Piano, Guitar, and That Raspy Tenor

[thatraspytenor]

May 16th, 2019, 9:33

Our house is a very very very fine house

With two cats in the yard

Life used to be so hard.

Remember that blissful day?

High on an island?

We talked and talked

I talked and talked

about high school cross country and tangents

You smiled when I finished, wide eyed and smiling said,

“I love you so much.”

Is there a chance for us?

Remember the different ways I taught you how

to make a campfire?

Our attempt at cooking fish?

The bag of corn we shucked?

There was nothing else

It was you and me and the world

On that Long Island

The sun set and the sun rose

on the glimpse of what a lifetime might hold

for the sun and moon

It’s May, 206 days since I said goodbye that morning

since we confessed our love

from your mouth into mine

from my mouth into yours

I want to skip all this and get back to you already.

The connection will still be there, won’t it?

After we’ve grown and changed a bit?

I think so but even now I get insecure.

I don’t want to lose the possibility of you.

Still, I love you.

[failedimitator]

I was watching Salt Fat Acid Heat on Netflix earlier today, and in Acid, Samin goes to Mexico to make faces while eating salsa, honey, and sour oranges. Seriously, I would like to enjoy anything as much as Samin enjoys food. 

At some point during the episode, she meets an elderly woman who makes a fuck ton of tortillas – How many? About 200 a day! – and watching Samin watch the expert make tortillas took me back in time. Five years. But also still here. I was in two places at once.

There I was, in 2019, in my living room watching Samin watch someone flip tortillas, and also in 2014, in the kitchen of my old apartment watching R, my girlfriend at the time, flip phulkas.

Are phulkas just wheat tortillas? Are tortillas maize phulkas?

Either way, right now in 2019, I’m thinking of flipping some phulkas myself. 

[failedimitator]

Earlier today, I saw someone post a quote on instagram in German. At the bottom of the post, right after the closing quotation make, it says the author is Stephen Hawking. 

My first instinct was – No. Stephen Hawking never said that. At least not exactly. He was English. Stephen Hawking spoke English!

But then it occurred to me that whenever we quote Plato or Jesus or Lao Tzu, we are essentially calling on a translation, and it’ll probably be just as weird for someone who only speaks 

[failedimitator]

My very first memory is of getting lost. I was three or four years old, and my family was on holiday in Lagos. I was probably three, because my brother hadn’t been born yet. In the memory, I was in the hotel hallway unable to find my way back to our room. It felt like forever, looking though corners, unable to find my mom.

Recently, I asked my mom if she remembers that incident. If she remembers me getting lost in the hotel hallway that first trip to Lagos.

“No,” she said. “But it’s also possible that you only thought you were lost, but you’d just turned a corner and we all knew where you were.”

[maywemeetagainprincess]

[sss-drake]

Id like to show you all something.

Yes indeed no nudity but you can find all the discriminatory and hate speech you want!

But wait, the icing on the cake…

…really? Do i need even say anything.

[taboolicious-deactivated2018121]

since this place is going down the shitter, why not reblog this?

[morganagod]

Here’s an extra layer of gross 

 I may be wearing a tin foil hat, but I think they purposely want to do stuff like pit BLM against White Supremacists. They see it as an opportunity to make money. 

[oldmanyellsatcloud]

Here’s a link to the Vox article quoted above in question.

‘Hate and Strife Are Key Target Demographics’, basically.

[thehumancopier]

this whole thing, read it

[suicunesrider]

not gonna lie that still looks intimately real

[drtanner-dickery]

I’m still somewhat convinced that someone sold their soul to create the special effects in Jurassic Park because that shit is over 20 years old and it still really, really holds up, better than the stuff in a lot of current movies, even.

Fucking witchcraft, man. 

[fanboyingoverdemigods]

fucking look at this shit though

[mauridianhallow]

Literally see this post flying around with a few different responses added to the bottom each time so I’ll say it for this one myself:

THEY ACTUALLY BUILT A GIANT MASSIVELY DETAILED FUCKING ANIMATRONIC T-REX FOR ALL OF THIS THAT’S WHY THE EFFECTS ARE SO GOOD. CAUSE IT AIN’T CGI. AND IT AIN’T GUY IN A COSTUME. IT’S A BIG FUCKING ROBOT DINOSAUR. AND EVERY PART IS DESIGNED TO MOVE. IT COST LIKE HALF THE BUDGET OF THE FILM.

[mizushimo]

amazing

[shadowthorne]

And they had the film it in small increments, especially in the outdoor scenes, because the rain fall kept soaking into the ‘skin’ of the rex and would slow down and mess up its movements. So they would stop filming and have a crew out there drying off this massive, fake dinosaur, and then they’d start filming again until it was too wet. Repeat until the end of the scene.

[mad-dyspunktional]

They used animatronics and detailed costumes for most if not all of the dinosaurs in the first movie.

The triceratops for instance, was also animatronic.

And the raptors were dudes in suits. I shit you not.

[datneeks]

One of my favorite anecdotes I’ve read on tumblr is how the t-rex robot from Jurassic park would malfunction while it was drying out. How did it malfunction, you might wonder?

Motherfucker randomly started moving.

So apparently if you were on the jp set you would sometimes hear people screaming bloody murder even though they were all well aware that it was a giant animatronic puppet and wouldn’t actually, you know, eat them.

[muck-raker-deactivated20181222]

(link to said post about malfunctioning t-rex)

[alessariel]

Did not know this, had to reblog for awesome movie history insights.

[brainsforbabyjesus]

So, I knew about the animatronics bit but I did not know the raptors were guys in suits and the malfunctioning t-rex sounds terrifying.

And i just googled malfunctioning t-rex and was not disappointed. Apparently in order to put the skin on over the steel frame a guy had to crawl inside the t-rex while it was turned on and glue the skin down. And if somebody turned the t-rex off or the power went out the guy in the t-rex stood a very real chance of getting mangled and killed by the hydraulics.

So of course, the power goes out.

And this guy is still in there gluing the skin down.

Apparently the way to survive getting sheered to death by huge sheets of metal while you’re inside a giant t-rex robot is to curl into a ball and hope for the best.

And this guy hoped for the best and got it.

Some other people on stage pried open the t-rex jaws and glue guy crawled out of its mouth and was totally okay.

[alessariel]

This is getting better and better.

[red-dirt-roads-deactivated20161]

I think they only had like 6 minutes of CGI

[teslasturtle-deactivated2023011]

I’m just waiting for the T-Rex to come to life and leave its stand.

[perspectivemax-deactivated20181]

@spinosaurus-the-fisher is this the kind of content you love?

[myloverhammurabi]

Realism comes at a cost, it seems.

[gorsime]

i mean ok but why has nobody posted this:

[myloverhammurabi]

It’s a three piece raptor suit.

[flamingbluepanda]

Old movies had the best special effects

[poucamentalidade-deactivated201]

You make me wanna watch Jurassic Park again. xD

[mostlygoesastray]

My parents knew a guy who worked at ILM when they made this, the cgi he worked on was some/most of the tree limbs from the scene where the jeep is falling down the tree. They hadn’t figured out how to animate skin yet.

[thatraspytenor]

I sat in the tub

deep

chest met knees

Arms wrapped 'round

hands cupped knees

water pelted my head

my back

my odd, childish shape

I kissed my shoulder

slowly, tenderly, trembling

I kissed my arms

I kissed my hands

the intersection of my pointer and thumb

10 times

20 times

each kiss begging my body to forgive my mind

[thatraspytenor]

of Boys & Men

(tw: rape, assault, abuse, manipulation)

This is about accountability.

Accountability for actions

of the masculine

the testosterone

penal controlled drones

that show up in your life

in the form of a "man".

This is about accountability

for the actions we take

and the actions we don't

The words we say

and the words we don't

the simple simple

but profound word

"no"

I heard it last week in bed

because I asked a question while running my fingertips along her forehead

She said no.

So hold up.

A big, burly, abdominal "YO"

to those testosterone

penal controlled drones,

When was the last time you remember a partner telling you "no"?

Did you hear them?

Did you listen?

For me, that was trust.

That was her being comfortable enough

her not being scared to fit those two letters together

because, as we talked about later,

she felt safe.

That means the world to me.

Not jumping in front of a train to save,

not walking behind her and holding her hand because someone sketchy is walking too close at 3am

Safe from me

&

Safe with me

We can't MAKE anyone feel safe.

A department of professors and peers taught me that.

we can only create the space.

We can give the choices in the space

- the question poised gently and without fear of upsetting

that can allow for "no".

And unfortunately,

so many are already afflicted

because they've had that desecrated

their comfort was truncated

and in its place

some boy masturbated

because to make love is not

to provide one party with elation.

and how many testosterone penal drone

boys does each one of my friends know?!

How many unwarranted advances have been made?

Because empathy is pain in the refrain of her voice when she tells me the last "man" she was with was abusive.

I suggest,

"fuck boi"

A man is not that.

There are men in their 40s who aren't that.

They're fucking boys

and their dicks are fucking toys

and they don't fucking understand

that their climax

is not the end-all planned

that their desires

are not required.

That sex

Sex is not it

Sex is not it

Sex is not it

Sex is not it

and if you're throwing a fit

then you're not fit for it

and please make a list of things you want to do

with someone you like

wholesome

Like learn a poem to recite to them,

Make dinner for the two of you,

Go hiking, on an adventure, somewhere neither of you have ever been, somewhere you have been, a favorite place, tell them what you appreciate about them, support them, kiss in the rain, make a list of movies to watch, save the questions you're waiting to ask in person because you don't want to be overbearing and because you want to see how their face changes with each word, "Why did you say you were surrounded by rocks growing up?"

To every single

Testosterone

Penal controlled drone,

Fucking grow up.

Learn some respect or

be a boy for the rest of your life

& forfeit the opportunity

to share or make love.

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