This might hit different if you've actually been ghosted irl... nonetheless enjoy!
Song ; ghosting
Artist ; tomorrow x together
Original lyrics are blue and italicized
You disappeared like a ghost. In a single instant you disappeared like a ghost. Leaving me to wander around in a room where only echoes linger. One little lonely ghost like a wisp of mist or smoke roaming the empty rooms.
Why can’t we go back in time. Why can’t you come back and pretend you never disappeared. Stop time, reverse it and you never have to leave like a little ghost and I never have to remain behind like a little ghost.
That little white screen filled with text messages, now it’s empty with five short sentences. Three from me and two from you. That’s all we had become. ‘Something is up today’ ‘That little number one is still there?’ Perhaps you were too busy that day. But now there’s nothing, no texts anymore, our message history is dry.
Remember tiki taka? it was our thing.
What happened to that promise? Where is it now? Did you eat it so you would remember it? But you still forgot.
We called you pizza monster because pizza slices disappeared in two bites when they were in your hands. We called you crazy, in the best way, because you made us laugh. But now all I hear is your ghostly giggles. Remember when we walked through our world countless times, it grew wider every time, we flew through those purple skies, we swam in that chocolate river, we chased the dragons and fed the unicorns. All day all day all day...
Did you already forget that world? Or are they too far in your past? It hasn’t even been long since you left yet it feels like forever here and there,, is that why you already forgot?
People are weird now. Remember how you said I would be alright even if you left? Well I’m not as fine as you said I would be. Others are leaving, they’ve left already, or they’ve forgotten me. It’s all faded, I thought it got brighter but my world kept fading little by little. Each cold desk you left behind, a ghost sits there staring at me blankly.
I see you once in a while, but it’s not you. It’s someone else with your face and somehow it’s worse. I would be better off if I didn’t see you at all. How did you change so much? What happened? I’m not blaming you, I blame myself instead, things changed as we slipped away. How come something as trivial as distance and time split us so easily? Was this all it was to you?
Sometimes I feel you always wanted to leave.
If you really wanted to leave why did you leave your stupid little ghost behind. My world is frozen now because of it.
People tell me it’s not as bad as it seems. The distance and time will be closed once we meet in the future.
But will it really? What if you’re even more changed? We have nothing to talk about. What if we don’t laugh together again? Or do you not laugh at those kinds of jokes like you used to?
Looking at your new post blankly, #The_sky_is_so_beautiful_today. Looks like you’ve become a person who wouldn’t laugh at our old jokes.
I used to know you inside out, or maybe that was an illusion, maybe I really didn’t know you because I can’t figure you out now. Is it because you changed? Or is it because I changed? I’m confused every time I try to go back to you. Am I just exaggerating everything and overthinking this whole thing or did I really lose you?
I’m left alone to ask the empty air ‘what am I to you?’
I can’t believe it but I know you’ve already logged out of my world. Little traces you left behind and I want to find what went wrong. Looking through, looking for signs in our conversations, looking so hard I’m sucked into the 250 pixels spelling ‘Hey’. I don’t know yet. Maybe I was begging for some magic to happen, maybe I’m an idiot hoping there would be some kind of answer, or explanation.
Actually I know that no answer is the answer itself. Still I can’t get used to it because you were very special to me, and we had so many memories together.
I don’t look at pictures of us anymore, they remind me of the days that are too fresh in my mind, where we are together and happy, under the sun without a care in the world. I don’t look at pictures of us anymore, but when I do all I wish is for us to go back.
And just like us in the picture, we have to go back again…
Because I’m still there, I’m still there, and I’m still here, I’m still here waiting for you in the hopes that maybe you might come back one day, the radiant you whom I made the happiest memories with.
