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gamzee it/itself | true capricorn ♑︎ | i know tavros to be a woman and if youre on this blog you should too

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lesboygamzee -> telesticCoulromancer

white / disabled / tme

im gamzee both as in i am the character and that is my name . i like homestuck , and the homestuck epilogues , and homestuck beyond canon . hs2 was ok but fell flat in some places . i havent played hiveswap or friendsim in long enough to give an opinion on those . pesterquest really wasnt for me . i havent watched the pilot yet

im girltavros on fraf and used to be the gamz in the official discord

my top favourites are , in order : tavros , vriska , kanaya , jade , and either rose or jane ( rose for just homestuck proper , jane including the epilogues + beyond canon ) . i think tavros is a trans woman and i would like you to meet me on that level if youre talking about her on this blog , she/fae only

im interested in my own analysis mostly and probably will not make that much sense if you havent been here awhile . youll learn to understand though ...

im working on an mspfa . im also working on the first chapter of gamzstuck , a highly self indulgent gamtav humanstuck au fic

commissions open

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normal again does anyone fuck with the papa louie franchise

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it is like near identical to the abuse ive faced everywhere else in my fucking life i do not want it chasing me into fucking homestuck

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i hadnt even talked to most of them i think , they just fucking decided i had bad vibes

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10/10 experience to realise that people actually were talking abt you behind your back and spreading lies and trying to convince people youre dangerous its awesome i cannot recommend it enough

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i know people were talking to the mods behind my back too . like this isnt even paranoia its been said as much . other members telling them im a danger to people over fucking nothing . maybe they werent lying abt me being targeted lmfao they just didnt want to admit them + their friends were a part of it

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i dont ecen give a fuck abr the gamzone anymore i understand it was causing problems for the mod team but whyd they have to fucking lie about that shit . why didnt they just shut it down if they were going to lie about it being targeted and instesd let it be overrun by unrelated shit against my wishes when my input over Keep It was just Archive It

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its so blatant . it was all so blatant but i wasnt trying to have a fucking courtroom tier debate in a public server + modmail was always such a fucking headache . i was being worn down and whrn i inevitably ended up being ' hey why the fuck are you treating me like that ' it eas omgggg gamz theres a time and place stop complaining . and then whrn i was like Hey ive been consistently treated awful in here so im leaving they were like Whatttt youve never complained even once come back :( come back so we can make it worse until you lash out and treat you like a crazy dangerous bitch and we dont look like the bad guys for letting a disabled 18 year old be bullied out of the server by several members including the mod team :(

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one of the reasons they gave for gamzone being taken down was it being targeted by kiwifarmers and when i was like Hey what. can i see where im being talked abt by kiwifarmers what the fuck they showed me and it was the message where they said ' yeah youre being targeted by kiwifarmers ' and no mention of me before then because kiwifarmers know how to look up the word Kiwifarms on discord and they like to do this regularly

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its so blatant . it was all so blatant but i wasnt trying to have a fucking courtroom tier debate in a public server + modmail was always such a fucking headache . i was being worn down and whrn i inevitably ended up being ' hey why the fuck are you treating me like that ' it eas omgggg gamz theres a time and place stop complaining . and then whrn i was like Hey ive been consistently treated awful in here so im leaving they were like Whatttt youve never complained even once come back :( come back so we can make it worse until you lash out and treat you like a crazy dangerous bitch and we dont look like the bad guys for letting a disabled 18 year old be bullied out of the server by several members including the mod team :(

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im not going to pretend not to be upset abt hso still

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people will be nice to the gamz one day

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im not going to pretend not to be upset abt hso still

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eridan is one of the most overhyped characters of all time complexitywise

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i think like a lot of people will see it as ( possibly rightfully ? idk ) unnecessary or petty to still be posting abt it publicly but 1 my friends have been fully bitched to 2 im not targeting any of the mods here im upset abt the #team and ive been making sure to be vague abt specific incidents , im being very careful as to not cause issues just give my side on things 3 im basically shut out of any communication they said rhey wont read my appeal for like a year+ and theyve admitted to reading the blog/at least having an idea of it this has like a nonzero chance of getting through . idk

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they still havent addressed me getting timed out for 2 weeks for a conversation i wasnt a part of

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i really need to update my appeal doc cus pike they said they wouldnt read it for another year or so and also theres just so much fucking shit i forgot about or didnt fully register until now

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trying to sleep and i cant cus i keep remembering hso incidents that hadnt even crossed my mind while making my case to them . why were they doing that

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on my vriska attack for artfight i gave her a shirt that said i <3 my [shitty drawing of tavroses face] do you think andrew hussie will fuck with that or am i going to hell

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its kind of focal