gonna read it i'll do it myself. i also reread my pokemon fic a LOT it's my therapy fic lmfao.
💭 What is a headcanon you have about your own work?
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. that it's the best body of work by any author in the zombies fandom. lmfaooooo.
no i guess. there's a running theme in my zombies future fics that are canon compliant of things going downhill a bit after school; tightening restrictions again, protests, etc etc. so i guess that's my headcanon in all my universes. things get hard for them again after high school. and no, i haven't published the fic that actually explores this yet.
👩🏭 If one of your fics was going to get you arrested, which one and why?
i mean any of the disney ones, right. they're going to copyright strike us into the ground one day aren't they.
hey give me the full list tho i wanna know all the author behind the scenes
the braincell resides with you today huh. good, good, good. i can't actually remember what happens in some fics so i'll leave those out but we'll give it a good diggy damn try.
(this is in response to this post)
everything published on this list can be read on my AO3
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PUBLISHED THINGS
to go beyond your borders is about cancel culture, and young athletes/celebrities, and the pressure we put on these people to be perfect. pushing your boundaries and fighting mental illness and also friendship, and good endings.
sparrow and flicker are about identity, and growing up, and learning to open up to the world around you.
the slaughter of the lambs is about religion in a way i guess, for lack of a better word, and living the life you've been given, and the balance between loyalty and doubt.
if only we knew and and the chasm grows are about coming to terms with the end of your life; dying hope and endless grief and finding peace in your ending.
river cold, mountain wild is about knowing when to let go, and finding your place in the world, and how relationships are a choice, not something pre-determined by the universe.
to what your heart once was is about being ostracised, seperate and Other, and about breaking out of that box.
(stay low, stay low, stay low) is about humans clinging to life even when there's no hope left, just for the sake of living.
all the things left unsaid is about trauma and loss of identity, and learning to love the person that comes out the other side.
linger is about embracing the things that make you unique, and the power of love, in all its forms.
(when the sun comes up) is about recognising an abusive relationship, and the emptiness of depression and an absence of self-worth.
two lonely hearts meet in the dark is about endings, and beginnings, and the millions of chances we miss every day.
the king walks the tower is about standing up against injustice, and devotion to family.
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OTHER THINGS
heart is about free will, found family, and making your own destiny; second chances, standing up when no one else will, and discovering your own power, even when you feel powerless.
goldmine, goldmine (landmine) is about the children of war, and the effect war has on the individual. it's about reaching for a future never promised to you, and about lives wasted in search of someone else's goal.
my hand in yours is about fear, and depression, and using someone to hide from your own reality; reconciling differences, and growing stronger together and relationships, beginning and ending.
the gone and the gathered is about belonging and autonomy, and the search for missing pieces in a broken past, the urge to know who you are and where you came from. it's about connection and reconciliation and family - born and made.
where the river bends is about loss of reality, not being able to tell what's real and what's not, and about sacrifice, doing something unthinkable in service to a greater cause.
the waltz of matilda is about places and people, and holding onto them and, sometimes, letting them go. it's about war and journeys and the bravery it takes to step into the unknown.
for the world is hollow is about loneliness and loss, and questions whether it is worth going on when everything around you is already dead.
