Can I be Honest?

The stream of consciousness ramblings of my mind - with the occasional gif of a cow ♡

[teaandfeels]

I literally feel sick to my stomach thinking about my reality more often than not. Its the same bullshit I've always been living with but I'm tired...

[teaandfeels]

when I ask "when do I get to be happy?" it's never been in an even remotely joking manner for me...

[teaandfeels]

yes, I experience aesthetic attraction

yes, I am demisexual

[teaandfeels]

I just really want to escape to somewhere a place where nobody knows who I am a place where I can be whoever I want without preconceptions a place where I won't be bothered by other people expecting

expecting me to drop myself to make them happy expecting me to prioritize everyone above me expecting me to conform to their expectations expecting me to sit quietly and nod to agree

I'm just over it

[itscolossal]

Wooden Benches Unfurl into Pasta-Esque Strands in Pablo Reinoso’s Works

[teaandfeels]

I've been depressed for so long I don't think I even know what it's like to NOT be depressed

[teaandfeels]

I want to be happy. I want to be there for myself. But I’ve never done so before, so now I don’t think I know how...

How does one be ‘authentically you’ when you don’t even know who ‘you’ are?

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[teaandfeels]

Struggling with this one...

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[teaandfeels]

If I could turn back time, I only wish I had decided to care about myself sooner. Maybe then I wouldn't still be dealing with all this pain. Maybe then I would have avoided so much of it in the first place...

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[teaandfeels]

Quite frankly I don't think I can do it anymore either

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