MV KHOSA

God first. Very outspoken and in love with life. Motivator at heart, driven by inspiration, a writer in the making and a bibliophile.

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CHOICES

Every single day one is faced with the challenge making a choice.

The choices that we have to make on a daily basis can range from what shoes to wear, which outfits best suits today’s weather and what to eat.  

However on some days, the choices are not that easy, they definitely have long life consequences that you will have to deal with for the rest of your life. These choices range from what career path to take, where to study, life partners, where to live and so on. No matter what decision or choice you make, you need to realise that it is one that you have to live with for the rest of your life. In some cases, one is blessed with the opportunity to make the same choice twice. But sometimes, if not most of the time, that one decision you make, you have to stick to it.

Lately I have been at war with not only myself but even those around me. I have had to look deep within, find out what is it that I really want and am I willing to take the risk of being lonely and losing friends just so that I can do that which I know very well will bring me the most genuine kind of happiness. Sometimes one has to be selfish. For instance, how do I make someone else happy if I myself am not happy?  How do I love you, if I do not even love myself? I had to sit down and remind myself that in life, not everyone will be happy with the decisions that you make, but it is not about them, it is about you.

It is about what you have been predestined for. It is about what you have been set apart for. It is about what you have to do regardless of the obstacles and challenges that you will come across.  It is about you being shaped, molded, broken and built up again. It is about shutting your ears to the voices of fear and unleashing hope. The kind of hope where insecurities may be there, but there is a feeling deep within that overcomes those insecurities and hopes for the best. Hope is knowing that yes I may not be able to see nor touch it today but if I continue on this, tomorrow I will be where I need to be.

I have come to realise that if you are going to change your paths because    there are obstacles on the way, or people who try to dictate to you how things ought to be. You will never reach your destiny. You will find yourself roaming around the same spot in different directions and making no progress. At times, one really needs to listen to the voice within that very silent voice that says “Go on, you will make it, don’t undermine yourself”.

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Followership

Followership is never an indication of being a minor or being a person of less value, but instead it is a mark of commitment from the student or learner. 

Dr A.M Masakona 

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Love What You Do

Today many people focus on careers which will definitely guarantee them a lot of money in the end. But, for me, its all about passion, its about what keeps you going, its about drive, motivation and a sense of self fulfillment.

 When you choose a career path which is aligned with your passion, you are constantly motivated to keep going because it is easier to relate to the work. We all know the saying that says “ If you do what you love, you'll never work a day in your life” Marc Anthony. 

For me this quote simply says that when you love what you do, all that is required of you within the job will not be an impediment on you but rather a sense of fulfillment. 

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Passion drives me. Success moves me. The hand of God directs me

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The reward of passing the last level is that you get to the challenge of the next level. Sarah Jakes Roberts

In order to fully, one needs to walk into challenging situations where one can be comfortable with the unknown. Being comfortable in knowing that you may not know where you are going and how you will get there but you trust in God who is all-knowing.

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He who loves practice without theory is like the sailor who boards ship without a rudder and compass and never knows where he must cast_Leonardo da Vinci

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LOVER OF MUSIC

I LOVE MUSIC SO MUCH, AND YET SINGING WAS JUST ONE OF THOSE TALENTS THAT WERE GIVEN WHILE I WAS UNDER A ROCK!!

There is certain beauty in music, I cannot even begin describe it, it goes from the base guitar to the drums. The way all these instruments jell together in harmony is amazing. Even more when the perfect voice is added to the mix(not mine), but either way I am still a lover of music. 

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I surrender all to You. Everything I give to You. Withholding nothing.

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Dear God

Thank you for the great work which you have done in me thus far. And I am even more grateful of the fact that I know you will continue to do great things in me. 

Philippians 1:6 “...Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ”.

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Today I choose to let go!!

 I am letting go of all the things that do not impact me positively. I’m choosing to let go of all negative thoughts that may bombard my mind daily. Be it at school, at home, relationships, friends and everything that I may have an encounter with that will cause me to have any doubt. I want to let go of all the pain and disappointments that I’ve come across. The failures which I had to face which resulted in me doubting myself. I am choosing to let go of anything and everything which has made me insecure,  feel unworthy or not enough, and everything which has cause me to fear.

It is not because I wanted to hold on to these things, but we come across situations in life that make us to hold on to those things because they become “home”.  I call them home because they become familiar. Even before they happen, you already know they going to and you know exactly how they will happen. It is like walking into your bedroom and knowing exactly where you will find that towel which you left on the floor. You already have an expectation and you know that expectation will be met. But what if you can get to a point in your life where you just stop expecting the worst but expecting the best. What if you can just get to that point where you let go of all the doubt and fear and be courageous? How about you just let go? Now I’m not saying that it’s easy, because I know it takes a long time to heal from heartbreak, from constant disappointments, failures and never succeeding. These awful events leave behind some detrimental effects.

However, this is not an excuse for you to stay in that same place expecting the same things and never letting go. Letting go of all those negative thoughts, insecurities, disappointments and everything else makes room for good things to come. It does not only leave you lighter but it gives room for positive thoughts, what was once fear becomes courage. I am motivated by the scripture that says, “For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline” 2 Timothy 1:7. Isn’t it wonderful to know that God knew that there will be fear and so He did away with it and gave us power, which leads to courage and confidence, love and self-discipline? One cannot love themselves when they have so much doubt and fear, and that is why we need to be self-disciplined, which gives us the ability to restrict and allow certain things in our life.

So choose to let go, and choose everything which is best for you, even if it may not be best for the next person. Sometimes it is more about you than it is about the next person. “For the LORD will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being caught” Proverbs 3:26.

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Today i was hit by the reality of how much life is so real and that we are growing up. Whethere we want to or not,we have to accept the fact that even those closest to us will leave and venture on into greater heights. They could relocate or get get married. This is one of the saddest realities that we will ahve to come to terms with.

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Pen and Paper

Give me a pen and paper (or in this day and age, a computer)and watch me sail away into the world of the unknown, because here, there is no right or wrong. Anything goes, but only that which you allow. A world where I can create my own perfect story. Allow me to explore far beyond my own expectations. Into a world where there are no restrictions, or limitation. I’m not trying to run away from the present, bu the present has the ability to suffocate me and I find it so hard to breath. But when when i am in the presence of my pen and paper, I am able to be at a place where all that I think of, dream of and imagine comes alive. Not tangible yes, but the mind can achieve all that it thinks of.

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Dare to apply all that your heartbreak has taught you. learn to make your pain serve your purpose instead of using it as an excuse to justify your dysfunction. that will be the moment when everything has that hurt you will begin to heal you. Survival caries a lesson much stronger than regret

Sarah Jakes Roberts

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Nessa

I might say I’m very young. But I believe that God has imparted great wisdom in me that I have to share with His people. After all wisdom or knowledge is not determined by age. This does not in anyway make me perfect or holier than thou, but it sure does make me exactly what God intended for me to be. I’m the girl who talks a lot but can also be very quiet and observe, and also the girl who has a lot to say but does not say much. Quite contradictory you might say, but I’m just that special.