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[teuphelchen]

The worst part is knowing I can’t cry for the next 11 hours

[teuphelchen]

I just want to be loved the way I love

[teuphelchen]

My own parents don’t want me why would a random dude then

[teuphelchen]

Can’t wait to get out of work, sit in my car and cry

[teuphelchen]

In too deep to get out now

[teuphelchen]

What if at the end of it all you say no while I am wired on yes already, how am I supposed to survive that?

[teuphelchen]

Turns out my overthinking was justified

[teuphelchen]

The hardest part of it is having to go to work everyday like everything’s alright

[teuphelchen]

Kinda hurts that I’m trying to fit you into my schedule as much as possible to hear that you don’t try to do that at all. I would be happy seeing you for even 5 minutes if nothing else was possible but somehow I’m not that important to you.

[teuphelchen]

Only good at multitasking cause it’s the only way to shut up my overthinking

[teuphelchen]

I’m afraid no one’s ever gonna love me the way I can love someone

[teuphelchen]

Why does it already feel like I lost you?

[teuphelchen]

So empty and yet so full of hurt

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He asked what’s one thing no one knows about you?

But how do I tell him about those nights when everything gets too much and there’s so much pain and I still feel like that little girl that doesn’t deserve to be loved?

[teuphelchen]

I want to trust you with my heart but I’m also preparing for the heartbreak… please don’t break it

[teuphelchen]

It’s okay to break my heart, but breaking my cat’s heart is where I draw the line.

[teuphelchen]

Gosh this shit fucking hurts.