#zu speaks

[benevolentwarfare]

hi guys i’m back!! sorry, i graduated college and had some irl stuff to attend to but TRUST the writing is coming. i am cooking up Evil.

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i am so emotionally unstable thinking of boyfriend!gaz i might just have to write for him bc i am in tears thinking abt holding his hand

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random musings about leon

rating: teen+

tags: mentions of torture, ptsd, alcoholism, not an entire bummer tho

✩ apple music listener. has an iphone just because he can't be bothered with technology and gets defensive over his choice. 'it's already installed! why would i install a whole new app?'

✩ listens to a lot of classic rock. will annoy anyone who's in his car with 70s-80s rock. divorced dad music, y'know?

✩ post re2 he's suuuuch a toxic ex boyfriend. when he's done with stratcom training and his life isn't just having the shit kicked out of him every day he starts partying hard. he's hot and he knows it, charming his way into so many beds in an effort to forget. definitely calls up his favorite exes when he's drunk and tries to get a hookup. and ngl i don't blame them when they say yes.

✩ he's more brooding, a golden boy with an air of dramatic mystery that calls to anyone within a mile radius. ugh he's sooo pretty and has such interesting lore.

✩ hates taking baths, and never lets the water touch his face in the shower. stratcom training involved "torture resistance modules" that left him with unsavory memories and trauma of his own. will maybe let a lover take a bath with him every once in a while, it leaves him very very vulnerable and he saves that for really important people.

✩ this man needs a back massage DESPERATELY. and like one of those deep tissue massages where it feels like you're being beaten up for money. this man has shoulders so tense they feel like concrete.

✩ a morning person but hates it. his training and job mean he has to be punctual and so he wakes up super early every morning and has time to kill. definitely has a book of puzzles like sudoku or something.

✩ kinda gets his shit together after re:infinite darkness. realizes he can't drown in alcohol forever and tries to get back the optimism he had as a rookie. it doesn't work all the way but he's much less of a miserable bastard once he stops avoiding mandatory therapy.

ko-fi

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re: line cooks one time one of the cooks at my work no-call no-showed for a week and then we found out he'd skipped town (literally across state lines) and didn't tell anyone because he "didn't like it [at the restaurant] anymore"

another time one of the cooks who has questionable knife safety skills had to go to the emergency room bc he slashed open his hand on accident and i regularly almost get stabbed by him walking around corners.

we also have a cook in his late 30s early 40s who wants to wife me up. like constantly asking where my boyfriend is. like sir please i know you have a few felonies.

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the trailer? the season five trailer? are you kidding me? activision i'm coming for your kneecaps

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apologies for the inactivity i started taking my meds again

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just caught myself saying "yup-yup!" irl someone needs to put me down

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hey guys, as an american writer and editor all i have to say is: this blog supports strikes and worker unionization and action of all types. scabs get fucked.