I’m sick and tired of your bullshit and so I’m going off block for now. Block me all you like afterwards, I don’t care. I’m blocking you again afterwards anyways. You want to play the victim, hm? Want to claim you’re the one being harassed and attacked? Let’s review some situations, then.
The fandub server incident.
My mod team and I on our server trusted you enough to become a mod on there. Why? To help out YOUR server, which you said is because we “took all your members and left everything quiet” over in yours. Let’s count the amount of members we had from your server before you deleted your Discord Server. Me, my two co-owners, and my best friend. That is four people in total out of what was almost 40 at the time. You made my friend and your supposed “best friend” and I feel guilty because your server is dying out. Do you want to know the average lifespan of a fan server, Azurith? Less than a year. All servers die eventually and blaming a 17 year old and your best friend is not a way to feel better.
Our server is not a server to “spite” you, we wanted to make a fandub. A FANDUB. Do you know why? Not to kill your server, but because we are passionate in our voice acting hobby. We allowed you on the team because we believed it would repair our relationship with you and bring activity to your server. You allowed me as a mod on *your* server because we had mutual trust at that time.
So let’s skip to the time you become a mod on our server. First day in and we get the ever-present “Trey is abusive” speech. You tell one of my server members they’re untrustworthy because they like Trey and won’t listen to anyone else’s side because you think your reading comprehension is so superior to high-schoolers. I get my friend in to diffuse the situation because apparently you are unable to read the room and notice tensions were high. My mod team was getting angry, my co-owners were offline, and I needed to go take my English final.
My friend never told you to shut up specifically. She told everyone to shut the conversation down and tried to change the subject to a lighthearted one. It was great, everyone moved on and talked about different conversations, except you. You felt personally attacked by my friend shutting the conversation down with OWNER APPROVAL and ran to your “best friend” to BAN THEM. They didn’t scream at you, they didn’t harass you, they didn’t even participate in the original conversation. That is not a bannable offense, Azurith.
After I finished my finals for the day and you reveled in your superiority that everyone was on your side, I was bothered by how the situation was handled (the member got a warning that was quickly appealed because NO ONE was aware of the warning but you and my co-owner) and made the announcement in my mod chat on improvements to our mod team. I typed out a long paragraph explaining how we should handle similar situations in the future and explained how maybe you should apologize to my friend as they did to you. Oh yes, I can’t forget that you demanded a PUBLIC apology from them for something they did not do and then refused to do the same. You weren’t justified an apology and they deserved one from you.
Back to the topic: I typed out my long paragraph for everyone to view regarding mod procedures and time-sensitive warnings and you did not even read most of it. All you saw was “I believe Az should apologize to (server member) as she did her.” And threw a hissy fit. Without sending screenshots to protect the rest of my mod team, let me type out what you have said in that situation.
“I am not apologizing to (server member), I do not feel like I was out of line to be upset about how they handled it, I will apologize for not making it clear I was speaking as just Azurith and not a mod.”
-That last part is a blatant lie. Why would you run to my co-owner (who by the way was asleep at the time you bombarded them with messages), begging them to ban my server member if you were speaking as “just Azurith?”
“If you actually feel what we were discussing before Lee showed up was heated, I greatly disagree and perhaps I should leave.”
-This approach to disagreements is why so many people were frustrated at how you act. It’s an approach of “if you don’t think I’m right then I’m perhaps the bad guy here and you don’t want me around”. It’s guiltrippy.
“They showed up and shouted about what we were discussing and we’re wrong *before* you gave them permission to change subjects and honestly they should have just been told to mute chat”
-Yes, the server member said “All y’all wrong”, but can you not tell it was in a joking matter? That they were very clearly trying to change the conversation? You don’t know when I told them to change the subject, Azurith. As soon as you mentioned to one of my other members that they are untrustworthy because they like Trey I told them to step in. If you read through the conversation instead of going on your usual anti-Trey sentiment, you would have seen that I *did* tell them to mute chat.
“But saying the conversation before was heated is laughable it means no discussions where people disagree about ships and characters can take place”
-…what in the fuck did this have to do with anything? My server is one of the most calm and discussion-oriented servers I’ve ever been in and in fact because of the new rule implemented because of your actions, our discussions of characters and ships we do not like have been without incident and no one leaves with harsh feelings. I don’t understand how my mod team telling you that a conversation was heated equates to the recommend of your right to shit on Trey Clover.
“You were in it Bon, it was not tense. Or heated and 90% of the time of what *I* said was questions I was asked into straight from the game. If this is the right way you think to handle the situation then I’m sorry. But I wholly disagree. People with differing opinions should not be silenced. I’ve hit my tongue a lot when things I disagree with are mentioned”
-No you don’t. Multiple incidents on your server have proven that if someone has a headcanon you disagree with you will outright say that it is not possible. You’ll take facts straight from the game instead of acknowledging that hey, some people just want to have headcanons that aren’t canon-compliant. You were never silenced, you could have easily brought the conversation back up in a manner that was appropriate and not bashing on one singular character— which by the way MULTIPLE people in that server have as their favorite character. Do you think people did that on your server, bash Cater into oblivion? No, we respected your headcanons and analysis of your favorite and went on with our day. I was not a part of the fight, at least not during a majority of it. I left halfway in to take my final. Do you realize how stressful finals are when dealing with a 39 year old woman who just can’t seem to respect that some people like Trey?
“I know 90% of you are HS kids but this is nothing, and part of the reason people can’t discuss real topics is they get upset just cuz someone disagrees with them over a character”
This next bit is from the same chunk of messages, but I will add that I mentioned that I disagreed with you and will wait for the rest of my mod team to analyze the situation further.
“Well if that’s the case I will ask you to step down from my server. And I’ll depart now, please delete the dark mirror bits from your server”
-Absolutely wild that you brought age into this, Azurith. Especially knowing that my server members who are decades younger than you are much more mature. You were disagreeing with high-school students and claiming you were being silenced. My server members disagreed with your analysis of Trey and yet you pressed on, unable to comprehend that not everyone is going to fall for your “Trey is abusive” bullshit. You can disagree with people, no one ever said you couldn’t, but you and the server got into a too-heated debate and if things didn’t calm down we likely would have seen a larger argument take place. The fact that because we disagreed on one situation you took it upon yourself to leave the server and remove moderation privileges from me on yours seems entirely childish. Your apology afterwards, explaining you were “uncomfortable” with me being a mod if we were to disagree on a situation like that is ridiculous. We tried helping you grow your server and what you did on your first day as a MODERATOR in a server you claimed was “making yours inactive” is inappropriate and childish.
I am a type of person that is willing to change my mind in order to seek a middle ground but you refused to listen. Your apology was forgiven by me at the time because I believed we could potentially repair relations, but looking back at it now it’s ridiculous how you interacted with my server.
Now let’s look at another incident, hm?
Let’s look at the incident that started your server’s downfall:
The HickoryDaisy incident
I will never excuse Hickorys actions, especially pertaining to how she treated me, but this rant is not about me or my experience with Hickory. It’s about *you* and how you made your server into one full of fear.
Let me copy and paste my essay summarizing the incident I so generously shared with Child-O-Hades:
“HickoryDaisy was a member of a discord server I am in. They were one of the first people to join the server and clicked with everyone immediately. However, as the server got more active they grew more and more toxic. The server owner invited a new person onto the server one day and them and the owner became quick friends. Hickory did not like that the server owner turned their attention towards their friends and became resentful over this new person. Eventually hickory became a mod and began abusing this power how they saw fit, threatening to kick members over discord statuses and mentioning often that they could mute anyone on the server if they so pleased.
I was their beta. I read all of their Fics from August 2022 to March 2023, in it they sent me Fics dealing with sexual cannibalism, forced cannibalism, and content that should not have been sent to a minor to review. In hindsight, I should have told them my boundaries but they shouldn’t be sending sexual stories to someone they knew was a minor.
Eventually all of hickory’s comments on the server became about them either complaining about something or sharing every 100 words of their Ensemble Stars x Skullgirls x Twisted Wonderland crossover wherever chat seemed to be active. It grew to the point where they would interrupt whole conversations to share their snippets and get mad when people (especially the server owner) did not comment on every single one. The owner confronted them one day and told them that they wouldn’t comment on the crossovers because 1) they sent it while they were excitedly talking about their novel with their friend and 2) they yelled at the owner in DMs about not giving them attention on their snippets.
Hickory snapped and made their own discord and invited all of their “friends” to join that server. They invited everyone except for the server owner. They went dead silent on the owner’s server, refusing to speak to them there. The owner was concerned and reached out to them, to which they lied and said they were merely busy with their grad school homework. In hickory’s own server they sent crossover snippets and complained about the server owner. They involved many of the minors of the server into their beef with the server owner, trying to force us to take their side and victimizing themself and making the server owner seem like the bad guy. Eventually all of us left their server and stayed on the original server with the exception of Hickory, who got banned.
The banning of HickoryDaisy from the server left everyone quiet and tensions rise until we finally decided to talk things out. Word has gotten out that Hickory threatened members with bans and kicks without the owner’s consent. They’ve belittled the server owner’s friend, saying that they were not a good writer and they would never write well. They’ve made almost every active server member uncomfortable and even made some members (including myself) avoid the server at any time that they were active. They’ve brought negativity and hate into the server and permanently changed almost every member that associated themself with them.
I, the server owner, and many more have experienced panic attacks, nightmares, and horrible memories due to the actions of HickoryDaisy and while I would have said they were my friend a mere few months ago, I will no longer associate with them or their works ever again. “
After this incident you complained and turned everyone against Hickory just as we’re apparently doing to you now. Do you know why we never heard from Hickory again after you banned for for wanting to start a new server? Because they moved on and rebranded their name from the horrible experiences that they had on your server. After you banned Hickory, everyone was afraid to speak in your server. Not entirely because of what Hickory did, but how you handled the people they invited into their server.
If I recall correctly, you yelled at us under a disguise account after not being invited to the server, telling us all to “get the fuck off my server”. Nevermind you were yelling at children and your own best friend who didn’t know any better, you just can’t handle when someone makes a server other than yours. We all left Hickory because we were scared of what would happen. You didn’t kick us but I know everyone involved would tell you that how you interacted terrified us. Multiple people I talked to involved in this incident had panic attacks and are literal CHILDREN. You told us the entire situation which I wrote in my essay, and gave us a new perspective on Hickory as a whole but it still does not excuse flying into a fit of rage and yelling at people less than half your age. You *especially* know how hard of a home life some of these children have and being yelled at by an adult they trusted is traumatizing and it HURTS.
I know you apologized later on, stating you were never mad at us, but do you know how traumatizing it is to have someone you look up to fly into a fit of rage? That week was one of the worst and most stressful weeks of my life, and having you come in and cuss and scream at us did not help.
Now I can address more accounts from situations I was not/not entirely involved in.
Running People out of your Server.
You have a habit of running people out of your server, I hope you realize that. One of the people you drove out had a disagreement with you an Hickory. Over what? Trey *fucking* Clover, as per usual. This person you drove out was trying to explain their side of their disagreement, and yet you and Hickory ganged up on them. They told me that you always disagreed with them and you would never let them voice their opinion— your personal thoughts are the only ones inherently correct in that server according to you.
Speaking of incidents regarding opinions, let’s jump over to two specific ones— an experience I’m directly involved in and another experience where you destroyed a person’s passion of a comfort AU they have.
I’ll start with comfort AU: Do you remember (server member)’s Pokémon au? Yeah, that one. They were so proud of that and curated that AU to make it strictly *theirs*. You have a tendency to take control over other people’s AUs, you know that, right? They were so excited, super happy to show the server each character’s Pokémon teams! What do you do? Dismantle their carefully curated Pokémon teams and explain to them how *you* would do it. They didn’t want help, they were simply talking about a shiny new AU that they loved. I am in contact with this server member, and what you did during that conversation made them lose all passion for the project until they were able to get away from you.
Now for my own experience: I never shared my headcanons on your server except for one: my Nordic Heartslabyul headcanon. I was sharing it with the person who made me fall absolutely in love with the idea, and do you remember what you said right afterwards?
“I’m sorry but I can’t see Riddle or the other boys in Heartslabyul as being anything but British. Cater is *Irish*.”
This was not your conversation, and the person and I have a deep connection with the headcanon which you implied was “wrong”. I am not putting words in your mouth but from both of our perspectives your participation in the conversation made us feel stupid and like we shouldn’t headcanon them as such. Fun fact about headcanons: they don’t have to be canon compliant ! You should know that very well with your half-fae Cater headcanon and your ideas of how Caters mother is.
You then proceeded to try to switch our headcanon to make it more “(your) canon compliant”, telling us that Diasomnia should be Nordic instead of Heartslabyul. You do this a lot with peoples headcanons, you know. You disagree with it and then try to change our minds by backing up evidence from canon sources instead of letting us be. I get it’s your server, but you don’t need to be a part of every conversation— which is exactly what you complained about with Hickory’s attitude.
Now I can get to explaining Child-O-Hades’ claims in her Document!!!
I explained the Hickory Incident, my headcanon experience, and the Pokémon AU already.
Next point on Child-O-Hades’ document explains you being rude about other people’s opinions and about peoples headcanons gaining traction on Tumblr. Now I do not know which post you were referring to with your message “Someone’s weird ass headcanons I saw had like 500 notes the other day and I’m like… why”, but I’d like to ask you a question:
If your headcanons are to be respected, what gives you the right to call a random person’s headcanons “weird ass”?
I’d also like for you to think about another thing: What if that person was in your server and heard their (likely) favorite Twisted Wonderland author call their headcanons weird? Splash damage is real.
Hades’ next point brings up your transphobic statements. Yes, headcanons don’t necessarily have to be liked by all but in multiple incidents on the server you have repeatedly shot down people’s gender headcanons for their favorite characters. Most notable, trans Cater and she/her Vil. People enjoy projecting themselves on their favorite character—you do too, it’s a comfort mechanism. The fact that you were so openly disgusted at the idea of either of those two being headcanoned as such openly harms those in your server and everyone else who take great comfort in those specific headcanons. I cannot forget when you so rudely shot down Hickory’s gender-fluid Tweels headcanon— complaining and calling their headcanon “weird” just because of their justification for it. I don’t personally enjoy their justification either but you were outright bashing them and they weren’t even there to defend themself. Of course, I’m unable to directly quote you in this part because you deleted your server, but you had been incredibly rude about everything Hickory had done on your server. I have too, but I at least acknowledge that I have been extremely rude unlike how you are in this entire fight.
Next point on Hades’ doc: Your homophobic remarks towards sexuality headcanons.
A server member in this conversation mentioned their headcanon of “In my brain, every TWST character is Aro or Ace or AroAce in some way :p”, to which you tried yet refuting another headcanon, explaining that it weakens the diversity of the sexuality headcanon if everyone was Aro/Ace. This person you argued with has every right to include ace representation in their headcanons, especially since there is very little to begin with. It won’t do as much as say, an OC but these types of headcanons bring comfort to those whose sexualities aren’t seen on mainstream. You also proceed to explain *why* specific characters would never be AroAce, such as Cater and Vil. Again, I respect that you do not see them as such but you are outright denying someone’s headcanons to fit your own. You end your part of the conversation with “ultimately it’s up to you how you write them tho”. You explain so much to explain why this server member shouldn’t headcanon everyone as a part of the Ace spectrum and then proceed to completely undermine everything to make yourself sound better after destroying a teenager’s headcanon.
Now I am not one to say anything about your Fics because like everyone on your server, I enjoyed your fics. However, there is no denying you use dark themes in your Fics. I cant say anything about that either— I’ve written dark themes and regrettably problematic ships. What really stands out though is your screenshot regarding an idea you had with Cater being trans. You specifically state that you have toyed with the idea of Cater being trans in a way where his sisters forcibly feminize him to “fix him”. Yes, this is a real situation that unfortunately happens, but the way you were going to write Cater makes it sound like the only reason for his transness was to give him more trauma. This would not be appropriate representation of trans people if the only reason you were going to give that identity to him was to add on to more of his horrible homelife. Another screenshot talked about in Hades’ doc refers to you having Riddle’s mom become Cater’s doctor because his mother would never report her for child abuse. Again, an unfortunate thing that happens in our real world. However, you’re claiming everyone else’s headcanons to not be canon compliant but you forgot that Riddle’s mom lives in a… completely different country. In fact, she lives on an island. Riddle’s *father* is the one that is a traveling doctor, not his mother.
I will not be talking about the server member who mentions you encouraging SH. that is for them and only them to explain.
Hades’ next post regards your trend of racism. Your explanation of why changing white characters into POCs is racist shows a very closed-off mindset where you as a white person refuse to allow these teenagers a way to find themselves in their favorite characters, claiming that their way to add diversity and to find representation in their own ethnicities is another form of racism. The conversation directly involved in this also includes a form of colorism in your words. In this conversation, you explain to someone who edited Kalim’s Tsum groovy that they made Kalim “too dark”. Kalim as a character is already extremely whitewashed in canon, and the fact that this server member was attempting to give darker-skinned Arabs more representation is already a daunting feat. Again, like the sexuality and gender headcanons, changing a part of a canon character will not do much to include representation— but it’s the comfort of the people who headcanon that matters. As long as these people aren’t going out of their way to promote racist stereotypes, it is fine. Your server was supposed to promote creativity, not diminish it.
Now I was NOT involved in Hades’ 11th point, as this was likely after I left your server. It is exactly how it is described. You called someone a vampire, then said offensive things to them. I will not explain further as Hade’s goes into a deep explanation on what you did. Telling someone that it is “no big deal” that they beat CANCER is not okay.
You wanted explanations, and I have provided you with explanations. You’re not the victim, Azurith. You have hurt so many people in your server and then play the like we lied and harassed you.
This will be my only post on this situation. I hope you live the life you deserve.
More of malleus and silver sibling bonding time. I like to think that malleus is constantly stealing silver away to show him things and play. He also talks to him like he's a full grown adult which is both funny and good for silver in the long run.
Also this habit has stopped Lilia's heart on more than one occasion
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