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Call me Tal Tal! -She/Her pronouns- Accepting writing/headcanon requests- All are welcome here!- See You around, friends!

[talenny4life-archived]

Goodbye

Alright, everyone. This is it. I’ve been on here long enough and caused enough damage, so I’m leaving. I can’t just stay on here and pretend like nothing is wrong, because it’s not. I’m a bad person who’s manipulated, gaslit, and hurt so many. I’ve caused people to have trust issues, and I’ve even caused someone to deactivate because of my selfishness.

I’m leaving the account before anybody else gets hurt. I’ve ruined everything, and the scars I’ve left on people are never going to fade. I need to stop. I need to leave.

Goodbye, everyone. It was fun while it lasted, and I’m sorry this is the person I’ve become. Take care, and I know it rings hollow, but I’m sorry.

[random-questions-fairy]

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[talenny4life-archived]

STOP SENDING ANONS TO YOURSELF BOOSTING YOUR EGO TAL. WE KNOW IT’S A LIE. -Bela

I didn’t send that one, Bela, but I know why you don’t believe me. It’s like the story, “The Boy who Cried Wolf” where lies come to bite you later when you’re trying to tell the truth. Sure, I might not have sent that one, but I’ve done it before, so who would believe me now?

You have every right to hate me now. I do have some things I want to say to you, however.

I’m sorry I made you and others feel like you couldn’t tell me when I was wrong. I invalidated and ignored you, and I wish I could’ve been smarter and realized how bad I was.

I’m sorry I sacrificed my morals for the sake of a few notes and follows. I shouldn’t have gotten greedy and resorted to being outrageous, insensitive and ignorant just for people to notice me. I should have been patient and happy with what I had, and then maybe people would have liked me for me.

I’m sorry I lied and made excuses in order to keep from accepting any consequences. I should have just listened the first time, not been so sensitive to criticism, and maybe then I would’ve been a better person.

I’m sorry I was such a bad friend. I treated you unfairly, took you for granted, made you feel like you had to defend me, and didn’t remember all that you did for me. You were always so kind and supportive of me, even on my darkest days, and I didn’t show that in return. Friendship is a mutual commitment, and I took more than I gave you.

I’m sorry I was so awful, time after time. Even when others were willing to forgive me and give me another chance, I didn’t learn my lesson and kept being hurtful. Now I’m left here, wishing I could take it all back. Wishing I’d just stayed quiet. Wishing I had just stayed out of issues I don’t belong in.

I’ve been a cowardly, “pick me” hypocritical person for long enough. No more making excuses. It’s time to learn and move on. Thank you for telling it to me straight, and I’m sorry things got to this point. My world may be crashing and burning, but I only have myself to blame.

[talenny4life-archived]

Hey I just wanted to let you know. You made a mistake and I believe you are trying your best to apologize. Just please be more considerate what you say on posts about people of Colour. I know you are doing your best -🦋

Hi, Butterfly anon. Thank you for giving me a second chance and believing in me. This isn’t the first time I made this mistake, and I feel awful that it got this far. I feel bad that I made people feel like they couldn’t be honest with me, was so inconsiderate for months on end without even acknowledging it, and hurt my closest, most valued friends so much that they despise me now. Most of all, however, I feel the worst because I was willing to throw my morals completely out the window for the sake of getting a bit of attention and stroking my ego.

Even though people are sick of me “attempting to improve”, there is one last thing I want to try:

Apologizing to everyone once I find the right words, then accepting the consequences while doing better. No performativeness, just moving on while being more careful of my actions.

[talenny4life-archived]

Will: If I can't cause tiny bits of chaos every day, I think my body will shut down.

[supmynameisuseless]

I’m so fucking sick of diabetes jokes. They’re everywhere, like people somehow think it’s ok to make fun of a disease like that. 

“that’s got so much sugar, it’ll give you diabetes!” 

first of all THATS NOT HOW ANY TYPE OF DIABETES WORKS. 

Second of all, even if it was, and people ‘gave diabetes to themselves’, it’s just not funny! Who gave you the right to make fun of a literal disabled person just because you think they deserve it because they ‘brought this onto themselves’? that’s fucked up! All types of diabetes have a genetic component, and specifically for type 2 diabetes, you don’t know that person’s circumstances. Recent studies are showing links between type 2 diabetes and poverty, as sugary overprocessed food like fast food is cheaper and sometimes more accessible. And once again, there’s still a genetic component. 

‘that’ll give you diabetes’ jokes are just not funny. They’re insensitive, and as a type 1 they’re just a constant reminder that I have a disease that is heavily misunderstood and weighs on me every day. I’ve heard like 10 in the past week and just now heard another one and it was the last fucking straw. DON’T MAKE THEM. 

[supmynameisuseless]

This is 100000% ok for non diabetics to reblog I would appreciate that very much 

[princepeterwolf]

She was emotionally abused for years and was able to break free and actually find happiness on her own, and now she forgives one of her bullies and helps her do the same…if that’s not true strength I don’t know what strength is…the whole message in here is amazing

[vampirezigzagoon]

The two Cinderella sequels are the only straight to DVD-Disney followups that deserve any acknowledgment. 

[pensandpencil]

What vibes do i give off??

[talenny4life-archived]

Stella, writing in her diary with a glitter gel pen: I'm losing my sense of humanity. Nothing matters. God is dead. There's blood on my hands.

[talenny4life-archived]

Little sneak peek from an animation I am currently working on ;) Hopefully, I’ll be done soon and you’ll like it.

[acreaturecalledgreed]

the concept and idea of “you can always start trying to be a better person” is extremely important to me both in media and irl and i continue to be deeply deeply disturbed by the trend on this site pushing that these ideas in media are bad writing or even morally reprehensible

because theyd rather someone stay terrible or just straight up die than become a better person 

from a compassionate point of view it’s deeply distressing and from a pragmatic point of view it’s outright frustrating

it’s fucked up. 

[falliblefabrial]

What is the most important step a man can take?

The next.

[inklesspen]

[babblingfishes]

I think part of the pushback about this is the idea that, to “redeem” bad people, their victims must first forgive them for unforgivable acts.

This is false. No one is obligated to forgive you. You can learn from your mistakes and become the best, kindest person on earth, and the people you’ve hurt still won’t forgive you, and you’ll have to accept that. And that doesn’t mean you aren’t allowed to grow. Because we aren’t just “pure” or “sinful”, we’re complex.

[budgiesmuggled-deactivated20210]

Passing: Profiling the Lives of Young Trans Men of Color (2015).

[ID: Excerpts from interviews with two trans men. The first, Lucah Rosenberg Lee, has a shaved head and a trimmed beard. The second, Victor Thomas, has curly black hair and a trimmed beard, and is heavier-set.

Lucah, talking about gender dysphoria prior to transitioning, says, “I was in a heterosexual relationship. I was female. I would question this all the time. Am I attracted to these men, or do I just want to be them? That was a big turning point in my own self-discovery.”

Victor, talking about the transphobia he’s endured as a trans man of color, says, “You’re subjected to something because they don’t understand you. And you have to watch the way you react, because you’re a man now. People take you as a threat.”

Lucah, in another scene, discusses feeling erased as a trans man, and racism in trans communities. He says, “Being so invisible within the LGBT community can actually feel so isolating. When people don’t know my history as a trans person, I feel sometimes that I’m viewed as more of an enemy.” END ID.]

Trans men of color deserved to be loved and appreciated, and made safe. Trans men deserve access to our own spaces, no matter how masculine and cis-passing we are. We deserve credit and recognition for the contributions that we have made to trans history, most of which are erased nowadays.

Being a man is not dangerous or wrong. Being masculine is not dangerous or wrong. Being a black man is not dangerous or wrong.

Please support trans men of color.

Please support trans men.

Please support men.

Men belong in trans spaces. Men of color belong in LGBT+ spaces. Straight trans men belong at Pride. Men do not have to be feminine to be queer.

[nyx-is-free-deactivated20221029]

Um please don't attack me over this but like you guys say stop asian hate and stop asian discrimination and demolish harmful asian stereotypes but then y'all only talk about the discrimination that east asians face like we south asians exist??? And we also face harmful stereotypes and get attacked so why are we only talking about east asians. I'm not saying Don't talk about east asians but I'm saying other parts of asia exist and we also face discrimination so um sorry if this is offensive or something I'm just genuinely confused

[nyx-is-free-deactivated20221029]

Like shouldn't stop asian hate mean all asian hate?

[talenny4life-archived]

Zack on Monday: *glues a dime to the sidewalk* Heh heh heh.

Zack on Wednesday: *walking down the street* Ooh hey! A dime!

[talenny4life-archived]

Reminder, Tal, that the people you hurt (including me) aren’t convinced by you. Maybe we never will be. But the ways you’re going about it? You’re just digging yourself a deeper hole, dear. Every single time I see you performatively deprecate yourself, I only cringe more. Every single “dAiLy rEfLeCTiOn” you do is just a boost of your ego. I can only hope the rest of your followers comes to realize your manipulative ways like I did. Maybe get THAT through your thick head <3

I’m sorry. I have been trying, but it seems like every time I try, it just makes it worse. I want to help, I don’t want to be a narcissistic person anymore, and I want to improve. You’re right, these reflections aren’t helping and I should just keep them in my journal like I’m supposed to.

I want to change, and I need to learn another way. I’ll stop posting them publicly, and find another way. I want to earn your trust back. I want to earn everyone’s trust back. I’m sorry I’ve only been doing more harm.

Please, if there is any way I can even try to make it up to you, tell me and I’ll do it.

[talenny4life-archived]

May 28, 2021: Name three small ways you can show more respect over the weekend.

I will unplug and spend more quality time with my family, especially because it’s my brothers graduation and we have visitors over for the first time in a while.

I will be nicer than necessary as well as more patient during extensive tech rehearsals at theater.

I will do more to help around the house, because my parents are stressed with entertaining guests after so long.

[talenny4life-archived]

Countess Cleo: If I'm especially pretentious with you, it means I'm either fond of you, or I can't stand you... have fun figuring out which one.