The Babbling Brooke Blog

Finally after months and months of pent up “white guilt” and not being “woke” and seeing the segregation that women and other minority’s fault to rid of just to turn around and demand that it go back that way then judge those that don’t believe just like you do... if no body else is going to say something, I will. I’m not afraid to “offend” and so so sorry if I do, but it’s called freedom of speech and belief... which is exactly why you get to spew the most ridiculous and honestly, so stupid it’s funny, beliefs an ideas of how EVERYONE should be or they’re WRONG! Well enough of this.. I’ve got a voice and as little and points less it may be, I will voice it and how upside down the world and “humans” that live in it have lost their damn minds!

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I created a GoFundMe account to see if the average white young woman, myself, could find as many or really anyone to give to a dream that I was never financially allowed, a college education. A degree would help me build my “personal stock” and find a job despite my physical limitations. Mostly, I could live the AMERICAN DREAM I’ve paid a lot of tax money to help those less fortunate, not that I was, or minorities, and now even illegal immigrants that can make it to our country… Illegally, and we give them and their family a scholarship to life. For… what? Not that they deserve the equal opportunity, but so the hell do I! And the equal opportunity and freedoms of Americans doesn’t start until you become an AMERICAN CITIZEN. It’s not difficult, esp for a potential college select student. Instead of making your university look good and not discriminating against minorities, I HAVE BEEN DISCRIMINATED AGAINST my whole life by being the average white girl now white woman suddenly jobless, suffering from a severe case of scoliosis that doesn’t allow me to do the qualifications my previous career and job required. Searching for jobs everyday morning till night, I decided to take advantage of every opportunity out there to better myself and my dream of a future.

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Wow... this couldn’t be more appropriate to describe my life in this very moment and tomorrow, and the next day... but change is scary and hard and full of uncertainty. But CHANGE is what makes me grow as a human to be a better person and eventually find my footing and my call to life. It’s happening whether you want it to or not... might as well embrace it and hold on for the ride. From experience, it’s going to be a bumpy one. The one thing I know that will never change, is my rock, my love, my person. Without him, I wouldn’t want to change for the better or grow as a person... I would just simply be. BORING!... and I’ve taken that path, did not find my footing. He clears the path for me to be me and the best me I can be. #blessed

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My most recent X-ray, taken January of 2018, I have a pretty noticeable curvature of the spine @ a 68 degree curve and 25 degree at my bottom of my spine. So… this is the most recent struggle come my way as to what the hell to do about this shit! For now, I’m just trying to take care of myself body mind and soul AND others… even though most don’t deserve it!

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My most recent X-ray, taken January of 2018, I have a pretty noticeable curvature of the spine @ a 68 degree curve and 25 degree at my bottom of my spine. So... this is the most recent struggle come my way as to what the hell to do about this shit! For now, I’m just trying to take care of myself body mind and soul AND others... even though most don’t deserve it!

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I found this poetically written words “on scrap” from many many moons ago!… And I’ve never thought myself to be a liracist, so sometimes my words on paper surprise me. Simply that I could express my inner thoughts and pain, as you see here, written creatively and with a unique “voice” that I don’t even recognize as my own. Even though this is a sad memoir, written with tears covering my face, no doubt, from @ least 8 years ago, or I’m hoping… it is still so very TOO similar to my current life “train wreck” searching for my inner quest of happiness right now, @ this very moment. So lost… and filled with uncertainty.

The difference is, I found MY PERSON! So… no matter my woes from now, and until forever, my words of expression and the face full of tears too will be shared with and then immediately followed with his warm embrace with arms stretched out, sharing all the love one person can possibly transfer with just a simple ole hug… and his true love will not be letting me go until I know, really really know he is with me by my side each and every wreck and tear I now share with my companion in life I never thought to be blessed with on this journey… called “life”. I love you DJ! You are, and unfortunate to you, will be my person that I share all my woes and good goes with. Because without you, I am not a person, empty without hope or true love. Yet with you I am filled with so much joy…simply through companionship, and pipe dreams of the future…our future… that I am, and I promise to always be determined to turn this “train wreck” around… Or @ least, lets pick up the pieces to our ride and find a new source of travel promising to be the best co-pilot on every path this life takes us. Oh… & hopefully with a fast lane to this “good life” we hear of. I love you with everything I am always and forever!

Because of inspiration from someone who writes his thoughts down, I figure this was worth a try. Looking back without my tears on paper, I find it’s easier to repeat this history…. sad, impatient, & poor minded decisions called my life. Maybe with these acts from now and recent past on paper & ink for me to look back on when the world is slipping in between my toes, I can stop the madness, the hurt, the pain, the tears after tears after tears I didn’t think my body could produce anymore. Right now, today, at this moment, I am at a loss as to how to stop this train-wreck. I’ve derailed & taken out so many beautiful trees & innocent nature in my path of destruction, there is no end to it all, this path, in sight. I said today to this friend how much all my desire was to create wonderful happy new memories for my life that can wash all these bad passages away from my body forever. He then told me that was impossible, but the & it would all turn around & my quest for love, acceptance the moment I began to be okay with the past, the moment how wonderful happy memories would flourish

[thebabblingbrooke]

I found this poetically written words “on scrap” from many many moons ago!... And I’ve never thought myself to be a liracist, so sometimes my words on paper surprise me. Simply that I could express my inner thoughts and pain, as you see here, written creatively and with a unique “voice” that I don’t even recognize as my own. Even though this is a sad memoir, written with tears covering my face, no doubt, from @ least 8 years ago, or I’m hoping... it is still so very TOO similar to my current life “train wreck” searching for my inner quest of happiness right now, @ this very moment. So lost... and filled with uncertainty.

Because of inspiration from someone who writes his thoughts down, I figure this was worth a try. Looking back without my tears on paper, I find it’s easier to repeat this history.... sad, impatient, & poor minded decisions called my life. Maybe with these acts from now and recent past on paper & ink for me to look back on when the world is slipping in between my toes, I can stop the madness, the hurt, the pain, the tears after tears after tears I didn’t think my body could produce anymore. Right now, today, at this moment, I am at a loss as to how to stop this train-wreck. I’ve derailed & taken out so many beautiful trees & innocent nature in my path of destruction, there is no end to it all, this path, in sight. I said today to this friend how much all my desire was to create wonderful happy new memories for my life that can wash all these bad passages away from my body forever. He then told me that was impossible, but the & it would all turn around & my quest for love, acceptance the moment I began to be okay with the past, the moment how wonderful happy memories would flourish

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So, I started to think after my post yesterday, that I may seem to have come at this slightly aggressive. You see... to break my babble in a nut shell, I Belive we, as a nation have gone WAY too far when it comes to SO many things and by putting your opion out there, you simply cannot tollerate anyone else who doesn’t feel the same. But... I know so many people who wont speak their truth for fear of harrassement and oline ridicule.... simply for doing what others are, you just don’t agree. I will not stay silent anymore and let these close minded views of hate with nothing to back it. I am the lest racist person you know, and probably the most open minded. But there’s a point where I fear we’ve reached that if you don’t necessarily agree with letting your child have the right to go to their pediatrician to recieve hormones to adjust their born sex to how your 4-6 year old feels.... WTF! And we are calling a pedifile a “victim” and psychologist are treating them with actual kiddy porn in hopes they don’t act on that urge and sexually assault one of our precious innocent children. And all the sudden it’s ok that we condem the speech of concervatives in our children’s educational campuses and instead are letting our educator brain wash our children in believing it’s the American way to care for illegal immigrants in lou of our own American children! THEY HAVE DREAMS TOO! So, I hope this clarifies any misonseption on what The Bambling Brooke will be babbling about.

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The Babbling Brooke is awake….

Finally after months and months of pent up aggression not undestanding where and why and how things like…. “white guilt”…. and not being “woke”…. and seeing the segregation, that women and other minority’s faught so hard to rid this country of, just to turn around and demand that we segregate each race yet again…. oh and then judge those, and condemn them publically and even go as far to ruin their lively hood with hate speech like “racist”, “bigot”, “Homophobic”, “Islamiphobic”, etc… simply because they don’t believe just like “YOU” do… Well whoever “you” may be, hiding behind a comp screen with nothing else better to do than spew more and more HATE, p pole are so, repressed to voice their beliefs for fear of public humiliation or worse. So if no one else that’s just an average ole “Jane” living in southern, USA, is going say something, well anything… I’ve had enough. I certainly will.

I’m not afraid to “offend” and so so soooooo sorry if I do, #sorrynotsorry but it’s called freedom of speech and I also can believe however I f’n want… which is exactly why you get to spew the most ridiculous and honestly so stupid it’s funny, beliefs and your personal views of how EVERYONE should be or they are all WRONG! WRONG! WRONG! Well enough of this shit! I’ve got a voice and a Tumbler and Twitter, and as small and pointless this all may be, I will voice my opinions and whatever the hell else commentary on the rediculousness I’m seeing online and how upside down this world and this sad group of “humans” that believe in such “social justice” have lost their damn minds! #babblnbrooke

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The Babbling Brooke is awake....

Finally after months and months of pent up aggression not undestanding where and why and how things like.... “white guilt”.... and not being “woke”.... and seeing the segregation, that women and other minority’s faught so hard to rid this country of, just to turn around and demand that we segregate each race yet again.... oh and then judge those, and condemn them publically and even go as far to ruin their lively hood with hate speech like “racist”, “biggot”, “Homophobic”, “Islamiphobic”, etc... simply because they don’t believe just like “YOU” do... Well whoever “you” may be, hiding behind a comp screen with nothing else better to do than spew more and more HATE, p pole are so, repressed to voice their beliefs for fear of public humiliation or worse. So if no one else that’s just an average ole “Jane” living in southern, USA, is going say something, well anything... I’ve had enough. I certainly will.

I’m not afraid to “offend” and so so soooooo sorry if I do, #sorrynotsorry but it’s called freedom of speech and I also can believe however I f’n want... which is exactly why you get to spew the most ridiculous and honestly so stupid it’s funny, beliefs and your personal views of how EVERYONE should be or they are all WRONG! WRONG! WRONG! Well enough of this shit! I’ve got a voice and a Tumbler and Twitter, and as small and pointless this all may be, I will voice my opinions and whatever the hell else commentary on the rediculousness I’m seeing online and how upside down this world and this sad group of “humans” that believe in such “social justice” have lost their damn minds! #babblnbrooke