☪ ʟᴏɴᴇʟʏ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ;

we're too young to know what ( love ) is – our loss. cynical eyes scanning the room for meaning. maybe youth is wasted on the young – our LOSS. travel in packs, drinking our teenage spirit. maybe we're all clean cut criminals, running fast to blur the visuals. i'm not sure i've got the HEART for this. maybe that's the hardest part of it.

[jcida]

Lacing her hand in Tegan’s as she followed her towards the bathroom of her dorm room, Adrianna looked around at the sea of people who were beginning to flow in and out of the space. ❝ Bitch i thought you’d never ask. ❞ Closing the bathroom door behind the two, Adrianna proceeded to screw open the bottle of vodka and tipping her head back to let the burning liquid slide down her throat before holding it out to Tegan. ❝ What do you wanna start with ? I’m already kinda – low key fucked – i did a line before i got here. ❞ Whispering the last words in her non sober state as if it were a secret, the brunette let out a laugh as she reached for the bong.

[teganofc-blog]

Graciously, Tegan grabbed the neck of the vodka bottle and followed suit with Adrianna. She pressed the bottle to her lips and took a few sips, wincing slightly. “I know I threw a party to socialize, but if I would have known you were free, I would’ve just invited you over, honestly,”  She climbed into the bath tub and sat down on the edge of it, before looking up at Adrianna as she spoke. Tegan couldn’t help but giggle at her friend. “Low key? Nothing about you is low key,” Generally speaking, the dark-haired girl didn’t do coke. However, with all of the people around her talking about it constantly, it got her curious. “Do you -- have anymore? Coke, I mean...” She trailed off.

[eddiebrck]

“I guess I could use a little balance. That’s what yin yang signs are for, right?” He smiled over at the girl, doing his best to enjoy himself. He didn’t know Tegan very well, but he was beginning to really like her. He almost wished he had talked to her before this. “I guess I could tell you. I don’t know if you know him. His name is Parker. He’s been a royal fuck up, and I’m pretty tired of dealing with it.” He let out a cool sigh, taking the tab from the girl. “It’s not worth my time or attention. I need to pep the fuck up, honestly.”

[teganofc-blog]

Tegan pushed the toilet seat closed and sat down on top of it, listening intently to Vincent’s explanation. “Parker Dubois -- yeah, I think everyone at least knows of him. He’s a cute little thing,” She replied, but quickly raised a brow in confusion. “Oh shit, you’re the one who choked out Tobias. Good job on that one, by the way,” She lifted her beer bottle from the sink and took a sip. “Well, I don’t partake in the snorting of cocaine, but everyone of my other friends does. I’ve heard it peps you the fuck up... wait, what did Parker do?” Quickly, the girl cupped a hand over her mouth, shaking her head. “That’s none of my fuckin’ business, is it?”

[ptricklynch-blog]

“It doesn’t have to suck— you gotta learn how to be okay with being alone and not have expectations. I guess that’s just my take on it… life’s a lot easier when you don’t expect anything.”

[teganofc-blog]

“I guess you’re right. It’s just hard to change your mindset after so many years -- but I guess I ought to get used to it, huh? Oh, I’m Tegan, by the way.”

[eddiebrck]

“You’re the master? I’m at the right place, I guess.” Vincent forced a smile onto his features, glancing over at the girl. “Cool. I’m not bringing shit if people can just bring it for me.” He glanced around the dorm, scoping out where the drinks were. “Really?” The mention of drugs definitely caught Vincent’s attention. “Acid? Hm…” It had been a while since he had messed around with LSD. “Alright. I’m in.” Who knew Tegan was this fun?

[teganofc-blog]

There was an undeniable trace of mischief laced in Tegan’s smirk as Vincent agreed. She headed to the bathroom, beckoning Vincent the whole way. Once they were inside, she shut the door and started rooting through her purse until she pulled out the tiniest of plastic snack bags. “They have yin yang signs on them. I already took one just before you got here,” She handed him the bag and sipped from her beer. “You gonna tell me why this day was so stressful?” 

[ptricklynch-blog]

The blonde furrowed his brows, looking away before turning in her direction. “Not to sound like a dick— honest, I’m not trying to be— but you shouldn’t really depend on someone else like that. It’s not fair to other people, and at the end of the day, you’ve only got yourself— I’m not speaking from personal experiences, it’s just my outlook on life.”

[teganofc-blog]

She raised a hand in protest, shaking her head. “No, no, you’re not being a dick,” This was what she needed -- somebody to be honest with her. “Well, if it wasn’t obvious, I don’t really rely on anyone. Loneliness just sucks. It’s like, I think about hanging out with people, and then I get with those people, and I want to be alone. But I’m lonely. What is with the human brain?” 

[eddiebrck]

“Look. I’m just here for a good time. It’s been a shit fucking day, so I need to relax.” A small smile wedged itself on Vincent’s features, looking around the girl’s dorm. She had done pretty well, considering the small amount of time she had to get this whole thing ready. He hugged her back. “So, what do you have to drink around this place?”

[teganofc-blog]

“Lucky for you, I happen to be the master of relaxation,” The female teased, shuffling through the people who had flooded her dorm. “I’ve got tons to drink, people actually listened when I tweeted BYOB. Beer over there, vodka in the fridge -- ‘cause who likes warm vodka? You can probably find just about whatever you’re looking for...” She trailed off, biting her bottom lip. “But if you’re in a decent mindset and want a nice trip, I’ve got acid. It’s good shit too. We could just chill in the bathroom. I’ve made the tub into a makeshift bed since I know my dorm will be full of psycho drunks.”

[jcida]

In all honesty, Adrianna wasn’t even sure if she had wanted to go to a party that night ; she usually never went to parties without making sure she had someone with her that she knew at all times but this was Tegan, the two girls had a bond that just clicked. And so, there she found herself, at Tegan’s door with several beer bottles in her left hand and a large bottle of vodka that she was able to steal from the kid across the hall in her right hand. Having just done a line, the effects of the white powder were taking effect on her as Tegan swung open the door. ❝ Hi ! ❞ Adrianna wrapped her arms around the smaller girl, the glass bottles clicking one another as she pulled away. 

[teganofc-blog]

Adrianna reminded her of herself in so many ways. The two had run from parties gone bad, had countless heart to hearts, and generally just clicked in a way that Tegan could only describe as fate bringing them together. When she felt Adrianna’s arms around her, the tiny girl pressed a kiss to her cheek and beckoned for her to follow her. Tegan opened the bathroom door, where her bong and various other drinks were stashed. “So, you want to make this a party for two?” She reached for a lighter and flicked it the side of it so that the flame appeared. “I’ve got all sorts of party favors...”

[ptricklynch-blog]

“—Shit,” he swore, heaving off a deep exhale. Leaning back, Patrick’s head tilted back, eyes raising up towards the ceiling. “I guess not,” he agreed, giving off a light chuckle. “So what’s this whole thing about protecting each other?”

[teganofc-blog]

Tegan tilted her head to the side, a quizzical look on her face. “Oh, right. I was just saying that it seems like everyone has like that one person that they know will take care of them no matter what. I don’t think I’ve found that person yet.”

[rowanrip-deactivated20160224]

rowan could tell that tegan was getting anxious about the subject and she instantly scooted closer, wrapping her arms around her petite frame, burying her head into the crook of her neck. “tegan, please. this isn’t your fault. it isn’t, i know it’s not. you felt like you had to protect your dad and ultimately, this entire situation is his fault. m-maybe you can have the doctor’s tell your mom. or tell her that they said he wasn’t going to make it through. y-you can’t keep lying to her, it’s only going to make things worse.” she whispered, looking up at her, cupping her face in her hands. “she deserves to know or else this is just gonna eat you up inside.”

[teganofc-blog]

“it is!” the girl shouted through a mess of tears. tegan was damn near hysterical. this was exactly what she was afraid of. “i killed him...” she whispered, falling into rowan’s embrace. she hadn’t once gone to visit the man in that bed since he’d fallen into it. the guilt and the fear weighed on her shoulders like a ton of bricks, and telling rowan did not lift that weight, as she had hoped. as much as she loved the girl who was cradling her, she couldn’t do anything. neither of them could. “i’m in too deep. he deserves to go with dignity, but he’s not going to if he’s laying there in a bed with machines breathing for him. and momma...” another gasp for air shook her to her core, and she closed her eyes momentarily, just listening to the sound of rowan’s heartbeat. tegan tried to even her breathing with it. her fingers gripped at rowan’s shirt tightly, almost as if she feared that rowan would disappear if she let go. she wasn’t much calmer, but she could speak easier. “i’ve been punished for killing him. i’m going to live my life alone, i’m going to die alone, and i deserve that,” she couldn’t look up at rowan. “i just didn’t know that this would hurt so much.”

[teganofc-blog]

After a mass tweet, people were showing up at Tegan’s door. It hadn’t given her much time to prepare, but she had cups, crackers, excess brownies, solo cups, liquor, and random pieces of food from her mini fridge set out on a table. There was some EDM song playing from her iHome, and Tegan was, for lack of a better word, lit. The girl had let a tab of LSD dissolve on her tongue, and her trip was insane. She stood in the doorway, a beer in one hand and a brownie in the other. “I’m so glad you’re here!” Tegan wrapped her arms around the person’s waist. 

[teganofc-blog]

@srslyariaa: @teegrace it's kinda sad you gotta party to have that.

@teegrace: @srslyaria yep. move along.

[teganofc-blog]

@adricruz: @teegrace I HEAR U HAVE THE PARTY

@teegrace: @adricruz BYOB BITCH

[teganofc-blog]

@srslyaria: @teegrace that's such a mainstream thing to say

@teegrace: i'm sorry? i need a drink and some friends

[teganofc-blog]

@adricruz: @teegrace lets go find one

@teegrace: @adricruz i'm down lets do this damn thing

[teganofc-blog]

@rafaelband: @teegrace have u seen fastnfurious tokyo drift

@teegrace: @rafaelband no man i have not

[teganofc-blog]

@kingvincent: @teegrace i'd show up

@teegrace: @kingvincent tell everyone then. everyone is so sad and we all just need to kick back

[teganofc-blog]

@kingvincent: @teegrace you're no fun. throw your own.

@teegrace: @kingvincent hahahaah no one would come to a party at my dorm unless sawyer invited them