bear lost in the woods

[tedibear1]

The battle I’ve been in

can be seen on my skin

The real damage though

are hidden beneath

were my life hangs by every beat

The scars on my heart are the only proof

of how many deaths I’ve seen….

When I look

in the mirror…..

[tedibear1]

It's my 11 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[tedibear1]

That sinking feeling looking down

From the edge of black

deep and empty

but breathtaking

The reason for living disappears

the more I seep into oblivion

and the coldness from below

teasing me

daring me to dance my way

into the void

The breeze coming from the mouth of

darkness ….

whispering …..

Calling me to the depths of sin

and the strength it takes not to fall

that only sinners know

how low your soul can go…..

[tedibear1]

Dive into your darkness

Where the night blooms in verse

Where the moon reign supreme

And wolves sing

The ways out covered in black

And you stand alone

Gazing out for light

And the clouds creep in

And covers the only escape you have

And your soul trapped

And gasping for love

That will never shine

[tedibear1]

It's my 10 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[torrentialmonsoon]

we converge like the teals and turquoises of the caribbean sea; we rise and fall like the tsunamis inside me.

[tedibear1]

But the deeper we delve

Into the deep beyond

And find the choking depth

denies us of the pleasure

we give to each other

And we float gently apart

after

drowning in our own

embrace…

[tedibear1]

Like the moon

You shine on

My darkest hours

Giving hope

In finding my way

Back to me…

[tedibear1]

I am here still

searching…

between the blades

of grass with my bare feet

The tickle under foot

The magic in the memories left

in every dew on the blade

of life I once had

I’ve…..

comeback barefoot to

be grounded

to clear the chaos within

and for my heart I left

behind

For you…

[tedibear1]

I want to fly away from here

i said

Fluttering wings against the wind

have not

will not move

Tomorrow’s another day

I can only try again

Duped by the fireflies

roaming free

I thought

I can do the same

But falling leaves are swept away

by the breeze

I can’t really do that

I’m only hanging on

by a stem…

[tedibear1]

The night tingled in beads of sweat

as the breeze whispered quietly

Lips locked in lust

hands crawling over skin

Racing through emotions

only the two of us can taste

colored windows

moistened by heavy breathing

limbs

tangled together

no guilt

no worries

just the insatiable appetite

for one another

Lust into sin

that only betrayal can give...

I didn’t ask for it

I only wanted to

let it go…

[tedibear1]

The moment

left behind

in a wooden box

dust covered mistakes

of roots

planted in salted layaway

I never meant to cut it,

slipping on foliage covered ground

of melted memories

lost behind bottles of sorrow,

I don’t miss it

but my heart

tells me otherwise

[tedibear1]

The fall of midnight beckons

chilled breath escapes

our lungs

white knuckle ride around

the corner where morn is

within its reach

Time is running

as quickly as we go

but around the bend

our ways will depart

in different directions

and only the taste of memory

will remain

of this foolish escapade

[denmysterywoman-deactivated2017]

Sweet, sweet, teddy bear Soft to the touch and Warm in my embrace; I hold you dearly close To my heart where you Shall always have a place.

@tedibear1

A Valentine’s Day wish for you. ❤

[tedibear1]

❤🐻

[tedibear1]

I was not very Jaysome!!!

Apparently I un-hearted a bunch of Randomlyjay!! My sincerest of apologies! That wasn't very jaysome of me!!! Thanks tumblr!!! I didn't do it!!!

[tedibear1]

Tag and I'm it!!!

Tagged by three lovely ladies!

@sonador-reveur @madworlddiary @katrinnac

Name: Theodore, don’t laugh! At least nobody asked for my middle name!!! Haha

Nickname: Ted,Jr,J.R.,Teddy, Bear

Zodiac: Scorpio

Height: 5'9

Orientation: Hetero

Ethnicity: Brown Bear 🐻

Favorite fruit: Pear, nectarines

Seasons: fall

Favorite book: Charles Bukowski/the people are flowers at last. Sylvia Plath/the collected poems. Just received my Walt Whitman’s songs for the open road and I can’t wait!!!

Favorite flower: daisies,orchids,tulips.

Favorite scent: Bread baking,Italian kitchen

Favorite color: Black

Favorite animal: Bears!!!! Dogs!!!!

Coffee,tea or ?: tea, whiskey

Average sleep: what is that?

Favorite fictional character: spongebob, his taste in music is awesome!!!

# of blankets used when sleeping:1

Dream trip: travel worldwide and eat, drink a variety of food and booze!!

Blog created: 2013 I think

Number of followers: I hope none ‘cause they be smelling my lunch!!

Everyone I want to tag is already tagged so…

[tedibear1]

Why am I still unfollowing people Tumblr !!!! Grrrr!!

[tedibear1]

Gams wrapped around the spirit of words books of love riddled with kisses How I imagined you lie on silken sheets every time my thoughts wonders your way I wonder if you think of me this way or anyway at all…