A Taxi Dog Diary

After I died, I developed a whole new appreciation for life. ----- ------ ----- Surviving a stroke will do that to a person. I loved to sing; Motown, the blues, and jazz. But I became aphasic. For months, I couldn't speak, or I spoke so haltingly that I was embarrassed to open my mouth. Those days are past me now. I'm intellectually alive. But still physically paralyzed. I'm a retired psychotherapist; a good friend to men, who appreciates women. A family man. A student of life. I've been married to the same woman since I was a boy...I'm 67 now. But still a boy; wondering. If you find me here, say "Hello". My journey may interest you. For me, it's a blast!

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I Should Care

Posted on January 26, 2012

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Chet and Carol Baker as seen in the 1988 documentary Let's Get Lost

I’m too tired to edit, so you’ll have to take my APHASIA and blow it out your ass!

i’m going thru a new little dip in mood.  a  hiccup.   don’t know if yts a dip.  its 5:55 AM and I can’t sleep.  Uh-ho, little taxi, be careful.  my shrink says to me that i have pourous boumdaries…that i “attach very easily”.  notice she doesn’t say “Too Easily” but the implication is there.

“Fish” is yn extreme medical pain.  iyts hard to explain p[ain but once you've been there, you know how it is.   percidan, nerve blocks, gathering emotional/phsyical/spiritial/cramping/existialal/hopekessness-inducing, ... if you've been there tou know.  if you haven't you can't imagibe in your wildest nightmares.  pain.  And there is nothing io can do other tham BE THERE for him.  Talk about heplessness.

Amd Tennis Bunnie, http://tenniebunnie.wordpress.com, in another kind of pain, so strong, so angry, so beautiful.  sometimes we make our own hells but more oftern, out hells are produced for us by cercumstances out of our control.

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I should care.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chet_Baker

And I do.

Could have been Amy Weibhouse.  There’s all-kinda-pains!

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Even hpyo-manics feel pain, he said, sarcastically. I’ve been fying high without drugs myself forever.  But I have to be careful.  There’s only so much running-of-ot-my-mouth I can do before I get overbearingly maudlin.  i;m playing u came out of a dream on pandoda radio so i can cry myself out of this mood.

Where was I?

oh, yeah.  We I can go back to sleep now.  its 7:12 AM.  And I have accomplissed what, exactly.  “Fish” has to go to work.  With pian.  With percidan…which he hates morally , intellectually, spiritually.

And Tennis Bunnie.  Who ‘will’ defeat her pain with her enmourmus will!  Which, wehther she believes it or not, is also self-destructive.  Where Will she let herself go?  What can I do except watch.

AND WHAT ACOUT ME.  lIKE i’VE SAID before, I can write myself a mean paragraph.  The pen may be mighties than the sword, but my aphsic paragraph writer looks loke THIS in the morning without my make-up.  Bruised and Ugly!

Hepllessness sucks.  for the heplleess helper, and the heplless heplee!

So  fuck all of you.  I’m going back to sleep!

Now pandoda is playing “When Your Lover Has Gone”!  Double Fuck You!!!

7:57 AM

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Commenting with ya’all is great fun. The dialogue, the person-to-person repartee is what blogging is all about for me. All else is commentary, the Master Of The Good Word teaches us. My relationship with Him is filled with joy. He gave me a stroke. I brought the “latkes“! We’re like that with each other. We yell at each other, and laugh outrageously at our mistakes. And fix them as best we can. Obviously, He does a better “Job” of righting than I. [sic] Was that pun outrageous? Welcome to my blog. Your “comments” are also a great joy. I read them all. It is The Dialogue I crave. So I made a place of honor for you at my “Comments and Conversations” table. I know I’m showing off a bit. I set table. But it is, after all, my writing AND your commenting that makes it all worthwhile. —– —– —– “Comments” Redux —– —– —– Related articles Polishing up latkes with apples (seattletimes.nwsource.com) Celebrating Diversity with Latkes (notdabblinginnormal.wordpress.com) happy (non) crappy holidays (jeffreine.typepad.com) Latke-aholic (katzsdeli.wordpress.com) Baby, It’s Cold Outside (bindingthemain.wordpress.com) The Hanukkah Dilemma (jasonphilo.com)

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My BIG MontBlanc Pen

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It was so big you could hardly put your hand around it.  Yes, it was an affectation.  But a legitimate one!  A once in a lifetime purchase.  I really enjoyed it!

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Introduction to the LAMY 2000

Testifying to the timelessness of its design, the LAMY 2000 has been in production since its introduction in 1966. Gerd A. Müller, a man who was one of the ad­vo­cates of the Bauhaus move­ment, is the designer of the LAMY 2000. The Bauhaus prin­ci­ple of func­tion­al design: ‘form follows func­tion’ is clearly seen in the stylish simplicity of this writing instrument.

The LAMY 2000 is made of a special fiberglass resin called Makrolon that is resistant to impact and weathering, and withstands high and low temperatures. The large capacity piston-filling system of the fountain pen is designed to be used with bottled ink. It has a 14k gold nib plated with platinum to match the color scheme of black with stainless steel accents . The nib is hooded, or mostly covered, by the section or grip area of the pen.

The LAMY 2000 is available as a fountain pen, ballpoint pen, multi-color ballpoint pen, rollerball pen and mechanical pencil. There have been a few variations to the original design, including the Edition 2000 fountain pen, made of brushed stainless steel with a single band of Makrolon; the LAMY 2000 taxus, a ball­point pen made of gold­en-yel­low yew wood; LAMY 2000 black­wood, a ball­point pen made of grenadil­la, or African black­wood; and in 2009 a ballpoint made of solid ti­ta­ni­um with a con­trast­ing shiny plat­inum trim.

LAMY USA warranties its writing instruments for the life of the product, so there are no worries if any repairs are required during normal use of their pen or pencils.

Check out a few reviews of the LAMY 2000:

Julie at “Whatever” wishes she would have bought a LAMY 2000 fountain pen sooner! Doug at D*I*Y Planner notes this fountain pen “writes incredibly smooth on almost all the types of paper.” The review by Pigpogm mentions something to keep in mind if you decide to purchase this fountain pen: “The Extra Fine is much closer to what most people would describe as a fine, and even what some would probably call medium. Whatever nib width you usually prefer, go one finer with a Lamy 2000.” Dave’s Mechanical Pencils gives us some insights on what it’s like to use the pencil version of the LAMY 2000.

Have you used a LAMY 2000 fountain pen, pen or pencil? Feel free to share your thoughts with us about your LAMY 2000 writing experience!

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Many of these pens were in my collection.  I write about them here:

http://wp.me/p1WTS0-9c