on hiatus until further notice

[tainted-langdons]

reunion

Tate was pretty sure he had it made. He had made a nice life for himself, bartending at a hotel in a touristy, yet calm mountain town several thousand miles away from the California city where he grew up, away from his dreadful mother, and away from his first love, Violet.  They had lost touch years ago, after a messy break up. Tate tried his hardest to forget her, but there were times where he could just not let go. He was at a point where he hadn't thought about her in ages until one night, he a saw a  familiar figure enter the bar. Tate's heart raced. Violet.

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the long road ahead.

[violett-harmonnn]

His words didn’t really sooth her. She wanted to tell him that they really could be done trying, because maybe she couldn’t get pregnant, at all, but she didn’t. She told herself she needed to stop thinking about it right now; it’s time to focus on Tate and make him feel loved again. All this time she wanted to give her love and care to a baby but she completely forgot she had Tate to love and care for right now. Violet smiled slightly as she came to the realization of that. She shook her head, agreeing to go on a date, even though she hated eating big meals out in public

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Tate grabbed his wallet and phone and Violet did the same before they walked out of their apartment and started going out the building and down the street to their chinese place. Tate took Violet's hand and they walked in a comfortable silence. Once they got to the restaurant, there were almost immediately seated, and Tate decided to do something big: order them a bottle of wine. He knew Violet would be uneasy; neither of them had drank for the past year, in case it got in the way of them trying. For a few moments, Tate really didn't care about what Violet was going to think, he just wanted to enjoy it and live life a little.

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the long road ahead.

[violett-harmonnn]

When she pulled away from the kiss, she closed her eyes and cried silently. She didn’t want to cry, but she wasn’t really able to hold it back. This was hard; giving up on something - well, at least for now- she truly wanted and had been working so hard for and for a long time too. She wanted to have a baby so she could take care of it and love it, and know that something depends on her. She thought it would help her depression, but at this point in not becoming successful, with a pregnancy, it’s just hurting her more.

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Tate gently brought Violet closer to him, gently tracing patterns down her back with his finger He felt so bad; his words were why she was crying this much. "It's not going to be forever, Vi," Tate whispered, "We just need to be us again." Tate didn't know how to sooth his wife other than to tell her that they weren't done trying forever. Tate looked down at Violet and smiled at her, thinking he had a way to cheer her up. "Hey, why don't we go to the Chinese place down the street? I'm taking you on a date."

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the long road ahead.

[violett-harmonnn]

Violet was sobbing violently. Part of her was crying because she knew she wasn’t getting pregnant anytime soon because Tate was done trying. and the other part of her was crying, because there her husband was saying that they aren’t the same anymore. And it hurts because he’s completely right; violets just been so caught up in trying to get pregnant she’s been neglecting their marriage. They needed to kiss more. They needed to make love, not this schedule. They needed to be passionate. Maybe it was time to stop trying for a bit and go back to being in love.. Violet rested her head on Tate’s chest and counties to cry, she just felt sad- she wanted a baby. She felt like she’s let Tate down too. “I’m sorry..”

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Tate pulled Violet even closer and rubbed her back as she sobbed. "It's okay baby, it's okay, I'm sorry too," Tate whispered in a soothing tone. Tate continued this for several minutes before he began to speak again. He felt bad about how much he had said at once, but it needed to be out there, and now that it was, they could work on being them again, being Tate and Violet. He moved Violet off his chest so Tate could speak directly to her, looking her in the eyes. "We can be us again. We just need to take a little break from all of the structure and focus on a baby. You're exhausted, Vi, I can tell. You need to take a break, just for a little. We need to work on being a couple again." Tate let out a small smile and kissed his wife gently on the lips. "Starting with this."

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the long road ahead.

[violett-harmonnn]

Before Violet could even think, her pants were zipped up and she was rapped in Tate’s embrace, slowly rocking back in forth. This action usually calmed her, but not right now; she was very upset. what? No! they can’t stop trying. She doesn’t want to. They just can’t. She was still crying when he counties. She just wanted this so bad and she didn’t understand why she couldn’t have it. Of corse she knows they aren’t spontaneous anymore, but they could be after she got pregnant, right? Violet pulled away and looked up at Tate, tears still streaming down her face. “I-i don’t want to stop..,” she muttered. “We are fine.. We have good sex Tate.. It’s spontaneous.. Sexy.. Hot. ” which she knew wasn’t true, but she had to convince him to keep trying. Their sex was usually Violet laying on her back and Tate getting off as quickly as he could, so they could go to bed, or go to work. “We can be more exiting.. I’ll before exiting..” She pleaded along with sobs.

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It was hurting Tate to see his wife in this state, but he had to say something. "Violet, no, stop. You have to listen to me," Tate pleaded. His entire body was shaking; he felt like he was about to explode. "We need to stop. We aren't fine. We aren't us anymore, Vi. Yeah, we have sex, but it's not like it used to be. It just feels like work. It's not romantic, it's just us going through the motions!" Tate pleaded, tears threatening to fall. "Violet, we don't even kiss anymore, and you're tired all the time, we never do anything anymore. What the hell has happened to us? I miss you, I miss my wife." 

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the long road ahead.

[violett-harmonnn]

He was walking back to her. He was intertwining their fingers together. it had to be good news, right? She was smiling.. Until he opened his mouth and said it was negative. no. Violets eyes dropped to the floor, as did her stomach. If Tate wasn’t standing there with her, she probably would of fell to the floor and sobbed. But because he’s there she’ll hold back a little, not waiting him to know how truly upset she is. Violets eyes shut momentary, then reopen; when they did a big tear fell and slid down her cheek. “W-w – we have to try more,” violet whispered undoing her pants. “This isn’t fair! 15 year old girls get pregnant. I’m 23 and I can’t get pregnant, for me and my husband?! How is that fair? How is that- how is that right? If there is a god he’s fucked up and for some reason hates me..” Violet screamed as she sobbed.

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Tate had to say something to Violet about trying, about how they should maybe stop for a little. He first took her hands and stopped them from taking off her pants, buttoning them back up for her. He then slowly slid his arms around Violet, trying to comfort her, quietly rocking her back and forth. That usually calmed her down a little. "Violet, maybe this is a sign...a sign we should take a break from trying, at least for a little," Tate took a deep breath, "We're never spontaneous anymore. All this sex....it's just work now, Vi. It's tiresome. I'm proposing that we just take a break for a while, try and live our lives a little bit more before settling down with a family. How does that sound? " Tate waited a few moments before continuing, "And don't think for a second that you're the defective one. It's probably me, you know that." He waited in tense silence for his wife to answer.

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the long road ahead.

[violett-harmonnn]

Violet smiled up at him. She put her hand over her mouth, because she couldn’t help but grin ridiculously and giggle slightly. He’s never really said he thinks shes pregnant before, so maybe he’s right? It made her very exited. Violet didn’t know, why she wanted a baby so bad, she just did. Maybe because then she’d have someone else to take care of and she’ll never really be alone while the child is a baby. Even though she has Tate, she often fears she’ll lost Tate. That’s probably the reason. — violet looked up at him again, her grin still there, “what will you do if is positive? —I-I want you to check it this time,” she said pointing to the bathroom; indicating that she wanted him to look at the test result.

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Tate hadn't seen violet so giggly and happy in a long time; he returned her grin with his own wide smile.  Violet wanted him to check the test this time. It was probably a good thing, Tate wouldn't know how Violet would take it if she was the first to see yet another negative pregnancy test. He took Violet's hand in his. "Baby, if it's positive, I will be jumping up and down and screaming," Tate said while laughing. He gave Violet a small kiss on the cheek before walking over to the bathroom to grab the test. He closed his eyes momentarily after grabbing the test from the counter. When he opened them, he looked down. Negative. Shit. He didn't know how Violet was going to take this. Tate went back over to Violet, interlocking their fingers together, before telling her the results. "Vi....it was negative," Tate said sadly. 

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the long road ahead.

[violett-harmonnn]

Violet finished peeing one the magic stick and sat it on the counter top, while she cleaned her self up. Violet sat up and looked at her self in the mirror; she looked tired, worn out. Violets always had depression but it’s been worse since they’ve been unsuccessful with a pregnancy. But she does try and hide it form Tate, but he probably knows from the dark circles under her eyes or the way she bursts out crying sometimes. Violet took a deep breath and composed herself, before walking out to Tate. She walked over to him and rapped her arms around his waits, pulling his close, “you really think this is the one?” Violet asked with hope in her eyes.

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Tate snapped out of his thoughts to find Violet wrapping herself around him, which he liked. He smiled at Violet and kissed his wife on the forehead before looking back at her face. She looked a little worse for the wear, and tired. She always had dark circles under her eyes. He knew about Violet's depression, and he was doing everything in his power to help her, which sometimes was less than he wanted. Tate kissed Violet softly, on the lips, before saying "Yes, I think this is the one babe. I really do." Tate wasn't sure if he thought it was the one because he was sick of the 'sex schedule,' or because he truly thought Violet was pregnant.

[tainted-langdons]

the long road ahead.

[violett-harmonnn]

Violet smiled at what Tate shouted through the bathroom door, as she finished peeing on the stick. She really hoped it was positive. They wanted a baby so bad. They’ve been married for three years, they deserve a baby! And violet was getting scared she wasn’t capable of having a baby. She wanted a little Tate running around. She wanted to give her husband their baby, their creation, but she was starting to think she couldn’t and it’s really depressing. And Violet knows Tate’s getting tired of the whole ovulation schedule, she knows, she sees it in his face. But she’s so dead set on a baby and she wasn’t ready to stop trying.

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Tate needed to tell Violet how he felt, he just didn’t know how. He wanted to let her know that he was tired of this sex schedule. Yes, he wanted a baby and couldn’t wait for Violet to get pregnant, but it had been a year since they started and there was no progress being made. Maybe Tate was defective, he’d already heard it all his life from his mom. Violet wanted a baby so bad though, he couldn’t bring himself to look into her big brown eyes and tell her that. Maybe she wouldn’t mind. No, no, Tate thought. Violet would definitely mind if they stopped trying. Tate was so caught up in his head he barely knew what was going on around him.

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the long road ahead.

"I have a good feeling about this one, baby!" Tate shouted to Violet, his wife, while she was in the bathroom peeing on that magic stick. They'd been married for nearly three years now, and were trying for a baby for the past year, with no successful attempts. It was getting a little tiresome for Tate. They had a 'sex schedule', no spontaneous romantic moments anymore. Violet was in full baby-making mode. No fun needed. Tate hoped this test was positive, not only for the fact that they were finally having a baby, but for the fact that the schedule could stop and they could go back to being their normal Tate-and-Violet again.

[violett-harmonnn]

Good girl || bad boy

[violett-harmonnn]

Somthing seemed wrong with him. Maybe he was high or drunk? But Violet didn’t know much about drugs or alchol to diagnose him. She looked at him flabbergasted. How was he a senior and didn’t know what Piecewise functions were? He must really need her help, or maybe he just doesn’t even try.. “Well.. You should know what this is.. I guess.. this is going to be a lot harder then I thought..” She sighed. She didn’t mean to be rude, but it just came out. She didn’t want to spent this time helping this guy who probably wasn’t even going to go college. This is just a waste of her time and her brain.

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Tate tried to focus on the paper in front of him, the numbers still confused him. Tate was never the best student, even sober, which explained why he was older than most kids in his grade. But he knew that in order to make it out of this hellhole, he had to at least try to shape up so he could pass his classes. He didn't appreciate the way the chick was talking to him, but deep down he knew he deserved it.  He took the pencil on the table and started to try the functions. He saw it was really just adding and subtracting and graphing. How hard could it be? He did the first three problems on the sheet, proud of himself. He was thinking when he got there of laying off the weed before homework or this new tutoring thing, but obviously it helped, maybe he shouldn't stop. -- Tate dropped the pencil on the table and leaned back. "Nailed it," he said, goofy stoned grin shining. "By the way, what's your name again?"

[violett-harmonnn]

Good girl || bad boy

[violett-harmonnn]

Tate was 30 minutes late and violet was already tired of his shit, though she’d never tell him that since she’s too polite. She didn’t really have a life besides school, but he was still waisting her time; She could be at home reading and relaxing, or going over her homework, but no she’s stuck here waiting for the low life, Tate, to arrive. — finally in the corner of her eye tate appeared. Violet sat up and fixed her posture, pushing forward the math problems she wanted him to solve. “You’re late,” violet said, in soft low voice, not looking him in the eyes, but at the table.

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"Oh ,yeah....sorry.....I was .....doing...something." Tate was baked out of his skull and he was having a hard time keeping it together. He hoped this chick couldn't tell. He'd even forgotten the name of the girl. He looked down at the math problems she had given him and looked back up with her and started laughing. The numbers didn't even look real. "W-whwat are all those things?" he wondered.

[violett-harmonnn]

Good girl || bad boy

[violett-harmonnn]

Violet rolled her eyes, as he strolled over confidently and smoothly, to her. She wanted nothing to do with this guy, why did she agree to do this? He was the ultimate sleaze bag. Tainted. Gross. He’s known for having sex with almost everyone in the school and then never talking to them again. He was probably running out of girls to sleep with in the school, by now. — Violet swallowed hard and looked up at him. Her heart was pounding; he’s so intimidating. And kinda cute? Violet shook her head and brushed that thought out her mind remembering how awful he was. “Um.. You can come to my house after school.. Or the library. U-u-um whatever works for you?”

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Tate thought about the plans he had made with his friends after school, hotboxing his friend Kyle's car and getting blazed. He guessed he could be a little late, he just wanted something to take the edge off. He'd read somewhere that weed makes you smarter, might as well try it now. "Yeah, library, after school. Meet you there." Tate smirked and walked away. The rest of the day was him barely making it through his other classes, getting high at lunch, more class, then it was after school already, and Tate had forgot about his tutoring session, He headed to Kyle's car, where they started the hotboxing, and Tate was pretty baked. Suddenly, talking to Kyle and his other friends, he remembered that stupid math tutoring appointment. "SHIT!" Tate exclaimed, getting out of the car and making it towards the school and the library. He wanted out of that math class, and this was his only way out. By the time he got there, he was over thirty minutes late.

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Good girl || bad boy

[violett-harmonnn]

Violet walked into her first hour class, which was math. She sat down and made sure she had her homework and everything ready for this class. When she finally looked up the math teacher was motioning for her to come up to him. She put her pen down and walked over to him. When she was up there he asked her if she was interested in tutoring someone in his class. Tate langdon. Really? Tate Langdon? That kid was bad news and she didn’t want anything to with that boy. Violets eyes looked over to the door. And there he was; Tate langdon. She looked at him then quickly glanced back to her teacher, avoiding getting eye contact. Violets afraid of him and she didn’t want to tutor him! — “Do I have to?” She whispered. Then the teacher went on saying how great it would be and he would raise her grade and it’d be great on her record. Violet finally expected, but only because how it would benefit her. Then she went back to her seat, trying to avoid looking at that guy- Tate.

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Tate walked in to one of his least favorite classes, math, and noticed that new girl kept looking at him. Was she new? He felt like he had never seen her before. Oh well. He was a little nervous; his teacher said he needed to stay after class. He knew what this meant: he was probably failing or something. Soon enough, after a class period of not paying attention, he and the new girl were the only ones left in the classroom. His teacher pulled him aside, telling him that he was failing. Tate rolled his eyes. Of course he was. His teacher continued to tell him that in order to pass the class, he would have to do some tutoring with a classmate. He looked over his shoulder to the other student in the classroom, which he assumed to be his tutor. Tate walked over, sat down, and spoke. "Sup. I'm Tate. So are we gonna do this tutoring thing now or not?"

[violett-harmonnn]

Good girl

Violet walked into school, for yet another day of her senior year, of high school. Violet, she wasn’t like the average 17 year old; she didn’t party. She didn’t drink. She’s a virgin and has never even been kissed- not even on the cheek. She always follows the rules and does everything she’s told; she’s never done anything bad in her life. Shes makes all A’s and is going to a very good college. She was a loner; always has been and probably always will be. She wore many layers, because she’s never been comfortable with her body or showing her skin. People often made fun of her at school; because she didn’t wear regular teenage girl clothes and she was the teachers pet with amazing grades. Violet wondered what her feature was going to be like; of corse she was going to be successful because she’s going to college to become a heart surgeon. But she wondered what her life outside of her career would be like. Would she have a family? A husband? Oh, she very much so wants kids and a man to love her and to finally be happy but she didn’t know if that would happen and it saddened her even more then she already was.

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18 year old Tate Langdon, on the other hand, was the opposite. He'd had dated, and/or had sex with, a lot of the girls in their grade, if not the school, and had been suspended quite a few times due to fighting, sometimes he was seen with a black eye, but that was on the off-chance that Tate lost a fight. He had bad grades, barely paid attention, or went to, any of his classes, and was consequently flunking almost all of them. Tate was definitely not a stranger to the badder side of things, and had definitely tried more drugs that just the average pot; he was a successful weed dealer in the town, too. He had even been arrested a couple of times for vandalism and underage drinking. Tate was more concerned with living in the "now" than thinking about his future. He left it all up to fate.

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engaged.

[violett-harmonnn]

Violet smiled slightly, when Tate reemerged into their apartment living room. He was wearing his blue button up shirt, that she loved oh so much, because it hugged his chest in the right ways, and the color looked great on him. Violets eyes moved down further and she saw his converse and laughed slightly; leave it to Tate to wear converse to a really nice and fancy restaurant. Violet was already dressed and went to the front door to get her bag. She looked back at Tate and said, “I’m still mad, don’t forget that,” as she opened the front door.

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"But you still love me!" Tate smirked. They walked downstairs to the car and Tate started driving. He looked over at Violet, who still looked a little mad, and the silence made him nervous. He decided to turn on the radio. As soon as he did, that new song that was everywhere started playing. She Looks So Perfect by one of those boy bands. One Direction? the Jonas Brothers? Tate didn't know. The song was annoying but it was so catchy, Tate knew at least the chorus of it. He tried to make Violet smile. 

You look so perfect standing there In my American Apparel underwear And I know now, that I'm so down Your lipstick stain is a work of art I got your name tattooed in an arrow heart And I know now, that I'm so down Hey, hey!

Tate sang so jokingly and off key that he knew it would make Violet at least crack a smile. 

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engaged.

[violett-harmonnn]

Before she knew it, she was pulled up and standing close next to Tate. Violet rolled her eyes and decided she would just go so he’d leave her alone, the rest of the night. “Fine, whatever.. We’ll just go, even though I’ll probably have a horrible time, because I don’t want to be there and I’m tired,” violet mumbled under her breath.. She honestly hoped that, that would make him feel a little bad and maybe he’d change him mind and say they didn’t have to go.

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Tate smiled, even though he knew Violet was unhappy right now. But he would change her mind soon enough. He kissed her and gave her a hug, saying "You're going to have a good tiiiimmmeeee!" in a singsong voice. He did feel a little bad, knowing that she was tired. He was tired too, but he couldn't wait any longer to propose to Violet. -- Tate went into their bedroom to get ready first; a few minutes later he emerged from the bedroom wearing his nicest pants and a light blue button down that Violet loved, along with his converse. She would get a kick out of that.