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[konwasie]

pls let today be the first day this week when i don't have a mental breakdown in the evening

[konwasie]

the fact that your parents can fuck you up for life and then just walk around happy and ignorant for the rest of their lives

[konwasie]

my brain got calibrated wrong i think

[konwasie]

i feel so tired and bored of everything. i got my period and the pain is so bad. i had to be at an autopsy of a rotting disintegrating corpse... i need a drink. except i can't because i'm on painkillers

[konwasie]

i keep wanting to impulsively stop taking my meds and then i'm like ok but except this one... and that one... and that other one too... ok so now we're almost back to square one. what are we even trying to achieve here

[konwasie]

stupid discourse idea: saying we need to make cities less car centric and more accessible by biking and public transport is ableist because autistic people get sensory overwhelm from taking public transport or biking on loud streets under bright sun and driving a car is way more sensory friendly and allows the person to make it as comfortable as they need (except this is genuinely my experience. which doesn't make this argument right. i am suffering. help)

[konwasie]

ootd + a huge ugly lemon with massive cellulite i'm going to use to make lemonade

[konwasie]

i wonder what it's like to feel loved