it's better. it's real.

previously on a sideblog ! 

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fooldreamt‌:

[   COVEY   ›   SENT   ]     maybe? [   COVEY   ›   SENT   ]     covey, if i’m gonna put in the hard work to finish my math homework, i’m gonna need some kind of confirmation you’ll make those cookies i like. [   COVEY   ›   SENT   ]     what if i come over and i do my homework while you bake? B)

[   NO. 15   ›   SENT   ] i think that could be arranged. [   NO. 15   ›   SENT   ] BUT you have to promise to finish it.

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just a quick note that activity will be a little more slow from here on out ! i’m starting school soon so i’ll be running around until everything’s all settled but i’m by no means abandoning any of my blogs ! discord is the best way to reach me KUHSET#3820 but imessage is also available to mutuals ! 

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fooldreamt‌:

[   COVEY   ›   SENT   ]     math sucks [   COVEY   ›   SENT   ]     i don’t like math [   COVEY   ›   SENT   ]     please distract me [   COVEY   ›   SENT   ]     coveeeeeeeey!!!

@tealhatboxed   //   text message starter call

[   NO. 15   ›   SENT   ]    peter kavinsky [   NO. 15   ›   SENT   ]    do your homework [   NO. 15   ›   SENT   ]    and then maybe i’ll make you those cookies you like. 

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fooldreamt‌:

          he knows now that the promise of a happy future lies not with genevieve in new york, but here with lara jean. what awaits him on the other side of the atlantic is something of the past, something he no longer can find it within himself to want to bring to the present. as crazy as it sounds, after only days of knowing her, peter knows this is where he belongs. he’s happy here, with lara jean  &  he’s hopeful she might feel the same. there’s been moments between them, gazes and brief touches that had all made his heart skip one, two, three beats.

          “  do you love your husband ?  ”   he suddenly asks, eyes glued to a spot on the horizon ahead, body seemingly frozen in terrified anticipation.   “  saranghae,”   is her response, and as he turns to face her, brows furrow in confusion. when he asks what it means, he’s given yet another a response he can’t make sense of. then, he lifts gaze to the sky for a moment, and SURE ENOUGH, there are dark skies forming above them. but her lack of an answer to his question means that what is left unsaid still hangs in the air between them, heavy and all too obvious, yet he’s too much of a coward to grasp it and bring it to light. so instead, he offers:   “  you wanna go find shelter and grab some food ?   ”   the words please say yes, repeats itself in peter’s mind. he knows she really should be getting back to ivanka and give her mother a break, but he’s not ready to say goodbye yet.

          “  i’ll pay. as a celebration for the album, and, y’know. everything.  ”

she falters ; torn between her duty as a mother & daughter ( she’d told ivanka she’d be back early ) and her love for peter. it’s strange, the unshakable feeling that her life’s begun AT LAST, here with him. the entire world pales in comparison. he could ask her to do anything, and she’d say yes.  and that’s what scares her - the fact that she’s putty in his hands. would highly consider running away with him if he’d asked. 

but her feelings aside, running away with peter, doing any of this is impractical. a fantasy that will never come true. her connection with peter is indescribable, but unrealistic. there’s no guarantee that he won’t - just like her husband, her father - the men in lara jean’s life have a habit of leaving her behind. and so this time, she runs. 

❛  i - i have to go back to ivanka. ❜

no promises of a raincheck - there really is no point, when all that’ll happen is another heartbreak for lara jean. she’s not even sure if she can take another one, still mourning the loss of her father, and trying to mend whatever was there with her husband. it’s not fair ; the way he makes her feel simply doesn’t measure up to her responsibility of being a mother. she has ivanka, and a husband waiting for her to reconcile things - he has a beautiful, lovely, girl in new york city. 

❛  i'm sorry. ❜

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doesntlookback‌:

@tealhatboxed​ ♥’d

❝if you don’t sit still, Lara Jean, I’m not going to be responsible for your hair looking terrible.❞ they were sitting in Margot’s room, hands working through her little sister’s long locks as she meticulously braided it. step one in a braid crown was always to get the braid part correct, first. and even if it had been a few months since she had done it on someone else, it was second nature.

❝where are you going, again? I was just so excited to hear that you actually had plans on a Friday night that I think I accidentally stopped listening.❞

❛  but go go - . ❜ 

pouts a little ( even though she knows she’s lucky margo’s even doing her hair - margo was always easier persuaded than kitty. lara jean was still struggling to master the perfect braid crown -- it was much easier to just have margo or kitty do it for her ). 

margot’s right ; it’s completely out of character for her to go out on a friday night ( to somewhere that isn’t belleview ) but there was a book signing that she wanted to go to -- of an author she liked so much she was willing to drive there. 

❛  there’s a bookstore i wanted to go to - they’re doing a book signing. ❜ 

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john ambrose: hey, are you still up? i can’t sleep after everything that happened, which is weird because i should be exhausted.

john ambrose: i had a really nice time with you tonight, lara jean.

lara jean: i did too, johnny.

lara jean: i meant what i said - i still want to see you make a model UN speech one day.

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this is a very covinsky song and i am feeling a lot of things

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❛  it means ❜ PAUSES ; she’d just told him she loved him. quietly, and in korean - but had said it all the same. hasn’t known the boy in front of her for long ( only a matter of days, really ) but something in her soul says she’s found home at last. a certain kind of peacefulness that she’d never felt with ivanka’s father. not that what she’s feeling matters ; he has an ex-girlfriend that he’s still in love with ( one that’s in new york, and must be beautiful & lovely, for someone to write such beautiful songs about her ) -- she’s a mother, she has to put ivanka’s happiness & needs first. ❛  it looks like rain. ❜ 

@fooldreamt​ ( plotted ! ) 

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fooldreamt replied to your post: “but what about us? and this moment? is this not...

peter and i are literally right here

gen vc: thank you so much for your service

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“but what about us? and this moment? is this not unfinished?”

“we have not started anything.” 

“no? well it feels like we’ve started. fuck.” 

someone give me a once au i am Sad

[uponaredwheelbarrow]

“What the hell are we?” “Tell me we’re not just friends.” “This doesn’t make much sense.” “Heart on your sleeve, like you’ve never been loved.” “Now look what you’ve done.” “I’ll be fine without you babe.” “Wish you’d let me stay.” ”Tell me that you love me, even if it’s fake.” “I can’t spend the rest of my life chasing you around.” “If you want me take me home and let me use you.” “I know he doesn’t satisfy you like I do.” “I just wanna look good for you.” “Let me show you how proud I am to be yours.” “No, I don’t wanna have a conversation with you.” “I don’t even care about you.” “Give me touch, cause I’ve been missing it.” “You steal me away with your eyes and with your mouth.” “If you want me come and get me.” “I don’t know what to say tonight.” “The silence burns so much it hurts.” “we’re broken in our own little ways.” “We’re broken but we fit together just right.” “It feels like I’ve known you for so long.” “you can’t have everything you want, when you want it” “I will be everything you want, when you want it.” “I know I don’t understand, just how your love can do what no one else can.” “Your kiss got me hoping you’ll save me right now.” “Your touch got me looking so crazy right now.” “I need your kiss like the ocean needs a breeze.” “Love of my life, you’ve hurt me.” “Please don’t say you love me, cause I might not say it back.” “You’re the one that I love, but I am saying goodbye.” “Looking at you makes it harder, but I know that you’ll find another.” “Perfect couldn’t keep this love alive.” “I love you enough to let you go.”

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I WANT LIFE TO START HAPPENING. independent & private lara jean song covey from to all the boys i’ve loved before, as penned by cossette. I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE AND I WANT A BOY TO FALL IN LOVE WITH ME BACK. 

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bbcmycroft-arc‌:

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cornerscafe‌:

suddenly feels sheepish, embarrassed.

maybe the coveys have a predetermined list that they use every year. maybe he’s overstepped, maybe he’ll show them his recipe and they’ll laugh because it’s not good enough—

shakes his head. peter kavinsky is not the kind of guy who second guesses himself. (regardless of the way lara jean makes him feel, or the way that he loses grip of his words when she catches his gaze, or anything else.)

❛  i, uh. i brought a recipe. thought it’d be fun to try. ❜ peter extends his hand and the recipe. it feels like giving lara jean a little piece of his heart.

❛ OH? ❜ she takes the recipe from him, looking it over - christmas cookie bonanza in the past has always been comprised of the same few cookies ( sugar cookies, pecan crescents, snickerdoodles, molasses, cowgirl, white-chocolate cranberry with the occasional new recipe to try out ). ❛ the council will have to vote on it. ❜ 

when she’d initially agreed to their mutually beneficial agreement, lara jean didn’t expect to be spending that much time with peter, or his family. but before she knew it, peter had wedged his way into her family - winning over kitty in no time, and slowly working on margot, to the point where he’d been invited to the christmas cookie bonanza. can’t help but think back to when she’d asked margot why she broke up with josh, knowing how much the family loved him & realizes she’ll be subject to the same conversations when she and peter inevitably part ways. but christmas isn’t exactly the time for thoughts such as these ; she’ll figure out what to do when the time comes - tries not to think about her own feelings. 

❛ come ON. these cookies aren’t going to bake themselves! ❜ 

[sansas]

endless gifs of lara jean covey [2/∞]

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cornerscafe‌:

peter hadn’t even wanted to come.

that was the thing – the fucking kicker, the cherry on top of a shitty, melted ice cream sunday. he didn’t want to be here. the truth is, it’s only been a few years and he’s—

yeah. he’s not over her.

that much becomes abundantly clear the second she walks through those gym doors; the balloon arch and the fairy lights and the old speaker playing top hits from their graduation year all fade away.

lara jean.

he’s drawn to her, inexplicably so. even after all this time. pretty sure there will always be a part of him that can’t give up lara jean. he watches her for a while, in between stilted conversations and forced laughs and the same faces saying the same things over and over again. he finds himself at the dessert table when she wanders over himself.

and fuck, fuck, he doesn’t think he can do this, he can’t be this close to her, he can’t talk to her—

lara jean trips. she’s still so clumsy, even after all this time. he catches her, out of habit, out of instinct, out of some undeniable need to still be near her.

❛  lara jean covey; you haven’t changed one bit. ❜ 

❛ peter kavinsky  — you used to call me covey. ❜

doesn’t know whether to laugh or to cry - of ALL the people here, of course it’s peter that catches her. it’s been years & in all honesty, lara jean really hasn’t been the best at keeping up with what everyone’s been up to. but every now and then, she’ll find things that remind her of people - in the way that EDM music will always remind her of chris, any mentions of lacrosse and chocolate chip cookies remind her of peter. she thinks about peter every time she drives past an antique store, wonders how his mom and owen are doing - wishes that she’d stayed in touch even after the break up. 

❛ i’ll have you know, i’ve changed some. ❜

she hadn’t noticed peter when she’d walked in. wonders where gen is, if they ever got back together ( it wouldn’t surprise her if they did ). notes how odd it is, to be back here like nothing’s changed since she graduated from adler high years ago, next to her high school sweetheart ( is it possible to have multiple high school sweethearts? ), knowing all the things she does about him ( how he likes his coffee, what kind of cereal he prefers, his favourite kind of weather, knows how hard it was for him after his father left ) and yet it seems like she knows nothing about him at all. 

❛ how’ve you been? ❜

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did some rambling on my multi but here’s some thoughts on LJ + theatre 

lara jean drags peter to waitress on broadway. she cries throughout the entirity of the show, stagedoors & buys the pies they sell at the brooks & the recipe book - goes home and tries to recreate the taste of all the pies. while she used to listen to other cast recordings, or albums while baking, the only one now deemed acceptable is the original cast recording of waitress. she drags peter to the tour, even margot and kitty, and trina & daddy again too. secretly wants to do a couples costume with peter as jenna & jim. it’s by far her favourite musical.

she’s forever upset that she never got to see amélie during its (short-lived) broadway run. listens to the cast recording whenever she’s on the train, pretending that she’s in paris - when she eventually does visit france, she makes sure to visit every place mentioned in the movie and musical.

she has an entire playlist of showtunes in general, and another one of showtunes that remind her of peter. falling slowly (once), you matter to me (waitress), waited all these years (venice), enjoy the ride (bring it on) being some of the songs on it. the entirity of daddy long legs is also on it, simply for the letter-writing.

lara jean isn’t the biggest fan of the mean girls musical, but gets super into it because of ashley park. she gets sucked into it, even buying a few shirts and skirts because they remind her of something that grechen would wear. if there’s ever a k-pop transfer to broadway, she’ll be on the first flight out. 

lara jean collects playbills. she doesn’t hang them up, but she does have some playbill binders and carefully stores each one. she also has a list of the playbills she has, with the cast list and date, saved in a notes document on her phone. her most prized possession is probably from the waitress ART production that she found on ebay. one day, she’ll get it signed by sara - and the rest of the cast, she’s currently only gotten it signed by drew since he never seems to leave the show. she’s still waiting for the day that she gets her hands on a k-pop playbill though - and a bonnie & clyde one, simply for the novelty of it being bonnie & clyde. 

whenever she needs a pep talk, she blasts the legally blonde cast recording. she’s watched the proshot more times than she can count.