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[yesbpdbabe-deactivated20210115]

my talent is knowing the exact coping skills that will help me feel better at any given moment and then deciding not to use them anyway

[the-amazing-boy-catastrophe-dea]

My reasons for doing things:

1. Spite 2. The Aesthetic

That’s it.

[meaningsofthestars]

okay i lied 3. Attention

[inahiddenplace]

like no offense… but the past most definitely just feels fake. like it just feels like it didn’t actually happen. like it just feels fake. i don’t like remembering things. it’s just a blurry little snapshot in my head. it just doesn’t seem real.

[thebpdevil]

Do you have a kik? ;)

It’s lizarddevil lmao hmu ✌️

[milkybored]

Please Help!

I’m in an abusive household and trying to afford to leave. It would mean the world to me if you could donate even a dollar or simply reblog. My PayPal is [email protected]. Thank you so much!

[theneurotypicals]

bpd is a trap: either you bottle everything up and become self-destructive or you express how you feel and people call you ‘manipulative’ and tell you you ‘overreact’   

[thebpdevil]

Today was my last day of group which means I've finished my 1 year cycle of DBT

[screenshotsofdespair]

[rohie-deactivated20191102]

if more than two inconvenient things happen to me in a 24 hour time period i automatically wanna kill myself

[thebpdevil]

…

[actuallyronanlynch]

Bpd feels like you’re screaming “I’M NOT OKAY, PLEASE HELP” at the top of your lungs over and over again, but everyone’s just pleasantly ignoring you.

[vulture-horticulture-deactivate]

Let me get this straight with all you invalidating ableist fuckwits.

Trauma is not “something bad that happened to you”. It’s not “a bad experience” or “a problem you once had”.

Trauma is a literal scar on your brain. Trauma is a life-changing experience that leaves a different person in its wake. A traumatic experience or multiple traumatic experiences lies their fingers in every part of your life. You can be happy again, you can cope, you can go to therapy and work out all of your issues. But you will never be the same again. Your life will never be the same again. You will always have to accommodate your trauma and take it everywhere with you.

We are not “over-reacting to a bad experience”. We are not “too sensitive”, you do not get to dictate if and when we “get over it” and you sure as fuck don’t get to dictate who or what triggers us and when.

[coldafternoon-deactivated202102]

*experiences the most mild form of rejection possible* im gonna fucking kill myse-

[cosmog]

me making connections to prove everyone i know secretly hates me

[lovehigher]

[thebpdevil]

For what it's worth I always read your tags & it's cool bc it's like having a conversation with you. I'm sorry that last anon was shit 😕😷. Also 126 days until Halloween 🎃!

This is so nice?? Thank you omg I'm glad to know someone reads my tags!!

[radiomaxwell]

so hey who else was taught as a kid that “”””wanting attention”””” in any way was wrong and shameful and has grown up unable ask for help or support even in great distress/suffering