2014
Although I know that this may not be the case for everyone, this year so far, to me, has truly been kind.
Instead of pinpointing reasons to be thankful, I’m choosing to give fierce thanks for everything. Gratitude is something that feels good, it looks good, tastes good and it is good for you. I don’t mean to sound like someone that is boastful of newfound meaning, I’m not. In the last year, I forced myself to own up to my demons, face them, face myself, deal with being alive in a way that has since improved my life. It was a tough decision but with my heart, soul, mind and body, I will not back out of growth. Every day presents challenges no matter how great or small. I remind myself of my triumphs often, if only to reflect positively on how proud of myself I have become.
I have bi-polar disorder that I’ve finally worked into being one of my STRENGTHS. There are still days that are hard, but MOST days? Most days are used as opportunities to fly. I’ve been so fortunate to have lived a very full life for someone with plentiful mental illness. I’m lucky enough to have a strong support system, a family that cares, a body that has helped me fulfill my dreams. I can’t choose things to be grateful for any longer. I have learned that gratitude is the basis of happiness, it is a circle with no beginning nor end. The ideal of a solid continuation of good vibes, kindness has been serious medication for me. While it may not shield me from some of the world’s villains, it ensures that I never become one and at the end of the day, I am content with that.
Be the person that wrote this post every damn day. Remember the way she felt and how proud of herself she is.
