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clowder (noun) - a group of cats

[the-mind-clowder]

Hiii! This is another one one of those plural comic diaries you've probably seen around~

We've only recently accepted some things about ourself and we need an outlet. We're not experts by any means. This is not the place for syscourse.

If you recognize us as one of your friends' characters, no you don't, please keep moving.

[the-mind-clowder]

I drew an updated version of us (Lime split I think? Idk, welcome Sunny 💛)

Blue is welcome to add his own hearts, he's just shy 😔

[infernothechaosgod]

despite everything...who are you?

[the-mind-clowder]

[the-mind-clowder]

Reading The Story Of My Life: "Wow, I sure am glad nothing bad has ever happened to me"

...

"Hey why's this chapter titled Trauma?"

[the-mind-clowder]

I was unsatisfied with my original sona that Red drew for me. I think it was created before I had fully solidified, and much of it was based on Red's personal tastes. Luckily I have a better idea of what I like nowadays.

Presenting... Lime:

I've been relating to robots recently.

Also, despite my name, I don't think I care for bright colors very much. I just thought that was funny.

[the-mind-clowder]

There are two wolves inside you. One wants to scream until everyone knows how bad it was hurt, and the other has to believe it wasn't actually that bad.

[the-mind-clowder]

How are you meant to go from seeing yourself as one person to suddenly seeing "yourself" as 3+

If they take all the good parts, what am I left with? Do "I" even exist anymore or was I just the front they operated under before they revealed themself?

What happens now that they don't need that anymore? If they all serve a role then what am I here for?

[the-mind-clowder]

They psychoanalyze me because I'm so cool and sexy, but now they keep bringing up The Acronyms

[the-mind-clowder]

Everyone wants me (diagnosed)

[the-mind-clowder]

They psychoanalyze me because I'm so cool and sexy, but now they keep bringing up The Acronyms

[obscure-entity]

it sucks

[the-mind-clowder]

Y'know?

[the-mind-clowder]

I added the judgers

[the-mind-clowder]

Y'know?

[the-mind-clowder]

Weird question but if I'm giving a canon character alters who isn't canonically plural, do I tag that as OCs? Because yes in a way I'm adding characters but I feel like a more accurate way to say it is I'm just compartmentalizing canon

[the-mind-clowder]

Low-key it's kinda tiring to live in the same head as someone who overanalyzes our every move to hell and back

Like I don't actually care about the deeper reasons I'm getting a crush on this person or why we talk about any given topic

And then we've got another one freaking out over all the stuff they don't know, like

"Aaaaa there's other people thinking in my head and idk why aaaaa somethings wrong with me" or "aaaaa I'm faking it and all my friends know and probably hate me for it aaaaa"

Like it's too much thinking. Join me, no thinking, thinking sucks

[the-mind-clowder]

Red and I feel inextricably linked in a way that we just don't feel with Blue or The Other. I suppose I'm Red's caretaker in a way, so it makes sense, but if one of us is fronting, the other is very likely nearby.

Blue is more solitary. I worry he gets lonely sometimes. I can't imagine not having my constant internal back and forth with Red.

[the-mind-clowder]

For someone so stuck in his own head he sure doesn't like to talk to us >:( He's so boring, like, what's the fucking point of being here if he's not saying anything 🙄

[the-mind-clowder]

Red and I feel inextricably linked in a way that we just don't feel with Blue or The Other. I suppose I'm Red's caretaker in a way, so it makes sense, but if one of us is fronting, the other is very likely nearby.

Blue is more solitary. I worry he gets lonely sometimes. I can't imagine not having my constant internal back and forth with Red.