hey! sorry for bothering you this is probably a dumb ask, but i was wondering if freckliedan is pretty much retired? sorry for bothering you
not a dumb ask & you’re no bother b! i’m sorry if it’s been a bit since you sent this; tumblr decided not to give me a notification for some reason.. hellsite.
when i stopped posting on freckliedan i fully intended to come back frequently enough to at least have a regular queue of positivity/mental health posts, and the reason i closed my askbox was so that i could gradually get caught up & answer all of the asks i’d accumulated during school/while i was having a rougher time with my health.
i also stopped using it as my main account/started this blog because my hyperfixation is hibernating? that happens for me; i never fully Stop caring about an interest of mine, but my brain always eventually shifts attention to something new and if i try forcing myself to stay engaged with the old interest i can sometimes create so many negative associations with it that i Don’t have the option of it coming back in the future.
and i hate killing hyperfixations! especially when they mean as much to me as dnp do. it can take half a decade to re-engage with an interest after it’s been ‘killed’ for me; unfortunately, i know that from experience.
the amount of negativity i was seeing on my dash combined with the amount of discourse that usually happened combined w/ the number of treasured mutuals who were shifting attention to different fandoms all combined also were making it hard for me to keep engaging with that account in a way that felt good and was fulfilling for me, which (along with creating a safe space for minors) was ALWAYS the most important thing for me with that blog!
all of that is like, context on why i took a step away? and in the time since i took a break, i graduated college, got confirmation that my thyroid needed better help/that i have other health stuff going on, & my manager was laid off and i & my 3 closest coworkers all became full time employees & the co-leads of our kitchen—we won’t be getting a new manager.
it’s been a huge transitional period for me, and my life still hasn’t stabilized; we still need to hire another person for our kitchen & my thyroid level still isn’t quite where it should be. so i don’t think that i’ll be able to say for certain what the future of freckliedan/tenderdan is until i get closer to the kind of stability i’ve been working towards for the last little bit?
i still do want to come back to answer all my asks. i don’t know when that’ll be possible, though.
tl;dr life has been a lot and i don’t know for sure but the reason i stepped away was so that i could someday come back and i want to answer all my old asks as soon as i’m able.
ty for the ask, b! i’ve really been meaning to post an update lately, and i’m really glad for the chance to do so 💗