pieces of my heart

Hi stranger, I'm a disaster

[the-heroine]

I am getting tired.

[the-heroine]

This is more like a cry for help

I shouldn't feel things too deeply but I just can't help it

I constantly worry about lots of things

I either feel too much or nothing at all

These past few weeks I thought I'm doing just fine but it turns out I'm just simply doing things just to forget how I actually feel

And now I can't cope up with my self

I can't understand myself anymore

I feel empty but there's something deep down here, it is getting heavier and burdensome

[the-heroine]

Sometimes, I just want to run away from everything

[the-heroine]

z e r o o ' c l o c k

Once again, I'm all alone and all I can hear is the faint sound of the fan in the room where I usually stay.

Moments like this makes me realize tons of things that has been kept and still running in my mind. I keep saying I'm fine, at least that's how I assure myself, but this time - I feel empty, again. It really gets tiring pretending everyday. I know deep inside I'm unhappy, I'm still a piece of shit, a worthless piece of shit. I keep telling myself to overcome this feeling, but the more I want to be better, the more emptiness I feel. How will I ever get over this? I'm getting tired. I'm sick of this.

[the-heroine]

I will do everything I can. Remember this day

[the-heroine]

Malalim na ang gabi

Mag isa na naman ako

Madaming tanong sa aking isipan

Di ko mahanap ang kasagutan

[the-heroine]

I'm sorry

[the-heroine]

He's my fortress

[the-heroine]

I'm so inlove with a man I'll never meet and that makes me so sad😔

[stephenstilwell-deactivated2021]

“friends until the end? that’s what I thought, at least.”

— s.s. (stephenstilwell)

[the-heroine]

I'm so sick of my life. This lockdown's taking its toll on my mental health💀

[the-heroine]

Staring at the moon at 1 am.

[the-heroine]

'I want to go far away' has been on my mind lately.

[the-heroine]

Indeed it was very hard to lose your trust to someone whom you really trusted your everything. Well fuck it

[thezeroquotes]

I don't feel particularly proud of myself. But when I walk alone in the woods or lie in the meadows, all is well.

— Franz Kafka, Letters to Friends, Family, and Editors

[the-heroine]

where should I go? Funny thing because I'm scared. I'm a coward and a liar. I'm a fucking joke

[the-heroine]

I'm afraid that one day, I'll have no choice but to run away from everyone and everything.

It has been a fucking terrible year to start with.