Dear New Me
Dear New Me,
I understand my ex has moved onto you and that’s great. I know your blossoming relationship has nothing to do with me but I think you should be prepared for some of the worst things you didn’t know you could be put through. You should know that he’s probably trying to make me sound like the crazy one and I may be. But he is to blame for that. He does seem like a really good guy and I know I shouldn’t be telling you this but I feel like I have to.
He’ll make you so dependent on him that you can’t even get up from the table to go to the bathroom without him questioning it. Even looking in a different direction will make him question if you’re thinking about another guy.
Please please please don’t fall asleep around him. Don’t fall asleep around him. That’s the worst thing you can do for your mental and physical health! You’ll wake up with him inside of you, claiming you were awake and said to do it. Or you’ll wake up and he’s caressing your breasts with his tongue while pleasing himself. Tears and fear will fill more than you’d think. Every touch will make you flinch. Every stare will make you question what he’s planning that night to do to you. Sometimes you’ll feel like you just have to give in and you do. You do it with tears rushing out on the bed while he’s having the time of his life with your body. But it’s okay cause it’s dark in his room at night and he can’t see you cry. To some, it may seem like nothing. But that’s rape. You’re unconscious. He’ll say you told him to do it or you put your butt against him so he thought that meant it was okay to force himself into you in your sleep. It’s NOT okay. Don’t let him tell you you wanted it. You did not.
Please be careful around him.
Sex. This is the scariest of all. He’ll say “I love you so much”. Want you to be the mother of his children. The wife to complete him. But you’re nothing special. He’ll cum in you over and over after you beg him not to. Your opinions are irrelevant to everything. I hope you’re taking birth control. He doesn’t use condoms either.
He has a way with his hands. Some good, some bad. He’ll say he loves you yet throw you onto the bed and squeeze you until you have bruises. But don’t forget; that’s your fault, remember? He’ll deny the bruises too by the way. He’ll kick you off the bed if you put your back to him and leave you on the ground crying. He’ll be able to fall asleep right after hurting you while you’re left contemplating leaving but do you really want to be thrown again? Do you really want him to get up in your face again? Screaming so the whole house can hear you. Don’t worry though, no one will come to your rescue. No one. They’ll hear you and pretend nothing happened the next day when they see you.
Now I understand you’re probably no angel either, but there’s no need to kick your partner and let them sleep on the ground. He’ll scream in your face until you’re crying uncontrollably then he’ll feel bad and blame you. He’ll say that you just make him so angry and don’t know when to stop.
He’ll make you feel so comforted with his embracing hugs but you can’t help the tears that you have to hide falling down your face. If you get caught crying, “you’re too emotional”.
He seems like a great guy and I guess he is, but just watch yourself around him. There’s more than just a pretty face to him and I’m positive his other exes will agree. Just be careful. I survived. I was just another love that got away.
Spread the word!❤
