[mammalianmammals]

Eastern Quoll (Dasyurus viverrinus), family Dasyuridae, order Dasyuromorphia, Canberra, Australia

photographs by Raelene Pitcher

[weepingwidar]

Chika Osaka (Japanese, 1984) - Always a Star (2020)

[patronsaintofweepingmothers]

2007

[redlipstickresurrected]

Väinö Rouvinen (Finnish, b. 1932, Tuupovaara, North Karelia, Finland) - A Cat, 1995, Color Etching, Aquatint

[nemfrog]

Ursa Major. Our Wide, Wide World. 1932. 

[worldsandemanations]

Athena Nangala Granites. “Napalijarri-Warnu Jukurrpa (Seven Sisters Dreaming)

[talvipuutarha]

i left work so suddenly everything's a mess

i have a student sending me emails about her bachelors thesis and i have a feeling that i shouldnt be replying from the mental ward but. who else is going to

[flunkett]

all i do anymore is display symptoms

[jetix]

2012-01-27

[duckdotcom]

I'm emailing you a refreshing spring breeze

[honorblue]

[talvipuutarha]

for example for my treatment i have to eat 5 meals

which i don't mind that much. but it's more like 10 hours of meals because i can't do anything in between. i don't know why i thought they wouldn't regulate and watch over everything but they do and it's worse than if they just made me do group stuff or something

also it feels wrong because i'm supposed to learn normal routines. but i don't think it's normal to force down food while youre crying…i mean i've done it before but i don't aspire to it

[talvipuutarha]

yesterday i had a panic attack because they wouldn't let me go

and threatened to commit me for real

like. i don't think they would. or could. probably. but it's like everyone is lying all the time and thinks nothing of it and i have to be on my guard and i don't know what to do with the urge to escape from here since i truly can't trust these people with my autonomy. but the treatments sort of crucially require me to do that. to some unknown extent. my own judgement is clouded…i recognise that but idk how to accept it

[talvipuutarha]

thought i had it together for a minute but now i'm in hospital again

[talvipuutarha]

at some weird junction of real healthcare induced trauma and paranoia

[talvipuutarha]

thought i had it together for a minute but now i'm in hospital again

[sec0ndwind]

My shadow

[lamignonette]