Penned Down: In My Own Words

My name is Charlotte Dumont. The life I live is short from good. I am a wanted girl in many ways. Men have needs. I have been forced to satisfy them. I had no choice but to. I am afraid of him. The man who took interest in me as I developed. The man whose blood runs through my veins. The man who pinned me down and took everything. The man who is now searching for me. This is an RP Blog.

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Death Comes Fast For Those Who Earn It || One Shot

Location: Somewhere. Anywhere. No Where.

Date: There is no date here.

Feeling: Weightless

Dear Diary,

As of right now you are just part of my imagination. I can almost feel the pen in my hand. You are here resting right on my lap. Enough of the small talk. Let's get to it.

I am safe now.

All my life I had been running away from death. That is until the moment I volunteered. In the back of my mind I knew that the only way I would ever escape from him would be by death. Funny how most people volunteer to be in The Hunger Games for other people or to prove something or because they are forced to. In part I did it for someone else. But mostly I did it so I wouldn't have to feel the torture from Lucas. The pain of having him use me over and over again. It was only a matter of time before he killed me. Volunteering so I wouldn't die by my fathers hand. To finally be able to live a life without having to deal with the fact that he can have me whenever he wants. Here I got to experience many things for the first time. I received love from Axel. A taste of the Capitol parties. Genuine happiness with my peers. We were training to kill each other but we grew attached. I felt what it was like to flip that switch and turn on your friends. How it was to like two people at once. Knowing someone is proud of me for something I've done. For those few days I was not a whore or a broken doll. I was Charlotte Dumont,District One Tribute,Char,Bunny,and Damsel. 

In this time I grew attached to a few people. 

Axel (My Knight)- I knew he was important since the moment he came to save me from that man. Axel gave me a new life and home. I learned what it meant to like someone. How it felt to be liked back and cared for. I felt lust for a man for the first official time. I had my first kiss with a guy I liked. Everything with him was new. Though it felt like it went downhill when he said I love you.

Dexter (Mr.Pinky)- Never in my life did I expect us to be friends. We had dominant fathers in common. I had the opportunity to bring a smile to the face of an otherwise stoic man. We shared laughs. That food fight was one of the best moments of my life. Then there's the secret that I even kept from myself. I liked Dexter. More than I liked Axel. But things between Dex and I would never work out. I know now that had I met Dex before I met Axel I would have experienced more than just that like feeling. There was something different with Dex. It was effortless and fun and deadly serious all at the same time. That awkward smile made me laugh and feel elated! Every conversation we had,every laugh,and every touch we shared I can't even describe how it felt. I loved having him in my life for that short while. My Mr.Pinky.

There were more people like Chase,Namika,and Damien. Then there were the others that I liked but never got the chance to get to know more like Adelaide,Morocco,Brefina,Samson,Lavender,Aoife,and Avia.

In the end I lived a total of three lives. The one I was born into full of pain. The one that Axel gave me full of new beginnings and hope. Then the one that I volunteered for full of happiness,friendship,self discovery,but with a touch of disaster. It ended in my death but it granted me freedom. That's all I could ever ask for.

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C is for Clarity || Char & Dex

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The lights blinded my eyes and I had to squint, it wasn’t that late in night but yet some people were celebrating, or sleeping but I wasn’t doing neither. I had planned to stay up and just do nothing but apparently Char had other things in mind.

“I was just laying down, have nothing else to do.”I responded shrugging as I fiddle with the doorknob. “want to talk about it? I heard it helps to talk about it, though I am no use because you know. I don’t know how to help people but I can try.”I said with another shrug. I was useless in this situation, so I didn’t know why she would come to me. Me.

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"Is that what people do around here on the final days? Sit around and day dream?"

I really did not have anything to talk about. All I wanted to do was see how he was. Also to just get out of the suite. It's awkward to be the only one up.

"I just came here to talk to you. What were you thinking about before I got here?" I sit down on his bed and look at him.

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Interview: Charlotte Dumont, District 1

Caesar Flickerman: Our first tribute of the night! She’s made quite a name for herself already here is the beautiful Charlotte Dumont! *crowd cheers*

Charlotte: *smiles to the audience* Wow it’s great to finally meet the one and only Caesar Flickerman. *shakes hand*

Caesar Flickerman: *shakes her hand* Well, it’s great to meet you too Charlotte! How has the Capitol been treating you?

Charlotte: *giggles* Quite well actually. Your city is beautiful and extravagant. Living here has been one of the best experiences of my life.

Caesar Flickerman: Aaah! Well that's an absolute pleasure to hear! *crowd cheers* We've been hearing all sorts of things in the Capitol about you Miss Dumont and have made quite the name for yourself, do you think you're ready for this?

Charlotte: *winks at the crowd and smirks* Is that so? I hope you all have enjoyed what you've seen so far. There is more to come. *smiles* You know what Caesar,I can say with absolute certainty that I am.

Caesar Flickerman: Oh is there now?! I'll definitely be tuning in for that and I'm sure we all will too *nods at the crowd* are we going to be seeing you in an alliance?

Charlotte: *laughs* People in my company seem to have a death wish. Take that as you will.

Caesar Flickerman: *crowd mummers* Oh really? Care to elaborate on that Charlotte?

Charlotte: There are no real friends here. In the end we all have to kill each other. If you're in my company just know I have nothing against killing you no matter how many times we've been civil.

Caesar Flickerman: *crowd nods appreciatively* Well that's a very interesting approach to have and I hope it works out for you Charlotte! Is there anything you wish to say to the people back at home?

Charlotte: *smiles brightly* Thank you Caesar. To my people back in District One I have to say that the fight is worth it in the end. You never know your strengths until you go on alone.

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Interview: Charlotte Dumont, District 1

Caesar Flickerman: Our first tribute of the night! She’s made quite a name for herself already here is the beautiful Charlotte Dumont! *crowd cheers*

Charlotte: *smiles to the audience* Wow it’s great to finally meet the one and only Caesar Flickerman. *shakes hand*

Caesar Flickerman: *shakes her hand* Well, it’s great to meet you too Charlotte! How has the Capitol been treating you?

Charlotte: *giggles* Quite well actually. Your city is beautiful and extravagant. Living here has been one of the best experiences of my life.

Caesar Flickerman: Aaah! Well that's an absolute pleasure to hear! *crowd cheers* We've been hearing all sorts of things in the Capitol about you Miss Dumont and have made quite the name for yourself, do you think you're ready for this?

Charlotte: *winks at the crowd and smirks* Is that so? I hope you all have enjoyed what you've seen so far. There is more to come. *smiles* You know what Caesar,I can say with absolute certainty that I am.

Caesar Flickerman: Oh is there now?! I'll definitely be tuning in for that and I'm sure we all will too *nods at the crowd* are we going to be seeing you in an alliance?

Charlotte: *laughs* People in my company seem to have a death wish. Take that as you will.

Caesar Flickerman: *crowd mummers* Oh really? Care to elaborate on that Charlotte?

Charlotte: There are no real friends here. In the end we all have to kill each other. If you're in my company just know I have nothing against killing you no matter how many times we've been civil.

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Interview: Charlotte Dumont, District 1

Caesar Flickerman: Our first tribute of the night! She’s made quite a name for herself already here is the beautiful Charlotte Dumont! *crowd cheers*

Charlotte: *smiles to the audience* Wow it’s great to finally meet the one and only Caesar Flickerman. *shakes hand*

Caesar Flickerman: *shakes her hand* Well, it’s great to meet you too Charlotte! How has the Capitol been treating you?

Charlotte: *giggles* Quite well actually. Your city is beautiful and extravagant. Living here has been one of the best experiences of my life.

Caesar Flickerman: Aaah! Well that's an absolute pleasure to hear! *crowd cheers* We've been hearing all sorts of things in the Capitol about you Miss Dumont and have made quite the name for yourself, do you think you're ready for this?

Charlotte: *winks at the crowd and smirks* Is that so? I hope you all have enjoyed what you've seen so far. There is more to come. *smiles* You know what Caesar,I can say with absolute certainty that I am.

Caesar Flickerman: Oh is there now?! I'll definitely be tuning in for that and I'm sure we all will too *nods at the crowd* are we going to be seeing you in an alliance?

Charlotte: *laughs* People in my company seem to have a death wish. Take that as you will.

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Interview: Charlotte Dumont, District 1

Caesar Flickerman: Our first tribute of the night! She’s made quite a name for herself already here is the beautiful Charlotte Dumont! *crowd cheers*

Charlotte: *smiles to the audience* Wow it’s great to finally meet the one and only Caesar Flickerman. *shakes hand*

Caesar Flickerman: *shakes her hand* Well, it’s great to meet you too Charlotte! How has the Capitol been treating you?

Charlotte: *giggles* Quite well actually. Your city is beautiful and extravagant. Living here has been one of the best experiences of my life.

Caesar Flickerman: Aaah! Well that's an absolute pleasure to hear! *crowd cheers* We've been hearing all sorts of things in the Capitol about you Miss Dumont and have made quite the name for yourself, do you think you're ready for this?

Charlotte: *winks at the crowd and smirks* Is that so? I hope you all have enjoyed what you've seen so far. There is more to come. *smiles* You know what Caesar,I can say with absolute certainty that I am.

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Interview: Charlotte Dumont, District 1

Caesar Flickerman: Our first tribute of the night! She’s made quite a name for herself already here is the beautiful Charlotte Dumont! *crowd cheers*

Charlotte: *smiles to the audience* Wow it’s great to finally meet the one and only Caesar Flickerman. *shakes hand*

Caesar Flickerman: *shakes her hand* Well, it’s great to meet you too Charlotte! How has the Capitol been treating you?

Charlotte: *giggles* Quite well actually. Your city is beautiful and extravagant. Living here has been one of the best experiences of my life.

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Interview Outfit

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C is for Clarity || Char & Dex

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With a small smile, I still didn’t understand why she would be here. If our escort came up here and saw a career outside my room he would most likely have a fit but also..lord knew what he would do with the information. 

Wrapping his pinky around her I pull her in, better for no one to know she was here.

“don’t want to risk being attack by your mighty pinky.”I say as I close the door, switching the light on. “so what are you doing here?”

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Woah I didn't expect him to do that. It's not even that late, why was everyone sleeping?

"I bet you don't." I said with a smile. "Everyone is resting and I can't seem to get into the rest zone. I feel a bit wired up for some off reason. It's a bit disorienting seeing as how I'm calm most of the time. So I came up here for some company. Though it looks as if you were resting as well. Should I go?"

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C is for Clarity || Char & Dex

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With a shrug I let my score pass, it was bad but it wasn’t the best. Me and Lana were of course not in the talking matters so therefore we didn’t speak or congratulate each other, and as soon as the last person pass on screen I headed of to my bed. Might as well sleep this in.

I lay in bed pondering on how many days I had left, I had ally with Char which was crazy in my head but somehow it felt right..and like if I had called her with my thoughts I heard her voice just outside my door. My door. This late?

standing up, I walked over opening the door slightly.

“May I help you, Bunny?”I question her leaning on my door. Now why in the world would she be up here.

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"Yes. Let me in or join me or the roof top. If you don't then I will just have to break you with my pinky."

To make my point, I raised my pinky.

"I don't think you want to mess with my pinky, Dexter. She's temperamental."

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C is for Clarity || Char & Dex

I was satisfied with my score. Axel had done well. I was proud of my knight. Unfortunately for me he was tired. Did that other personality really weigh him down this much? Oh well his presence or lack thereof is not going to keep my happiness down. So I decide to head up to the District Eight suite. I knock and say

"Dex,it's Char come on out Mr.Pinky."

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After hearing about these two tribute’s fiery nature and watching their Private Trainings, Saxon couldn’t help be drawn to a certain two female tributes. Rumour has it is that he’s rooting for:

Morocco Argan from District Two and Charlotte Dumont from District One

But will they continue to have his backing?

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District 1: Private Training Scores

Axel Starred - 9

Char Dumont - 7

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N is for Nobility || Char & Stella

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“If you ask me, the Career in him should’ve learned to control it, wield it, and use it. But… maybe that’s just me,” I commented with a shrug. It would be a powerful part of him, regardless, but power is reckless when uncontrolled.

“I fear for your old friends and by the way they fought in that room. But I assume, you being the smart girl that you are, already are aware of their weaknesses. Tell me, how do you think you did during private training today, Charlotte?”

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"Perhaps he never thought of it. Now that you point it out, control would be useful in this situation."

It makes me think of what Axel would be like had he thought of this. Would he change or would he be the same?

"That fight was bound to happen. There was a ton of tension. I've picked up on a few things." I thought back to what I did. I know I could have done more but I was advised to keep it simple. "I try not to think about the things I get judged on. But right now I could tell you that I think I did well."

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N is for Nobility || Char & Stella

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I had heard something about his lack of pills affecting him. I strained to recall his files… ahh yes. Axel.

“Well you might have to learn to deal with that in the arena, dear. He won’t be taking those pills with him and unless he gets a sponsor who wants to deliver them daily for a price, there’s going to a be a whole new Axel in there. What of your friends… still friends?” I asked out of curiosity.

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"I do not fear his other personality. He is more worried about it than I am. I got a glance of the other side once. Godspeed for the unlucky tribute to come upon him when he is in that state. Namika and I are probably not friends any more. Damien and I never had that much chemistry. Chase is the only one other than Axel that I seem to be on good terms with in that group that is."

I feel the need to check on Damien. But then again it's not my problem. Axel should have taken his pills. Damien should have seen the change before he attacked.

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N is for Nobility || Char & Stella

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I laughed a little and grabbed her a drink from an avox with a passing tray. “My pet, it’s a good thing. Here, drink,” I said, passing her the glass. “You proved yourself an amazing competitor in Minnie’s little ‘exercise.’ You’re smart and brave and I think you’ll do very well in our arena.”

I took a sip of my champagne and looked over her bruised face. Her make-up covered most of it and her style team did an amazing job.

“Well thank you. Something about wearing gold always makes a girl look good, right? Now, tell me, how’s Axel doing today? Can I still expect to see you two as a team?”

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That's a relief. I felt a sense of accomplishment. This would not get to my head. Even though I am getting praise from a game maker I know it's anyones game when we get out there.I accepted the drink and took a sip.  I've had champagne before when those men wanted to attempt to have a romantic night.

"Unless it's some hideous frock. The gold would look pretty but the outfit itself wouldn't do much for it." Axel..."He's fine. I think having his other side released took a bit of a toll on him. At this point I don't know. He'll probably be up for it but I'm iffy on the whole thing."

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N is for Nobility || Char & Stella

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As I walked from Avia, another tribute almost ran into me. Why doesn’t anyone know how to walk these days? I chose to forgive her because her dress was fabulous. And then I recognized her.

“Ahh, we finally meet, you’re very famous, Miss Charlotte. I’m glad to see that you’re in good shape after your incident yesterday…” I said with a smirk. “You’re in good spirits, as well. Enjoying the party?”

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My eyes widened. I don't know whether famous meant something positive or negative here. 

"Is that good? I don't know exactly how things work around here." A broken nose that I was grateful for. Damien got the worse of the fight I hear. "I truly am. Our last day of somewhat freedom before game time, I don't see why anyone would not try to make the most of it. You look stunning by the way." I said with a smile.

So far so good.