Dirty Pretty Words

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Today is the one day I'm glad that I work in a small room with only 4 desks, because the other 3 people happen to be out of the office. Not sure how much more of this EU chat I can take.

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For reasons I can't explain (to myself, let alone anyone else) I am really not okay with what just happened in OITNB (episode 7 for anyone who cares). So much so that I am genuinely considering not watching the rest of the series.

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You know you're emotionally unstable when you nearly cry because someone won't give you the implant because you're a fucking lesbian. Choosing to curl up in a darkened room with tea and chocolate as opposed to other methods of destroying my evening.

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First day back at the gym. Coming off the treadmill feeling physically sick and disappointed at myself for my lack of motivation for the last 5 months (if not more). On the plus side I achieved the target I set for myself when I got here, and then some. I can't shake the feeling that this cycle is going to forever repeat itself so I'm feeling a bit deflated. Having said that... I'm lapping everyone on the couch.

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If you had told me a week ago who I would be spending New Year with, I wouldn't have believed you. People from my past that I had all but forgotten about. I've read so many articles and heard so many people saying "don't go out for New Year" - it's too expensive, it's too busy, various other excuses. I could have done the same thing. Everyone I had hoped to spend New Year with was busy or didn't fancy it. But you know what? I took a chance on someone who was little more than an acquaintance and ended up having a really fun night. I brought in the New Year with forgiveness in my heart, laughter on my lips, and no regrets. I don't think I could ask for much more. It's not home anymore but my little Yorkshire hometown - or, more accurately, the people in it - never fails to surprise me. Happy New Year.

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Thank you for making me feel somewhat normal.

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The more work I do the less I want to win.

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Business plan may not be written but at least I have a logo..

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Because no matter how far you may travel, you are what you are, and even when you are flying at thrilling new heights, circling the sun and thinking you belong in the halo of that perfect golden light, you do not. The wings always melt, and you always crash-land in your same old self.

Dexter's Final Cut - Jeff Lindsay

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I find that I'm actually quite nervous about looking at the results of my market research..

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It seems that all I needed was my party playlist. Hopefully this is a recipe for success.

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Fuck it.

Fuck it fuck it fuck it.

It’s not over til it’s over.

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And in this moment for the first time in a long time I understand why I made every bad decision I ever did.

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Yay time for a mental breakdown.

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Just had a vent on the phone to my dad and feel marginally better.

Tomorrow’s a new day.

[vinstage]

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It's not always easy to know where you belong. Days like today, I think I know. Even though I still think about going 'home' to Yorkshire, my life has led me elsewhere. I don't know if it was the right decision, and maybe I never will. But right now, it feels like the best decision I could have made. I feel like I'm making a difference. But maybe more importantly, I feel like the difference has already been made elsewhere. Maybe I'm just paying it back.