tales of a thirty something nothing.

[talesofathirtysomethingnothing]

and then

the sky ripped open

to baptize us

side by side

the roar of a cacophonous symphony

that echoes inside my mind

& rain that runs down my neck to cool my spine

with only the blinding light

& each other

as witness

portland, ME

july 21, 2026

[stillgotscars]

lost boys - phoebe bridgers

[talesofathirtysomethingnothing]

there's something about how,

having the window open

the summer's blue, dusk light

fading across the walls

listening to echoes

of neighbors belting out

ballads of the 80s

and the collective joy & camaraderie.

unity in the human condition

in songs that were written

with trying to bottle

the same exact feeling.

it does something good in me.

[lady-lostmind]

Patches I made to go on my Crux tote! I have some of these on my Etsy shop!

[talesofathirtysomethingnothing]

I see your gypsy

[talesofathirtysomethingnothing]

take me anywhere

I don't care, I don't care, I don't care

[juldanielle]

.𖥔 ݁₊˚⊹ chaos reaches outer space .𖥔 ݁ ˖ ⋆

long live ego death !!! this record will never leave my mind and my heart. i cannot believe i’m seeing hayley live soon CRAZYYYY

[talesofathirtysomethingnothing]

it's been a year since Ryder left this world.

he saw me settle into adulthood through my 20s and mid 30s

he was an anchor and showed me what pure, selfless love is

but most of all, he was my best friend.

my heart broke into so many pieces the day he left

and those pieces are still mismatched and scattered.

but despite his death,

I've learned so much about myself

I've taken chances I never would've before

I'm leaning on my friends and family

I'm learning and creating art to help fill the mountain of a gap that he left.

I'm putting in the work to be the best person that I can be

more so than ever in my life

I don't know what that really means

it's a strange dichotomy.

I celebrated him with McDonald's chicken nuggets, fries, and Andy's custard

and reminisced about his sassiness, but how much he loved his people.

Ryder, I miss you more than everything I am.

you're my favorite thing I've ever done.

I miss you forever.

[talesofathirtysomethingnothing]

I'm doing this thing

where I'm justifying large expenses

(concert tickets, trips, etc.)

because my dog died a year ago around this time.

how's that for grief?

[qvotext]

[mournfulroses]

Virginia Woolf, from her novel titled "The Waves," originally published in 1931

[shisasan]

Oh God, I’m so tired. 6 July, 1927 The Letters of Vita Sackville-West to Virginia Woolf (1924-1941)

[sadcoms]

up there so long everything changed i won't quit on you | hayley williams

[havanaberry]

Hayley Williams Glum (In The Park)

[iero]

HAYLEY WILLIAMS | Glum

[pmoregifs]

Strange fruit, hard bargain Till the roots, Southern Gotham

HAYLEY WILLIAMS True Believer - The Tonight Show - Oct. 8, 2025

[dailywilliams]

HW.