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My Actor Ilya x NHL player Shane fic is now live! Rated: Explict.

Reposts appreciated! You can read it here:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/84558126/chapters/223095226

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Abigail depicted as if a loved daughter of Hannigram lowkey gives me the ick because neither Hannibal nor Will loved Abigail; they didn't even give her agency. And Abigail didn't like either of them. Hannibal used her as bait to lure Will into a conceptual family, which is what his character yearns for. Will absolutely cannot digest his guilt over killing Hobbs and thought that if Abigail got over her trauma caused by Hobbs, so could he. Abigail recognized in Hannibal and Will her own father who put her in a cage and forced her to do things which she did not want to do. They made her want to break free from them but she soon realised Hannibal is not a cage she can walk out from alive. So she bent to his will, and a part of me thinks that she even found Will a little pathetic and manipulatable. 'Murder family' is banal. Abigail was a victim and a caged bird.

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I remember the people recommending the HR book posting about Hollanov being soulmates, and I was like, the couple from a hockey book??????? Yeah, sure. And then I came out reading the book thinking about how Hollanov would love each other in every alternate universe.

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Oh I absolutely adore how the 'gimme kiss' scene is blocked. We can clearly see the atypical joy on Ilya's face, giving Shane's ankle a peck, puckering his lips childishly and demanding a kiss. What really gets me is how Shane's shot. We see a part of his profile, and we can tell he's smiling by looking at his cheeks bunching up, but that is it. Because his happiness is for Ilya to see. His adoration, content, and love for Ilya is Ilya's, even when we, the audience, are not privy to it. Like Shane will continue loving Ilya even when we aren't looking. They're fictional characters who exist for an aucience, but I really love being partially included and being made to feel like I'm not detrimental to the story. It humanizes them.

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People talk quantum mechanics and it sounds like a bunch of bullshit

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Man, this guy Shane Hollander is so submissive. Wdym he CLIMBED INTO his man's lap to comfort him?

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People talk quantum mechanics and it sounds like a bunch of bullshit

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Idk if other fandoms are like this but ironically, HR fandom doesn't know how to talk or think about sexuality. Connor fans, Hudson fans, Hudcon fans, Concois fans; all of you like to say your enemy is homophobic/biphobic to make yourselves feel morally superior, whilst being fundamentally incorrect. In fact, as a queer person, it's hurtful to see people use a celebrity's perceived queerness like a toy, and ignorantly misuse arguments regarding sexuality as a 'gotcha' moment to police other people. Abusing real life politics to feel righteous is immature, rude, and makes you look like an absolute moron. Someone has to say it. Shipping wars are normal in fandoms (re: the actual creation of fanfiction.net) but this sort of headless chicken dialogue is egregious and a stain on your character. If fandom is a place where you go and fight strangers everyday, edit pictures nefariously, accuse people of heinous shit, use it as an excuse to be a fucking nazi, then fandom isn't for you.

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People who keep saying backrooms has a weak plot are just indirectly saying they didn't understand it. The plot is strong; backrooms is a metaphor for your mind palace; the good and bad parts of your mind remembers the places and objects you've seen, and even yourself, as vague imitations - like what? like human memories; each main character has a different, wonderfully finished story arc - one gives into the viles of his mind, refuses to discover new paths, and is consumed by the boogeyman - one fights, taking new paths and persevering, and triumps over her trauma, so strong she finds the boogeyman pitiable in the glow of her victory against it. It's in fact a fantastic movie with a cohesive, well executed, plotline.

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Shane is voted hottest man in the NHL for the first time and Ilya smiles sarcastically when his teammates tell him but inside his mind he's killing everybody who's looked/looking at Hollander with lustful eyes by shooting lasers at them

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Some of the fans especially adore how Shane writes YUNA on his hockey stick handle, and after they are outed, Shane shows up having written I.R on one of his newer sticks.

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Rereading TLG meta #3

I think Shane's immense anxiety is understated because he's functioning. Look, he's on top of this high stakes sport, he's rich, he's got all these real estate side gigs he's managing successfully, so there's no way his anxiety is obscuring his daily life, right? But it does. He microanalysises every situation and is consistently drawn to the worst outcome as a knee-jerk reaction. His brain is rigidly compartmentalised: he's allowed to tell Hayden about him and Ilya because Hayden's a controlled factor, but Ilya can't tell Wyatt because, who is Wyatt anyway? Ryan invites them out and he has to think, well, I can't eat anything at the pizza place because I can only eat all these things my dietician said I can. Why? Because he wants to appease the uncertainty in his mind regarding aging as an athlete. He needs to have one less variable that may ruin people's expectations of him. Ilya buys tickets to Fabian's concert and gasp! Where is this concert because he cannot go to a place he's not mentally comfortable with first. All this because he has anxiety. But most of it is treated as a personality quirk by the people closest to him because he's also a bit nitpicky and pedantic. And because, again, he's highly successful in a very high pressure job.

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The sweet paradox of highly anxious Shane Hollander who has control issues being drawn to a high stress, high risk job where absolutely anything could happen.

And that's the thing—he dominates this volatile sport. In that he's exerting his control and succeeding at a high level. No wonder he only has eyes for hockey.

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I wish book Ilya got to live in huge fandom spaces too 😭😭 he's my favourite romance character

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Pls recommend me some online shops of artists who sell Hollanov merch y'all!!

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today's episode was insaneeeeeeeeeee wdym 'lie on the firewood and persuade the heavens' ahhhhhh

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Ilya Rozanov being a huge husband-guy. Newly retired, he goes on a number of sports podcasts. They ask him, what was your diet like on game days? He goes, well, the closest drive through serving high calorie junk food. But Shane likes salmon on wild rice. Did you know I saw this tik tok where they boiled salmon? I cooked it for Shane and he liked it so much. The host is like haha that's cool, man. So let's talk on-ice brawls. They all go hell yeah like cavemen. That one time that one guy broke two of your teeth, that was one nasty fight. Ilya goes, let's talk about the damage I left that guy with lol. My dentist loves my wallet. Shane actually has all his teeth, can you believe that? They go haha cuz he won't fight? Ilya's all serious. He says, you know that's not true. He broke the punching machine at the arcade. They're like, ooooh. He's like, that guy's insane. They're like, ok, let's talk you breaking the record for most goals scored in the league. He goes, haha that was wild. Shane is actually right on my heels, I hope he stops scoring goals. They're like lol he's your husband. He's like, ok? Did I say he wasn't? Anyway Shane was talking about how, and they're like, ok. He's like, Shane, and they're like, ok we get it. We got 2 for 1 calling you out here.