So, my mother scolded me for not teaching my baby brother. Doesn't she know that that is what I have been doing everyday for the past months. And what I really hate about it is my so-called intelligence ay isusumbat na naman sa akin. I have never once felt that she is proud of my achievement. Whenever I achieve something, her reaction will be like "wow, congratz *****" and that's it. She has been very cautious not to hurt my siblings' feelings at my expense. I am never at a level of being so comfortable around her. I am also not that kind of daughter who goofs around her, because maybe she just barred from being that, why? Because I'm the black sheep, I was never her pick for anything. Isinumbat din sa akin ang pagsama niya sa akin last night for Suhoor. I'm thankful for that but the truth? She was the one who told me to wake up and I even cooked rice. And then I wake up, she isn't even fasting. I never said anything nor did I complain. I acted like nothing is wrong. This is me, I act like everything is okay when they neglect me like for college decisions, gadget privileges, etc. I always have to claw my way out just to not be a burden because that is what I feel I am. I tried to get in my school of choice. I even tried to be a scholar without being told para di nila ako sumbatan pag gumraduate na ako. I have bought books from my allowance and never have I ever remember that humingi ako ng pera because I always try to make ends meet. La Ilaha Illa Allah. Astagfirullah. I love my mom but I have to face it, I will never be her closest daughter.
