it 20

[tanlinedebris]

if you are here you know my name or can guess it. i am not trying to be vague i just have problems

20 employed i like running and i love people

@scp2094 horror sideblog

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nobody is coming to save me which means i have to save myself which means nobody is coming to save me

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which means i have to save myself which means nobody is coming to save me which means i have to save myself

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which means nobody is coming to save me which means i have to save myself which means nobody is coming to save me

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and then apologize again and take it all and say ok thank you

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everybody knows me as the abused coworker i feel like a landmine . and i am one ! and i am one ! i can't handle being yelled at without feeling like i am going to die ! i am thinking of quitting because it is so debilitating i cannot work but every job after this is just going to kill me too . in many ways i wish that i was just killed as a youth so the world could be spared my adulthood

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20 year anniversary of get lonely coming up thank you john darnielle for being the only person who gets it. most days it's just about getting out of the house

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today was rotten. i want to quit my job but sexual harassment will be waiting for me at my next job and the job after that too and there will never be any moment of relief and nobody will save me and i can't save myself. i think this weekend i will go shopping for wedding dresses

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even (maybe especially) when i am totally out-of-body dissociating looking at myself from the ceiling of the room i am just looking at a sex object. i never feel closer to sexuality than when i am absolutely losing it

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as i am consistently reminded people are only nice to me because i am pretty but when i am pretty i am sexually harassed and i wish that there were a way out of this where i was still respected. inevitably i am just a body

[tanlinedebris]

nobody is coming to save me which means i have to save myself which means nobody is coming to save me

[tanlinedebris]

which means i have to save myself which means nobody is coming to save me which means i have to save myself

[exitwound]

Youre a mollusk and something potentially bad or scary gets inside you what do you do. Make a pearl around it. Okay. okay

[humiliationvictim]

I feel like people don’t take my blog seriously because I’m pretty

[tanlinedebris]

nobody is coming to save me which means i have to save myself which means nobody is coming to save me

[im-in-your-mind]

[macabremarble]

his butler, vaping

[ninicoru]

Stupid sexy Sebastian 😭✨

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and then apologize again and take it all and say ok thank you

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there is something wrong but since no one seems to see it or is talking about it to me i must be the problem