shilohthecowgirl·:
Shiloh could see the other side. she could see it. there were green pastures, happy trails… a cotton candy cloud sky… it was ten but even better. there was a big river with no salt water… everything was beautiful, wild, and free. amazing. perfect. and there was beau! there was beau and he could see her and she was coming… but wait. there were people at home. people she needed to care for. people she loved. things she wanted to do.
kyanne. the woman had been so kind to her. so sweet, motherly. Shiloh had never had a mom, real or officially adopted. she’d just been a circus child, raised by the whole family. the night before her games when they’d cuddled on kyanne’s bed, Shiloh had felt special. like she alone was that woman’s priority. and she hoped Kyanne forgave her for losing. she hoped she understood. Shiloh had just been trying to help. a knife broke through her skin, and it severed that connection. where kyanne had touched her, held her… she had to let it go.
her future. all the things she wanted to do. she’d wanted to win, to see the capitol again. she’d wanted to go home, to remember things about her brother, to live on through him. she’d wanted to see ten again, to see the capitol again, to see everything and everything. and a victory tour had sounded cool. see all of panem… a knife went straight into her liver. she didn’t have a future anymore. she wouldn’t need the organ that would clean your blood and keep it alive longer. she hoped they just didn’t forget her.
‘mom’. ‘dad’. ‘auntie’. ‘uncle’. all the adults in the rodeo back home. her brother. home. and yeah, maybe they weren’t family. but weren’t they, though? she’d been sent into the games under the pretense that they were. and beau had died getting something for her. she would’ve died for any of the people back home. family wasn’t something you were born into, she’d learned. she understood that, now. the knife hit an artery, and a particularly vicious spurt of blood came out. they were her blood, even if her real blood didn’t want her. she hoped they knew she loved the people who did.
the last thing she held onto was dumb as dirt. SC. a horse. her horse. they’d grown up together. Shiloh loved the horse so much she’d taken her name. they were partners in crime, partners in competing, and partners in life. the knife finally hit her heart. she hoped that the birth shiloh given name clementine was okay. she hoped she was well taken care of. and for the first time in her whole life, she hoped that she wouldn’t be able to understand what was going on with shiloh even though the horse always seemed to. she wanted her to be okay. not to miss her.
there was so much pain. so much pain. so. much. p a i n. Shiloh couldn’t do anything but lie still and groan, her eyes full of pain. she only had a minute left, but she was ready to go and it hurt. it hurt so bad. hurt. so. b a d. when Buckingham turned back, Shiloh internally winced. more pain? why? she’d done nothing wrong… nothing wrong. nothing. w r o n g. why… why?
but buckingham raised her sword high, and shiloh knew. it was time to climb that fence. they always said the grass was greener on the other side, didn’t they? time to find out. she tried to smile a little bit as the blood came pouring out of her mouth. the sword severed her head from her body as her feet touched down on greener. freer pastures. everyone she loved would be here someday, and she’d see them soon. then she could take them all by the hand the way she held beau’s now. didn’t know know? cowboys never die at the end. Shiloh took the games like a true cowgirl. she’d ride off into the sunset.
Y E E H A W
BOOM
the cannon was a welcomed sound but one that didn’t bring as much relief as the blonde hoped it would. all buckingham’s mind could do was have what time she spent with shiloh flash before her eyes. the way the girl looked when she watched back the reapings, how she seemed to enjoy the capitol even more than some career tributes, how she helped her fix her tiara. that damned, stupid tiara. it was the only thing that tied her to the girl from te- shiloh. buckingham knew she should know the girl’s name; it was the least she could do after beheading her after the girl saved her. if her stylist had put the accessory on properly, none of this would’ve happened. she could’ve eliminated the girl with no second thought.
buckingham looked back towards shiloh and immediately looked away again. the sight was something she knew she didn’t want to see but felt like she had to look. it was as if something was telling her, forcing her, to look at what she had done. the sight made her sick, so much so that she had to stop herself from keeling over and embarrassing herself on national television. she could look at the body, but the head. in a sense, shiloh looked peaceful and buckingham tried to force herself to feel good about it all. could the girl have made it? would she be the next in line of charismatic victors? the answers were futile and she knew it.
it was as she looked away that she spotted a patch of flowers. roses? snowdrops? she didn’t know. impulsively, buckingham picked up shiloh’s severed head by the hair, making sure to look forward and focus on the flowers. she figured she looked a monster to most of panem, she knew that. with an inhale, she threw the girl’s head to the patch of flowers, letting it roll slightly before looking away. she brought a palm to her forehead, rubbing it slightly before shouting in frustration. she shouldn’t care this much. this is what outer tributes did. she wasn’t one of them. she was a career.
still, as stretched her legs to run away from the scene, she looked down. “i’m sorry,” she said under her breath, only just enough for panem to hear. “maybe you deserved to win.”
looking around, she picked up her pace to a run, leaving the girl from district ten’s body behind her.












