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[tdjens]

I’m so sick and tired of seeing the ones who have stolen pieces of my heart, my soul, my inner peace seemingly going on with their picturesque life.

As if they are not effected by the cruel and unusual events that transpired at their leisure.

As if we were not once bonded so tightly that I called you a lifer. A lifelong friend who becomes family.

Why? Why did this happen? Why the FUCK are you okay with it?! Why are those who ‘serve and protect’ only protecting the monsters?

What’s the balance? What’s the bigger picture? Because all I see is black and red. Rage and darkness. It’s hard not to let it consume me and come for you as you let him come for me.

May God be with me and have mercy on my soul.

[sunsetquotes]

“The past is a place of reference, not a place of residence.”

— Roy T. Bennett

[tdjens]

I’m awake again and made the mistake of scrolling through social media only to be met with pictures of a beautiful little boy’s third birthday party. I’m sure it all looks so sweet to the 100+ people who liked the photo, but for me it was painful.

The photo’s location is where my assault began. Where an amazing day turned into a literal nightmare.

I grew to love that little boy so much. After all, his mom was one of my most dear friends from years back. Their family was mine, so I thought.

That little boy is celebrating his third birthday with his parents and all I can think about is how his dad raped me in his son’s bed and how my best friend will remain by his side despite his actions. Despite my constant pain and the betrayal I thought she also felt.

My mind is everywhere and I can’t make sense of much. I’m just hurt and need an outlet. My heart hurts.. instead of celebrating that little boy’s third birthday, I’m sitting here crying trying to find answers that I may never receive and wondering why this transpired. It’s not the end of the world, but sometimes it feels like it.

[thebuddhistmind]

If you disagree with someone, make a conscious effort to step into their shoes and see the situation from their point of view. Even if you continue to disagree, you will gain some understanding.

Gyalwang Drukpa

[deviantlittlemind]

Always say “my peace is more important” when you find yourself reacting to something that doesn’t deserve your energy. Prioritize your inner wellness and cultivate an active mindset of peace by consciously deciding that you’ll elevate higher than any situation that arises.

[andlifemovesonn]

[tdjens]

One thing people take for granted is the opportunity to just be. Lay in the grass while admiring the sky. Embrace your surroundings and let nature consume you. That is the most free you will ever be.

[tdjens]

Sometimes I think hatred is easier. Build your wall and see everyone as an enemy because in the end they will be a part of your downfall one way or another. It is you who must build your kingdom. You can not rely on others for they have a kingdom of their own to build.

[rhsin]

“I’ve learned to face my demons,

I’m just learning that not everyone can handle them.”

― Samantha King Holmes

[rhsin]

You’ve never claimed to be perfect

Your flaws tell your story

There is no need to hide them.

— Samantha King Holmes, Born to Love, Cursed to Feel

[tdjens]

One thing people take for granted is the opportunity to just be. Lay in the grass while admiring the sky. Embrace your surroundings and let nature consume you. That is the most free you will ever be.

[manyyep-deactivated20181003]

Playing with Fire

The flame that once consumed me

Now licks my fingertips.

I’ve always played with fire,

But finally, I’ve learned the tricks.

-D.C.

[manyyep-deactivated20181003]

Grow

No one is full of nothing but light; We all possess some darkness within us. If we don’t learn to get in touch with it And understand it, It will consume us.

If we expect to grow, We need to look within And understand what’s there.

If we expect to grow, We need to accept what’s inside of us, The bright lights and dark nights alike.

-D.C.

[sheepishdialect-deactivated2019]

Day 111: Tactfully

“Raw, bare Abraded skin Stinging them is My barbed self I let myself in”

-Sheep

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