no biting, no scratching, no fun

entity (en for short) | 20 | it/its | lizard

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new intro post yay

thought id feel better having a refresh with the way i introduce myself (my old post feels hard to read for some reason). prone to changes/rephrasing obviously.

toyhouse ✿ bsky ✿ twt ✿ youtube ✿ artfight

hi, im entity, but i like being called en for short too. 20 yrs old. genderfluid aroace + nb girl. nonhuman gecko thing. disabled, do not fuck around please

i primarily go by it/its but people ive spoken to can call me any pronouns. if you need a default just say she/her i guess.

my alt is @worldssmallestlizard for doodles, photography, rambly bullshit, etc.

i am an artist for nobody except myself (unless youre paying me) having an audience is secondary. ive been treating social media like the void that i can just throw shit into sorry. sometimes it answers!!! when im not just designing characters my art usually pertains to my own mental state + tools of self-soothing

i am a sai2 user but still attached to mspaint whenever i need it. i enjoy traditional mediums like colored pencils and watercolors on rare occasions. i dont take commissions

interests pertain to the colors green and pink, plants+floral patterns, hyenas, basically any wildlife, object heads, the inanimate + sentient spaces/concepts, themes of escapism or abandoned existence(bonus if its a little distorted/unsettling). im not too open about more specific interests but you can try asking

im still trying to work on "bringing myself back to reality" and its going to be a long time lol. i read a lot from others but rarely interact with people outside of my circles and i sometimes forget to respond to things. this is especially true for my inbox. i enjoy receiving messages but im very unlikely to respond (keep in mind i Want to but a majority of the time for some reason i just cant)

my (art) style, general enthusiasm, beliefs, gender, way i present, interact with people, view the world, identify, etc. has never been fully consistent and you can read more about that here (<-i did not proofread so if this still doesnt make sense youre out of luck sorryy). if you think im acting "unusual" i probably am and hope you understand that fluidity lol. being expected to stick to a singular sense of self burns me out and its taken me a while to realize that

me by the way:

also my best friend snaps:

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my girl named stray

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rex designs

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i made this piece last month but i didnt feel great posting it without toning it down even though that kind of defeats the point. the original had text

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several months later and i had the urge to share the original. not doing it was making me feel a little ill

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sincerely woke up and wanted to see how itd look if i tried more actual painting methods in msp

speedpaint ; be warned part of it got lost but i still thought it was worth uploading

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What are enitiy's and and snaps voice claims?

ive been picky with snaps's pre-existing voice for so many years but the closest ive ever heard someone on this planet sound to snaps has been bulldog eyes i think

entity would just sound like myself but i dont really know how to share that at the moment? but ive also considered a handful of different voices because of general like. voice envy. and im gonna be shy about it

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i wanna draw snaps covered in blood again ill be back shortly

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ive probably talked a few times about how snaps may be a tiny bit dangerous *only if someone fucks around

one of my friends once put it really well that hes kind of like a polar bear in the regard that looking super soft/sweet kind of makes you forget that he could easily just tear into a guy

the aftermath probably looks a lot more dramatic than what actually happened (realistically there is probably someone breaking this up every time it happens) he gets to have the flaw of being vindictive as a treat :)

i guess this also speaks to how ive been projecting traits of my older self on to him (despite how much i resent the idea of viewing myself as him im coming to accept that he is still part of me as much as hes just some guy i know. i guess) but i think ive written enough

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i never bothered to find out what it girl means because i literally already use it/its dont even correct me

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weighted

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i wanna draw snaps covered in blood again ill be back shortly

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ive probably talked a few times about how snaps may be a tiny bit dangerous *only if someone fucks around

one of my friends once put it really well that hes kind of like a polar bear in the regard that looking super soft/sweet kind of makes you forget that he could easily just tear into a guy

the aftermath probably looks a lot more dramatic than what actually happened (realistically there is probably someone breaking this up every time it happens) he gets to have the flaw of being vindictive as a treat :)

i guess this also speaks to how ive been projecting traits of my older self on to him (despite how much i resent the idea of viewing myself as him im coming to accept that he is still part of me as much as hes just some guy i know. i guess) but i think ive written enough

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taking up space

speedpaint

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seen

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my cube

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i dont think i posted this doodle for some reason

speedpaint lol

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today

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thinking about this piece again because iiits almost about to have been two years since i posted this somehow. wtf did i mean by two years. like was i expecting to have woken up and gotten out of the daze by that point or what. (;nvm i didnt even read the second half of my own post. awesome)

its probably reflection time again because i remember being directly told its probably for the best that i stop trying to think about "how to make it." plus everything ive read and felt about why its probably not a good idea to try working when ur decompressing after burnout as well as trying to parse through ur mental state. but like. i dont think i internalized any of that bc all i can think about is how it feels like complete leech/loser behavior to just sit on my ass every day and zone out and do nothing and contribute nothing (*asterisk for exaggeration probably but thats just what it feels like)

i guess its just for good measure that i actually talk about it. since there is no way in hell that i am alone in this im open to hearing how others have dealt with that mindset. even if its short id love to read it later