Vent

Very sad

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This is a vent blog. Please do not report, just block.

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At this point I think I'm just cycling through different types of depressive music

Sad quiet music

Reassuring music

Loud electronic music

Big emotion music

And numb/mellow music

(not in order)

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I feel so alone... I wish I had someone to talk to. A voice to listen to. A hand to hold.

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Imagine having depression

Couldn't be me

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Maybe I'm overreacting but idk, I'm crying now

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I feel like I did something wrong

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I think I have some internal transphobia and idk why

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Why can none of my relationships last..? I think it's my fault but I don't know what I'm doing wrong...

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He fucking broke up with me after ghosting me for 5 FUCKING DAYS!

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I'm so fucking done.

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I'm so fucking stupid. Why the hell would anyone actually want me? I'm not good enough. I talk too much, I annoy people, why do I get comfortable with people? That should never happen.

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I'm gonna jump off a bridge

just cuz

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✨✨✨I'm spiraling✨✨✨

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I think people forget that 83% of the time I barely/don't have the will to live so when they get pissed off because they think you were talking bad about the color of towels- I DON'T FUCKING CARE.

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I should stop talking to people. I'm just ruining relationships with people that already aren't on good terms. Maybe I should just... stop making friends. I know they won't last. Nothing lasts.

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I hate every member of my fucking family. I'm so fed up with all of them. Maybe I should just get lost in Europe and hope someone takes me in without calling the police.

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I don't think he loves me anymore...

Why won't he talk to me..?